*5 months later*
My song has been doing well! I've many views and the comments on it are good too. I'm so glad and everything goes better with myself also. I'm still in London though, i've an interview tonight and i'm getting ready in an hour or so.
Pretty excited but i've had a lot so i'm used to it. My song just got on number 1 yesterday and the fans have been supporting me so much that words can't explain! I'm freaking happy and my smile didn't even fade away.
Harry has been texting me lately, also the others but Niall. I don't know but i think it's really over between us... It hurts, because i still do love him, but i need to move on. After almost 6 months, not talking and seeing him, i need to move on. Well, you can say than that Harry and i have been really close again. And i really mean, seriously close. Our texts are beginning to be like we're in a relationship. I don't know how i feel about that, but i don't know if i need to stop it also.
Jace has been growing up so quickly that i don't even know if i'll be able to even call him my little son again. It's pretty funny but also sad, because i don't wanna leave him that soon. Even when he's almost a year. He's obviously a mommy-child. Well yeah, he doesn't see his dad. One Direction are starting a new Tour, which means Harry is gonna be busy and have no time for Jace or me. Niall will see other countries, which means knew people, which means probably girls and than move on also. Well i can't say things about that, i give him the right to do that...
It hurts to say but it's the truth.
Not gonna say that i'll be really happy with it, but if he is happy, i am. And like i said before, i also need to move on. My parents also moved to London to help me with Jace because i don't know how long i'll stay here. But hey, i seriously hope my mom will change her mind and maybe live here again. Who knows?!
But for now, they sleep in a hotel and discover London. I sleep in a tour bus, even when i'm not on tour. Not yet.
'Mommy!', Jace cheered while he crawled over to me.
'Jacey. Come here.', i took him on my lap and gave him a kiss on his forehead.
I took my phone and took a picture of him. He's so cute! I know i've been saying that a lot but that's normal, right.
'Love you, Jace.'
He closed his eyes a bit when his little head laid on my chest. I think i'll try to do something, but i'm not sure if it's gonna work. After a few minutes, i noticed he fell asleep.
'Hey, sweety.', i heard someone say. I turned my head and saw my mom walking to me. I smiled brightly and gave her a kiss when she sat next to me.
'Jace sleeping?', i nodded my head and laid him on her lap when she opened her arms.
'He's so cute. I know he'll be as perfect as his mother.'
'And grandmother.', she looked up to me and smiled.
'I need to get ready in a bit. Can you take him with you for the night?... I wanna rest when the interview is done and-'
'Ofcourse, sweetheart. That's no problem for me.', 'Thank you mom.', she smiled and rubbed my back.
'You're growing up so quickly, just like Jace. I think he does because of you.', she chuckled.
'I know right.. Time goes by so fast. Wish i could stop it for a while.', she nodded and smiled when she looked over to Jace again. I love to see the most important people, for me, together.
'Mom, i've an idea but i don't know if it's gonna be good.'
'What is it?'
'Hillary, you really need to get ready now.', Allison said coming into the room. I nodded lightly and stood up.
'Tell me another time. Now get ready for the interview!'
I smiled and gave her a hug, than a kiss on Jace's cheek and ran after Allison.
Time to get ready for the interview now.
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Hillary Star @Hilla_Star
Ready for the interview!! XD Go watch it in a few mins if you don't wanna miss it ! :) xx (Photo taken by @Alli_brie ) (Link in other tweet ;D)
I posted the picture with the caption on Twitter and put my phone away. I ran backstage and took a sip of the water bottle that Lilly gave me. She's my assistent or how you say that. I don't really see her like that because she's more like just a good friend.
The interviewer soon enough jumped on stage and began to talk while Allison and i were practicing a bit with my voice. I don't know if i already said it but i'm gonna perform "Break Free" tonight. I'm excited because it's the first time i'll do it live for the TV or audience.
'5 minutes, Hillary!', i smiled and nodded.
'Goodluck! I'll be right here.', Allison chuckled. I thanked her and gave her a hug.
'So here is she! The only and beautiful Hillary Star!'
I heard people cheering and i ran on stage with a big smile. I gave the interviewer (Jake (i couldn't think of a better name. Lol) a hug and sat down at the couch in front of him.
'Welcome Hillary! How are you?'
'I'm doing good, thanks. How are you?'
'Everything is fine! Now, you're pretty busy the last few days, how can you care for a little cute kid like Jace than?'
'It's pretty hard but it's good. I've much support from my parents and friends so i get through it.', i explained still smiling. I don't know if my smile will still be, 'cause i've the feeling there will be questions i don't wanna answer.
'How is it between you and One Direction? Everyone expected that you all would be so close at any time, but it suddenly went from close to strangers?... How?'
Here comes it. A question that i don't wanna answer. It's privacy by the way..
'Uuhm.. Well, we're still close.. Just not that much because they're having a tour again... And i'm busy also.'
'How can you deal with the fact that Harry is busy and can't care for Jace?'
'I know he has a career also and i can live with it. I've much support, as i already said and i know Harry tries to do his best.', Jake nodded but still asked questions and it actually annoyed me a bit.
'What about Niall?', is he seriously not gonna ask about myself? I mean, if he wants to ask those questions, just ask Niall by himself.
'What's wrong about him?', i asked like nothing is going on.
'We all know that you both have been doing not that great. Do you both still talk with each other?'
'No...', 'Why?', 'I'm sorry but that's actually something i don't wanna talk about. It's a part of our privacy and honestly, i don't even know what's gonna happen between us..', i got out of me trying to not sound that mad. But i was and if he's going to ask more, i'm gonna freak out. Luckily he didn't and just nodded lightly.
'I'm sorry, Hillary. Hope you're not mad now.'
'No, i'm not.', i smiled weakly. I hate lying but i'm already used to it when Niall and i were together in the beginning. Than was still everything between us better.
'Well, okay, you're gonna sing your new song "Break Free" tonight!', the crowd cheered and clapped their hands. I smiled and nodded.
'Have you already planned a tour or other new songs?'
'No not yet but i think i'll give the fans a suprise soon enough.', i smirked and looked to the crowd smiling brightly.
'We love to hear that! Now, you can go on the real stage and show what you've got! The stage is all yours but don't take it home.', i chuckled and shook my head.
I stood up and walked to the round stage and took the mic in my hands. I smiled and began to sing "Break Free".
It went better than i thought. The crowd loved it and many of them stood up while cheering.
'Thank you! Love you all.', i waved and soon, the interview was done.
It was 11pm and i was pretty tired. I put the make-up off and changed my clothes when i was in the bus again. I gave the crew a hug and went in bed. I quickly fell asleep when i closed my eyes, thinking of my family and fans. I do that a lot. Especially dreaming of my fans. I love them and they're part of my life and family. They support me a lot and i wish i could meet them all. I promised them i would make time to meet ALL of them, and i'm not gonna break that promise.