Hi, guys !!
I'm so happy to always write for y'all ! :)
I'm like listening to Our Boys their 'sad' songs the whole time... I always have to think on the old boys, & sometimes on WWA Tour... I so can't waaaait !! :D xx Short chappie... Sorry :( :'( xx
Don't forget to check out my other story's too maybe ? ;) xx
Yesterday was a war... Well, for me. The doctor checked me and i had to rest. Again. I'm so NOT happy !... I'm crying now for no f*cking reason... Niall is here with me now, watching boring tv. He had his arm wrapped around me, and tried to calm me down. It didn't work, it didn't even work to be happy when there came a song from the boys on tv. Nothing worked... The doctor just said that it's a reaction from the pregnancy. I'm not sure how long i'm already pregnant. Why not; well i actually didn't wanna listen to the doctor. Niall already told me this morning, and he said i was almost 2 months. My mouth flew open when i heard that! I thought i was already so long... Now i still need to take care for this little kid in my belly for like 7 months! I don't think i can handle that...
'What about tonight?!'
I asked sobbing. Niall calmed me down and embraced me.
'Don't worry about the fans. They'll understand it.'
'What will they understand?!', i began and pulled away.
'That i'm pregnant and need to rest?!... They don't even know that i'm pregnant, Niall.'
I said and sobbed again. I wiped my tears away and let out a deep sigh.
'I know... Just say that you really don't feel good.. You can make it better when you're back again.'
'No, Niall. I don't care what that stupid doctor says. I'm gonna do my concerts. If i need to rest or not.'
I said and stood up walking to upstairs.
I heard Niall say but just ignored him and went into the bathroom. I looked into the mirror and looked to my belly for a few minutes...
I don't deserve this...
'Babe, i know you're strong, and i really appreciate that. But please.. The fans will understand when you just say the concerts off.'
'They'll not understand! If i don't find a good reason... By the way, they'll hate me. Niall, i don't understand why you're so good with saying this. You don't want it too when you feel sick or something. Fans have been waiting for this for years!... Now i do it, and i'm not gonna say it off!'
I said and stormed out of the bathroom. I was pissed now....
I luckily had a mirror in the room and did my make-up better. It was all ruined by crying.
It was cute when Niall stayed here for me while the others were eating food. It made me looking confused/weird too. Because he never says "No" to food.
'Sorry..', i said when i was downstairs again. I already put other clothes on and my make-up was better too. Niall looked away from the tv and weakly smiled to me. He patted on the couch next to him where i could sit. I smiled and ran over to him. I plopped on the couch and wrapped my left arm around his waist. I laid my head on his shoulder and sighed out of relief. I closed my eyes for a while. It felt so good to lay in his arms. He directly wrapped his arms around my shoulder and gave me a kiss on my forehead.
'Rest a bit now than.', he whispered and laid his head on mine a bit. I didn't response. I couldn't actually, because when he said that, i directly went to dreamland.