I slowly opened my eyes after the first time. I got used on the bright light, but got shocked when i noticed i wasn't home. Not at my house, not at Hillary's, not at the boys.... Just a white room. What happened ?!...
I looked around and saw i had 'tubes' on my body. Am i really where i think i am.
Was i really in the hospital ?!..
Noooo, that can't be!!... I hate hospitals.. Wait, where is Hillary?! I thought i was with her yesterday... Is it even already yesterday. What the hell, i'm so confused!..
'Oh, Mr. Horan. I see you're awake.', my head shot up to the door to see a doctor coming in.
'Uuh... What's wrong with me?', i tried to sound sweet, but i was confused, scared, sad, and freaked out at the same time.
'You got in a car accident yesterday...'
'You just need to rest.. Later on the day, a nurse will come and explain everything. Just sleep, and we'll wake you if you're still sleeping.'
The doctor went away directly when he said that. Wauw, nice doctor...
Wait, what... Car accident... And Hillary?!... WHAT?! Hillary!... Shit..
I groaned and already could move a bit. When i woke up, i was just frozen. I couldn't do anything.
I rubbed my eyes and laid my head back down on the actually soft pillow. I'm not gonna sleep anymore! I already did last night probably.
'Hey, mate! Everything alright?!', i heard a familiar voice say/ask. I looked to the door and saw the boys running in. They looked really worried.
'I don't think so!', i snapped. Which wasn't meant to be. I'm just scared and want to know if Hillary is alright. That's more important for me, than knowing what is wrong with myself.
'I'm sorry, Niall.. What happened? The doctor that just came out of your room was a bit hurried..'
'I know, right?!... I probably got in a car crash....'
'What?!', Liam asked, his eyes widening. I slightly nodded and looked to my hands.
'Mate, how?', Louis asked again, sitting on the chair next to me. While the others sat on the windowsill.
'I don't know! That annoying doctor will not say more than just this what i said. He didn't even say something about Hillary!'
'Oh, a nurse did to us..', Zayn said. My eyes widened and directly asked what happened.
'Well, she's not awake like you.... We'll not be able to see her until she wakes up.. We now know just the same like you.'
'Shit. It's all my fault!', the boys shook their heads. I sighed and groaned again. I watched Harry, because he still didn't move or say something. He just sat on a chair, biting his lip, looking to the ground. I knew what was wrong. He ofcourse wanted to know everything about Hillary too. I don't need to talk about the fact of their baby i think ?!....
'Goodmorning, everyone.', someone smiled coming into the room. I placed a fake smile and watched her coming closer.
'I'm Jenny, your nurse. I've good news for you!', a bright smile went on my face, and Harry did his first move. Directly looking to her.
'If you rest and just sleep for a bit after these guys are out, you'll be able to go home tomorrow.', i smiled and nodded.
'Uuhm... What about Hillary Star?..'
She looked to her papers and probably searched her name.
'Uuuh... Mrs. Star..... Oh, here she is. I can't tell anything... She's still not awake, but y'all will be the first to know it! I've one question, can one of you contact her parents? We tried, but failed. They didn't pick up their phone.'
I looked confused, just like the others.
'We'll try.', Liam said after a few seconds of silence. She nodded and smiled.
This isn't what i wanted. I wanted an answer on Hillary. A good one. Not just that she can't tell something. She walked out of the room and it was silence again. My eyes got heavier when i thought about everything. Okay, i was tired. But i wanna be awake. The boys are here and-
'We'll give you some rest. We'll try to call Hillary her parents, okay? We'll come back tonight or so.'; Liam interrupted my thoughts.
They smiled weakly and gave me a light hug. Harry was the last, and the others already went outside the room when i took his arm.
'I know how you feel.', i whispered. I saw tears forming in his eyes, what with me began to be too.
We were crying now... But it's about Hillary. And the baby...
'I'm sorry, Niall.'
'It's okay, Harry. I know it's hard for you too. It's probably so much harder for you than for me.'
He shrugged his shoulders and stood straighten.
'See you tonight.', he said with a 'stuck' voice. I nodded and sighed. Why is this all happening?..
It's all my f*cking fault... All mine...
The hardest thing is...
If i was more careful, if i wasn't with Hillary, if i didn't do this all to her..;
She would probably have a better life than now...
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