Louis can sometimes -i say sometimes!- be so.....
It's a situation between Niall and me. Not Niall, me, and Louis! I'm not happy with everything i did too, but i just have to take a pause. Why does nobody understand that?!
It's like they think i'm happy with the fact that i broke up with Niall, that he's crying and all that stuff.
But i'm not !! I'm really depressed... I don't like that all ! I hate it to see or hear that Niall' crying. And inside of me, i wanna brust out in tears everytime when i see or hear him. But what can i do?
Okay, i can talk with him. But i don't like that... It's so... Hard... I do wanna talk, but i'll cry and cry and cry...
I got interruped by my thoughts because i had a Twitter mention.
@Hilla_Star I'm almost there. Coming !! :D ;) Can't wait to see you again, girl :) x
I smiled, and Rted it. After like 10 seconds, i got a message from Justin.
From; J-J x
"I'm almost in L.A.. You? Xx"
To; J-J x
"Yeah... I think.... 30 minutes, and i'm at the place were we have to be :D x"
From; J-J x
"Amazing. I think i'll be there in like 15 minutes :) x"
I texted him an "okay" back, and put my phone away.
I said, when Harry came to sit next to me.
'How's it? You seem so.... Down..'
'I'm just.... Pissed off..'
'Louis is still saying that Niall is stuck and all that. I can't do something about that! I'm not happy too, ofcourse not. He don't understand that i'm broken too. I don't let it see, but i am that absolutely!'
'Just let him be worried about Niall..... Look.... We all know that you 2 are broken. A lot. But Louis and the others, are just worried about Niall.. They think that he'll not be strong enough to do concerts anymore, and that he'll break down..'
'If i'm strong, Niall has to be it too! I've a concert tonight, and i'm tired. I'm pissed off, stressed, tired, broken and so much more! But i don't give up!'
'Tell that Niall than! He's the one that can't be himself anymore..'
I sighed loudly, and slowly nodded.
'Look Hillary.... I know that it's hard, but i think you 2 have to do something.... Talk... And end it.... Or talk and go further...'
I looked up to him, and shrugged my shoulders.
'I don't know what to do, Harry!.... I'm so..... Confused....'
'If you love him, talk and go further. If you want a pause, or just don't love him anymore... I think you better have to end it... It'd be harsh if you go further just for him, and that you don't lo-'
'I still love him! A lot!'
'Say it him than! He thinks that you don't want him anymore!'
'I don't know!'
I almost yelled. And tears fell from my face. I held my head in my hands, and went with my fingers through my hair.
'Sssshh... It's alright... We'll get though it... Okay?'
Harry whispered when i stayed replying things in my mind. He rubbed my back, and embraced me in a hug.
'Why is my little sis crying?'
I heard a worried Zayn say.
'Harry... Did you do-'
'Leave it, Zayn.'
'Owkay... After i know what's wrong.'
Harry whispered, trying to not say it out loud. I heard Zayn sighing, and give me a fast hug, going away. I wiped my tears away, and sighed.
'I'm fine... Can i just be alone for a few minutes?'
Harry nodded, and went to the 'bedrooms' when he gave me a tight hug. I smiled weakly, and laid on the couch. I turned to the other side, and sighed loudly. Tears went down my face again, and i didn't even realize that someone stood behind me. I turned around, and sat fastly straighten.
'Hey... How's it?...'
'I think the same like you....'
I said, and sighed slightly.
'You didn't do something, Niall.'
'Yes i did! And that's ruining your life!....'
'Yes, i did, Hillary !!.... I ruined your life. With all the rumours, secrets, and problems.... I did everything wrong, and that was bad. I know that-that's why you broke up with me!.. I'm not good in this all. I love you, but i ruined everything!'
I looked up to Niall, that a weakly smiled placed on my face.
'Guys. We're here!'
Liam said, and went out of the bus. I stood up, and walked slowly away after Niall and i looked to each other again. Harry ran to me, and held his arm around my waist. I smiled weakly, and went out of the Tourbus. I waved to many screaming fans, and smiled. I shared some autographs, and took some pictures with fans.
'I love you, Hillary!'
'Omfg! I love you, Niall!'
'Can i have a picture with you guys, and Hillary?'
'LOUIS, ZAYN !!!!!! AAAAAH!!!!'
Harry held me tight, and i covered my ears because of the loud screaming. I smiled, and went inside the area.
'Love y'all !'
I said, waving to the croud. They screamed louder and louder, and Harry laughed, and pulled me inside the building. I sighed with happiness, and saw Allison, Lou, Lux and Tom standing there. I ran to them, and grabbed Lux directly in my arms. I held her in my arms, and hugged the others.
'I missed you!'
'I missed you too, Lux!'
I said, and gave her a kiss on the cheek.
Allison cheered, and we went to the changing room.
Omg!!... The boys didn't win !.... :(