'No Justin.... It's alright!.... Yeah..... I'm forgiving you..... Thanks..... Okay, see ya.'
I talked to fast earlier this week. Justin called me today and said he hadn't his phone with him. I don't really know if i need to believe him but i just don't want to discuss anymore. I just want a relaxed week. Especially because i've **** much pain and that i'll give birth to a baby boy soon enough. I've been sick for this whole week and i can say that i want the baby now. Like just right now. I'm getting tired of waiting, tired of being in the hospital and tired of having him in my belly.
I sighed when there was nothing on the TV. I can't do something here and it's annoying. Niall went away to take some food a few minutes ago so he'll probably be here soon again.
Harry already tried to come but as always, management needed to come between us. He had to stay in London and it's killing me. What the hell do they think? I need a name for the baby! I've been thinking about it and i've already a few, but i can't chose actually.
I never thought it would be so hard to chose a name or get a baby, but that's life. I'm not the only one with this problems.
'Hey, babe.', i smiled when Niall came into the room.
'Hey, Nialler. Got some food?'
'Yeah, i got some for you too.'
'Ooh, thanks!', i smiled and gave him a kiss on the lips after our hug. He gave me food and sat down on the end of my bed. I smiled and got a wink from him back.
'Already heard Harry?'
'Naah. Not today. Justin called!'
'What? Seriously? I knew he couldn't forget you!', Niall smiled and took a bit of his sandwich. I sighed lightly and nodded. I sometimes can't forget him too. Don't get me wrong, i love Niall and i don't mean it in another way because i still think about Justin. But thinking about the time i kissed him... If you think further.. I don't even deserve Niall. I kissed Harry AND Justin.. While i was with Niall... Both were when i was drunk and Niall knew it when i kissed Harry..
I hate it but i just don't wanna remember it anymore, even if i do.
'Huh?', i asked getting out of my thoughts.
'You look confused and sad.'
'Oh nothing.', i shrugged my shoulders and smiled weakly. Niall nodded and took his phone out.
'Picture for on Twitter.'
'No-no, Niall. People will be more asking questions and-'
'Princess, i don't care.'
Niall set his phone on camera and switched the side. I sighed but still laughed. Typical him.
Niall took the picture and put it on Twitter. I smiled and took my phone from the table next to me. I got a mention saying that Niall send a tweet and 'tagged' me in it. I opened it and smiled, RT'ing and Fav'ing it.
Niall Horan @NiallOfficial
With my babe in the hospital <3 @Hilla_Star
(A/Y= Bad edit. Sorry, best i could find so yeah. Idc :D )
I sighed and slowly laid down on the bed again. Hard to move, even when i needed to do it because i would be stuck when i was out of the hospital. I saved the photo on my phone and laid it next to me. I looked pretty tired on the picture, which i really was!
'I think i'm gonna take a nap.'
'Sure, babe. I'll stay right here.', Niall smiled and sat next to the bed on a chair. He held my hand and looked to me. I smiled weakly and got a kiss on my forehead from Niall.
I'm so happy with him in my life. He helps me through stuff i can't handle by myself. He cares for me, more than someone could ever do. He stays with me whenever i need him. And i love him with all my heart, even when i made a few mistakes.
Do you know understand why i can't leave him or why i always say he's the father?...
Niall is my life, and i know i'm not the only one that says that.
But he's everything. Everything i could ever wish for.
I hope he still feels the same, whenever i do something. I hope this is forever....
But now i just need to enjoy, being with him. Because maybe soon enough, he'll just need to go back to London.
And what i didn't realize until now....
I'll probably have to care for the baby alone..