11. Say Goodbye
I finally woke up after what seemed like forever. i opened my eyes only to be surprised that I was in my bed. I tried to roll over but a warm flesh filled body laid behind me. I turned over to face the person realizing it was Niall, he looked so peaceful I slowly took in every aspect of his face. I couldn’t help but run my fingers through his hair, just as I did that his eyes shoot open “Don’t touch the hair.” I laughed soo hard. He sat up and fixed his hair, I just happened to notice he didn’t have a shirt on. Godd did he have a body, his abs were perfectly toned. “Take a picture it will last longer.” Dang he caught me staring. “Sorry you really should keep a shirt on.” he laughed and smiled “I’m going to go get something to eat do you want anything?” I shook my head no at him, although I really wanted a milkshake. Niall had already been doing so much for me I couldn’t ask anything more “okay sweet cheeks I’ll be back don’t get into any trouble while I’m gone.” I nodded and went into my bathroom so I could take a shower.
Just after leaving Mike’s house I was very frustrated, I decide to go to a bar. I got into my car and drove to the nearest bar, just as I was about to walk in I saw a girl standing over to the side. She had long dirty blonde wavy hair just like Mandy’s…Mandy I jumped back into my car and put Mandy’s address into my phone. It was about a 45 minute drive. I started my car a drove off, while driving to her house I smoked four blunts. By the time I finally got there I was so lifted I was seeing things, but nothing was going to stop me from going to see her. I parked my car in her driveway and went up to the door remembering that she keeps a spare key under her door mat, so I grabbed the key and let myself in. I walked into her house and quietly searched for her, and then I heard the water running from her room. I went into her room and sat on her bed admiring all of her pictures hanging on the wall even the pretty unicorn that kept randomly showing up. I heard the water turn off and the door open she was beautiful, her hair fell down her back and she was wrapped in a bright pink towel, with her baby bump just barely noticeable. “Mandy”
I had been taking a shower when I heard my bed room door open I figured it was Niall back with his food. I finished in the shower and wrapped a towel around my body, I left my clothes out on my bed. I opened the door leading to my room “Mandy?” I didn’t look at Niall because I was awkward being in only a towel. “UHH Ni, I need to get dressed can you leave.” “Mandy?” It took me a second to detect the voice but when I looked up it was exactly who I thought it was. “Zayn?” “ Mandy baby, I’m so sorry please. UNICORN!!” “Zayn? Wh..what are you doing here?” “Baby don’t move the unicorn is right above you” “Zayn what the hell are you talking about?” “Shhhh… don’t say anything.” “Zayn are you okay?” “Mandy stop asking questions.” I walked over to him “DON’T MOVE!” I kept walking when I was close enough to him I looked at him, his eyes were red and glossy, I knew he had been smoking marijuana. It disgusted me. How could he be so inconsiderate of me to show up uninvited and high out of his mind? “What in the living hell gave you the burst of courage to show up at MY house after you have been out using drugs?” “Mandy I’m sorry ill just leave.” “No you’re not going anywhere, you’re going to lay your ass down and go to sleep.” He didn’t say anything more he laid down on my bed, I walked to my dresser and grabbed out some clothes to sleep in and went into the bathroom. After I changed I couldn’t bare it anymore the tears just came falling, I sank down to the floor and cried. I cried until I heard Niall come in and ask me what happened. I just looked at Niall and cried even more “Shh, pumpkin don’t cry… what happened?” I wiped my tears and stood up “Ni I don’t know how much longer I can do it.” “Do what Kitten?” “I can’t be here anymore you guys have tour coming up and Zayn is getting worse. I just have to leave.” Niall looked at me with apologetic eyes as tears rolled down his face. “Where will you go?” “I can’t tell you, but I know I will be safe. Just please don’t come looking or trying to find me, just forget.” He started crying even harder “Wh..what about the… the baby?” “Niall please forget” I grabbed him into a big hug. “I’m leaving in the morning.” I walked out of the bathroom and into kitchen. He followed behind me “will you write, and send pictures?” “Ni….” “Mandy you can’t JUST LEAVE ME! FOR GODDSAKE THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU’RE GOING TO DO TO ME!” “Don’t yell…” “Just please don’t do this.” He walked closer to me and started crying again. “Mandy I…I love you. Please don’t leave me.” “I’m sorry Niall” I grabbed a bottle of water and walked to my spare room. I couldn’t sleep I just needed Niall to think I was. About an hour later I opened the door and looked around the corner and saw Niall sleeping on the couch. I walked to my room and saw Zayn still sleeping I went to my closet and grabbed out two suitcases. I packed as many clothes as I could fit into them which was most of them. I took my suitcases and walked out of the room and headed for the front door, remembering on the way to grab my keys and my phone. I silently opened the door and walked out closing it behind me. I walked to my car loaded my bags, got in and drove off. That was it no goodbye nothing, I couldn’t stand hurting and of the boys again. So this was my goodbye to them.