I woke up the next morning at 8:00 and something wasn't right. I quickly jumped out of the bed and ran to the bathroom. I lifted up the toilet seat and began puking my guts out. I felt someone come in and grab my hair holding it out of my face. I finished and flushed the toilet, then went over to the sink and washed my hands and face. I turned around and saw Zayn sitting on the edge of the bed with his hands over his face. "Are you okay?" I walked over to him waiting for an answer, he just sat there and didn't say anything. After a few minutes he lifted his head and grabbed my waist pulling my stomach to his face. "your pregnant!" his words were harsh it sounded like he was mad. "I didn't pull out, Godd im so stupid!!" He pushed me backwards slightly, got up and went into the bathroom slamming the door. How did he know I was pregnant, so I threw up the night afte.... ohh it makes since, but that didn't explain why he was mad. I walked over to the bathroom door and opened it, there he sat fully clothed, in the shower with the water running over him. "We have to get that thing out of you!" His words ripped my heart out, if I was pregnant was he saying he didn't want it? "Zayn..." "NO. THERE'S NO CHANGING MY MIND. I AM A MONSTER AND THAT THING INSIDE OF YOU IS A SPUN OF ME. IT DOESN'T DESERVE TO BE ON THIS EAR.." "STOPPPPP!!! WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH YOU? YOUR FUCKING INSANE IF YOU THINK I AM KILLING THIS BABY IF THERE IS ONE!" His words were killing me I couldn't take it any longer. I turned around and stomped out of the bathroom slamming the door. I heard the bathroom water turn off and Zayn come out of the bathroom. I sat on the bed and stared at him. He was leaning against the wall dripping water everywhere, but I didn't care he was beautiful. How could he think he was a monster? I started crying, he didn't want me nor did he want anything to do with this baby if there was one. "Come here, Don't cry" I got up and walked over to wiping my tears, but that didn't help they just kept coming. I buried my head into his chest and continued crying. "Baby girl im sorry. it's just...i just.. I've lost a child before. It's was my fault, if i would have gotten angry I would have them." I continued to cry harder and harder "Love please stop crying." I wiped my tears and walked to his drawers, I was now drenched in water. I grabbed out one of his shirts walked past him and went into the bathroom. I closed the door and locked it, he didn't want me he was using excuses to cover up his mistake. I hadn't felt like this in a long time, before my pain was washed away by the razor. I couldn't do that now, could I? it would make me feel better, no more pain, no more sorrow. I looked around the bathroom and found what I was looking for, I grabbed the razor and stripped myself from my wet clothes. I turned the water on and let it run over my body, I was now sitting on the shower floor bawling my eyes out. "Mandy open the door please." the sound of his voice was taunting me only making the thoughts of cutting stronger. "Baby i'm sorry, just let me in please" That was it 1 cut, 2 cuts, 3...4..5.. and on and on until the door was busted open and Zayn ran in
Something wasn't right she wasn't answering me, she was just sobbing. it scared me, I had nothing left to do but bust open the door. The bathroom was foggy i guess from the hot water. I turned the corner to face the shower and there sat Mandy. she was naked and there was red stuff.... oh shit that's blood. I ran closer to her and that's when I saw the marks. I froze, I had never seen so much blood in my life. I looked down at her poor defenseless body, and I couldn't breath. I walked over to her and turned the water off, she looked up at me "What did you do Mandy?" I picked her up and took her to the bed, her arm was covered in blood and she was still bleeding. "Don't. Move" I ran into the hallway and grabbed the first aid kit. "Give me your arm" She shook her head No. "What do you mean No" I grabbed her arm and poured peroxide on it "AHHHHHHHHHHH!!" she ripped her arm away from me. "Why did you do that?" Did she really just ask me that? "Why did you do thaat" I said to her pointing at her arm, then grabbing it again. I took some gauze, wrapped it around her arm and tapped it. After I was finished she grabbed on of my shirts and threw it on. She got up and walked out of the room without saying a word. What had gotten into her? I got up and changed yet again this time only putting sweat pants on, after I had changed I walked out of my room to find her. "Mandy!!" I walked down stairs and saw her standing on the balcony. I walked out "Mandy get inside your going to freeze." she didn't listen "Did you hear me, get inside" still she stared at the woods behind my house. I slowly walked over to her "Mandy?" I walked up behind her and spun her around. She had tears running down her face and she looked broken. "Mandy what's wrong." she ignored my question and turned back around. I ran inside and grabbed a blanket, when I came back out she was still in the same spot. I walked over to her and spun her around again. "Whats wrong?" she didn't answer me just cried into my chest. I wrapped the blanket around her and took her inside. I took her hand and pulled her back upstairs laying her down on the bed. I turned off the light and laid down next to her. She wasn't crying anymore I could tell. "Zayn....Can you tell me about her?"