As I stood in front of the hospital doors I took a deep breathe, and prepared myself to hear the worst.
"Hello how may I help you" the older lady at the desk greeted me as I walked up.
"I have an meeting with Samantha Adams doctor, I didn't really catch his names on the phone" I said sheepishly.
"That's fine, just let me look up who it is then I'll send you to his office" she smiled sweetly before she went to typing away. "It's Dr. Who and his office is in the cancer patients room, the dIrectitory She said while looking up at me.
"Nope I think I'll be fine" I smiled and made my way to the elevator, the cancer wing was on the highest floor, I got in the elevator and pressed the button for the top floor. once I got out of the elevator, I cluelessly looked for his office. When I found his office a slowly raised my hand and knocked lightly.
"Come in" I heard a voice call from the other side of the door.
"Hello, I'm Niall" I smiled sticking my hand out to shake his.
"Dr. Who" he said as he shook my hand. "Please sit" he said as he gestured towards a chair across from him.
"So I'm here about Samantha Adams" I said as I moved some papers to be able to take a seat.
"Yes of course, let me find her file" he said rummaging through all the papers he had all over is desk. "Sorry I'm such a mess"
"Oh it's fine, everyone is a bit of a mess" I chuckled thinking of how Andrea has made my life much messier.
"Okay so I'm just going to pull this off like a band-aid, Samantha is dying.... Quickly, she been worse then she ever has and I say she has 3 weeks to maybe two months, the cancer is spreading faster then we can get rid of it. I'm so sorry for having to tell you this, but it had to be done" he said sadly looking my in the eyes.
"Oh" I said, I tried to say more but that was all that could come out.
"Would you like to see her??" He asked standing up, I nodded quickly because I didn't trust my voice. "Follow me" he said as he walked down the hallway causing me to jolt and speed walk up to him.
"Should I knock before I go in??" I asked awkwardly by the open door.
"I'm sure it fine, I'll leave you two alone" he smiled walking over to the nurses station.
I took I deep breathe as I walked into the room, and turned the corner to just stop in my tracks. She looked so weak and pale, just like a porcelain doll.
"Niall, what are you doing here??" She quickly questioned once she saw me.
"I uh, got a call from your doctor" I explained as I walked closer towards her bed.
"Oh, what did he say??" She asked sitting up slowly.
"Nothing important" I said after a long pause, unsure if I should tell her.
"He said I'm dying didn't he??" She questioned me noticing I was lying.
"Yeah, he did" I trailed off sadly.
"Listen I already knew and I want you to go on your tour, I'll be fine" she smiled lightly.
"But what if your not here when I come back??" I asked bewildered by her request.
"Well I would like to see you all before you go, mostly my baby" she rambled.
"Sam, i can't go on tour with you like this" I said gesturing around.
"I'll be fine" she reasoned.
"I don't want to leave you knowing you might not be here when I get back" I argued lightly.
"Why it's not like u cared before, you certainly didn't care the night you left me" she said angrily, you could see her veins popping out.
"I did care, more then you would ever know" I said looking her in the eyes.
"Then why did you leave me??" She questioned sassily.
"I got too busy and I would have been traveling around, I couldn't imagine putting you through that with all you had going on yourself" I said sadly.
"Oh" she quietly.
"Maybe I should go" I said standing up and walking towards the door.
"Are you going on tour??" She called behind me.
"Nope" I said turning back towards her.
"Why not??" She asked shocked.
"I don't know" I lied as I quickly walked out the door and out of the hospital. As I got in my car and drive home, I couldn't stop thinking about what I wanted to tell her. I feel like it's screaming to get out, but I just couldn't tell her that whole time.