7. now you know
I stood there looking down at my shoes as Andy processed this information. I was glad that I didn't put on any eyeliner because I had a hunch that this was going to be bad.
"You know how I feel about this right?" Andy asked
"Uh, yeah i do." I whispered
I could tell he was staring at me because I could feel his eyes melting into me. So I decided to ask the stupidest question ever "Are you mad?"
"Mad doesn't even begin to explain it" He said as he walked out of the room "because I honestly dont want you to be with Ashley"
I quickly walked upstairs before I could cry as I went into my room I yelled "Fuck you Andy!" and slammed the door and locked it. I can't believe he can't just be happy for me, I closed my eyes to try and sleep but I could only think about the pain. I promised myself and everyone else that I wouldn't cut again, but it was all I could think about. I stuck my head out of the door because I had to go to Andy's room to get them. Everything was silent downstairs, so I figured that they went outside or something. I got to Andy's room and to my surprise he was in there.
"what?" he asked.
"nothing just came in here to say sorry about earlier" I looked around the room and spotted where he put my box, and i started to walk over there. He had his backed turned so he couldn't see me.
"It's okay I should really be apologizing" He replied. I grabbed the box and it rattled a little, I held my breath as he turned around wide eyed. I ran as he jumped up from the bed he caught me and took the box from me. I started to cry and yelled "just give it back!" as I tried to get my arm out of his grip. "No you promised you wouldn't hurt yourself anymore!" he yelled back. I collapsed on the floor and cried I wanted to numb the pain. He wouldn't let me.
I heard someone come out of one of the rooms and it was Cc. He said "What is going on I'm trying to- what happened?" Andy showed him the box and Cc nodded and a look of sadness came onto his face as he went back into the room. As I heard more footsteps come up the stairs I got up and went into my room. They all asked Andy what happened, he told them and then I heard a knock on my door, I ignored it as I continued to look for something to numb the pain. I heard my door unlock as I found a blade and I ran into the bathroom. Someone held the door open before I could close it. I figured it was Ashley because he was the only one to unlock my door constantly. "Why would you ever love a person like me?" I whispered.
[there is more on the way guys!]