Throughout the day I was terrified! Even if I heard a pin dropped it scared the shit out of me!!! I can't close my eyes cause I see him right there in front of me! I cried at least 3 more times today with Harry by my side. I don't want to put Harry into any of this but it's like he wants to stay. Why?? I don't know. Sometimes I think why did he choose me for a girlfriend. I'm just a mess who is in a dangerous situation! WHO WOULD WANT TO DEAL WITH THAT?!?! I'm in the kitchen right now looking for something to make me feel a little bit better and when I opened the cabinet I found just the trick. NUTELLA!!!!! I make me two Nutella sandwiches yea I know what you're thinking 'aahhh this fat ass!' well I can't help myself! If you love Nutella as much as me then you would understand, much more....I would ADORE you!!!!! I walk out of the kitchen and into the living room to find Harry sitting on the couch watching...Spongebob SquarePants...god I love this boy hahaha. I sit beside him and smile and take a bite of my sandwich.
"F is for friends who do stuff together. U is for you and meee! N is for anywhere and anytime at all DOWN HERE IN THE DEEP BLUE SEA!!!!!!" I sing along with Spongebob and finish eating but then Harry looks at me and just laughs.
"Why are you laughing at me?" I pouted.
"Because you are just too adorable." He smiled and I blushed. "Annnndd you have Nutella on your lips." He laughed and I pouted, "but I can help you out with that." He smirked and kissed my lips leaving him with Nutella on his lips too.
"Harry, all you did was smudged some on you're lips too, there's still some on my lips." I giggled.
"I know and now we can take a good pic! Say insta-lips!" He hurried up and pulled out his phone and took a picture for Instagram. We both did a duck face and added a peace sign on the side of our face. He uploaded it and insisted that we'd take another one. This one Harry smiled like a little kid and I kissed him on his cheek.
"I like that one." I smiled.
"I like you." He smirked.
"You are so cheesy Styles." I chuckled.
"Hush you know you like it." I pecked his nose and continued to watch the show. Harry pulled me closer to him and I laid my head on his shoulder. I felt safe by his side, like nothing or no one could touch me. I know Harry wouldn't let anybody hurt me and I love that he actually cared about what was happening and he was concerned about everything that was gonna happen. I want him to stay by my side forever and I don't want him to leave me. I want to keep feeling safe and actually think my father won't get me...I hope it stays like that....
Celest is watching the tv and right now I'm just watching her. I want her to be safe. Her dad better not lay a hand on her. I can't believe he did that stuff to her especially rape her!!! What kind of person rapes someone especially their daughter!!!!! Celest didn't deserve any of that!!!! I remember when we was in middle school there were some days she would only come in jeans and a sweater. I would hug her and sometimes she would wince and I thought that I was hugging her too tight but I guess I was totally wrong. One day, still in middle school, I had came too her house and when I got to the door I heard her dad yell but I couldn't tell what he was saying so I left and decided to come back later. When I did her dad let me in and gave me a smile and told me that she was in her room, so I walked up stairs and my dumb ass decided not to knock and just walk right in. When I did she was in a towel and I saw bruises on her arms and legs. I was guessing she had just got out the shower but I closed the door really fast. She didn't notice that I saw the bruises but I knew that they had to come from earlier that day when her dad was yelling. I will never forget that day....and now I know....I have to keep her safe no matter what happens.....even if it evolves me getting hurt....
Yes everyone I'm still alive haha. I'm so sorry I haven't been updating as much as I used to. There has just been so many things going on and I'm still trying to settle things out so there won't be anymore drama in my life but trust me I will try to keep updating when I can. I have to go now so much love, na-night and sweet dreams c: <3