February 11th, 2014
Today was one of the worst days of my life. I had to leave him, the only one that I could trust, the only one I told all my secrets to. The only one I could ever love. It shattered my heart into a million pieces when I saw those tears fall from his dark grey eyes, and it tore me apart not being able to hold him and tell him everything will be all right. I don't think things will be better ever again. My baby, my one and only Morse, will never be mine again, all because people had to be so cruel at school. I wish they would've just left us alone, left us be. But no, of course they had to bully the two gay boys, had to mock us and call us fairies or sinners, saying were damned to hell. I had to leave him, friend, he would've cracked if he heard those awful words again. I just wish it could be different, i wish i wouldn't feel so empty and alone, i wish i could hold him in my arms again and not just promise, but give him the world. My friend, there's a million things i'm wishing for right now, but most of all, I wish that I could feel his lips against mine again. But those are only wishes, dreams never to come true again. I've already accepted that, but I can't just get this feeling to go away... I cant stop feeling...