You left me. You left me without saying goodbye. You left me without a warning. You just left me...
It is midnight, and I can't find sleep, nor can't sleep find me. I lay in my bed wrap around the scent of your body, and when I close my eyes, I actually can see you next to me pulling me towards you for our body to meet. Your smile illuminates the room and my soul jumps with happiness.
As I keep my eyes shut, tears start sliding down my face. My heart aches for your love. My body yearns for your touch. Each and every thought that comes to my mind is you, the one who made me believe in love once again. We vowed to love each other until death do us apart, but yet I can't think of not loving you even though you are gone. You were the sun that illuminated my days and the moon that brighten my nights. Since you left me, my life has no light. I am living sightless. I can't eat or drink. I am dead inside, my love, and I can't seem to revive myself.
I open my eyes and stare at nothing. I've been doing that a lot lately. Our bed feels different. It doesn't have that warm-rich feeling it once had. This bed was where we made love for the first time. The place you would frequently say you loved me, and then make love to me again and again until our bodies begged us to stop. Oh, how it hurts not to have or feel you by my side. I don't think I can survive this world without you. Everyone has told me I am going to get through this, but i know I won't. You died and a part of me died with you...
I turn to my right and stare at the gun that laid on my bedside table. You told me to only use it for emergencies. Well, I am lost, and I need to find you. This is the only way I can.
Soon will be together again. Our strong love will reunite us once again. Please, know that what I am about to do is for my own good. I can't stand this ache I feel. If I stay here I will die of a broken heart.
I extend my hand and grab the gun. My whole body is shaking now, but yet, a faint smile appeared on my lips. This is the right thing to do, I thought to myself. This is it. Between sobs I whispered, "I will always love you", and pulled the trigger.