"Are you afraid of me?" He asked like he needed to know. "No!" I said quickly scared he would punish me for 2 reasons, If I didn't answer and if I said yes, because he could make a random rule out of no were. " It's ok if you are, I would understand." He said gently. "Let's go home!" I said faking a laugh and smile. He sighed and nodded grabbing my hand. We walked outside to the car. I was dreading the moment we got home, because he was probably lying about not punishing me. "You never answered my question." He said softly. "I'm not going to hurt you." He whispered. "I-I-I don't- I - well-" "Please just answer." He said looking more and more anxious. I didn't want him to get mad, well I didn't want to get punished. I looked down not wanting to answer. He pulled the car over. Dam Im getting punished. I began shaking with fear. "Are you afraid of me, we wont be going in tell you say something." He said softly but determined. " Yes." I said waiting for a slap. I squeezed my eyes shut. He let out a sigh. "Please open your eye's, I'm not going to hurt you." He whispered. I slowly let my eyes open. He caressed my cheek. "I promise there's nothing to be scared about." He said slowly. I gently nodded. He started driving again. And of course it took along time because he didn't want to get caught. "But we wont be going out anytime soon, seeming I cant trust you." He said sternly. I nodded not feeling like talking. I slowly let my eyes droop shut.
I'm so angry at myself for hurting her to bad! Why is she so scared of me. Its like just the thought of me makes her blood turn cold. I promise that she wont be scared for long, even if it takes extreme measures.