Imagine for @Renee.julianaaa
Lately Justin has been acting so weird, he never wants so go out, he doesn’t even want to cuddle! All he wanted to do was eat and sleep! So today I was focused on getting him out of bed and out in the fresh air. So when I woke up, I quickly just showered and got dressed in a long black dress with a cute brown belt around the waist, then I wore a denim jacket over it. I lightly curled my hair and wore a simple makeup. Then after that I went downstairs and made Justin some breakfast. I made him some pancakes with syrup. Then I went upstairs, but when I got inside the bedroom again, Justin was gone. I furrowed my eyebrows and placed the tray with food on the bed, and then I went out to the bathroom and heard someone sob. I furrowed my eyebrows once again, then I opened the door, and to my unpleasant surprise, Justin was sitting on the ground completely out of breath because of all the crying. I gasped and quickly sat down beside him. I pulled him close to me and kissed the top of his head.
“What’s wrong?” I asked him after a few minutes of him just sobbing into my chest. I gulped as Justin looked up at me with those read, puffy eyes.
“I’m so sorry!” he sobbed, and then he placed his head in between my boobs again.
“I can’t handle this anymore” he mumbled into my chest as he continued to cry. I took in a deep breath, and then I pulled his head away from my chest and made sure to make him look me directly into my eyes.
“What is it that you can’t handle anymore baby?” I asked him, I dried some of his precious tears away.
“The fame, the hate, everything” he sobbed, woah he was really vulnerable. I pouted and quickly kissed his lips.
“Hey, look at me!” I told Justin as he tried to avoid looking into my eyes, “I promise everything will be alright! You can get through this, you know you can always quit this job, but I know how much this job means to you, so I wouldn’t recommend that” I told him, Justin lightly chuckled and nodded his head, but he was still crying.
I pecked Justin’s cheeks, and then I pulled him towards me again and hugged him tight.
“You were there for me when I needed you the most, now I will be there for you” I told him, Justin sniffled and nodded his head. I quickly dried a tear away from my cheek, because I had also started crying! Seeing Justin hurt was hurting me, and I just couldn’t stand seeing that.
“How long have you been keeping this to yourself?” I asked Justin after a few minutes of silence, Justin sniffled and shrugged his shoulder,
“Maybe a month or so” he explained, I awed and kissed the top of his head.
“Why didn’t you tell me?” I asked him as I hugged him even tighter.
“I was scared” he whispered, and I furrowed my eyebrows.
“Scared of what?” I asked him as I pulled his face away from my chest once again, Justin avoided me again and looked down in the ground.
“I was scared of you leaving me! I thought you would leave me as soon as you saw how broken I was” he explained, I took a deep breath and grabbed his jaw, so he had too look me in the eyes.
“I would never leave you! NEVER! You’re so best thing that has ever happened to me! You make me complete! How could I ever leave you?” I told him, finally Justin smiled his real smile and so did I.
“I love you” I whispered in his ear, and then I gently pecked his ear.
“I love you too” Justin admitted as he looked me into the eyes. I smiled and then kissed his lips.
“Now come on, I made you pancakes” I told Justin, then I stood up and helped me up afterwards. Justin smiled and wrapped both of his arms around me. I smiled and got up on my tiptoes, and then I wrapped my arms around his neck. We continued to stand like that for quite some time, but neither of us cared.
*A month later”
Justin has gotten so much better, but of course he is still fighting with the depression, yeah we went to the doctor the same day, and immediately the doctor could see something was wrong, so a few examinations later, Justin finally got some antidepressants. Justin hadn’t told his beliebers yet, but he promised to soon tell them, so today he had finally got the courage to tell them, which I why he was setting up his laptop right now, on the bed in our bedroom. An hour ago Justin had tweeted a link to his livestream, and now it was finally time to start it. Justin didn’t want to make the livestream alone, so I was sitting beside him.
“Hey beliebers” Justin smiled, sadly not his real smile, but it was better than nothing.
“So, I made this livestream to tell you guys something really important” he continued, Justin looked over at me; I grabbed his hand and nodded my head telling him to continue.
“A month ago I was diagnosed with depression, because of all the hate” he explained, Justin took a deep breath and looked up at the ceiling so he wouldn’t start crying, but he still did.
“This is very hard for me to tell you guys!” he continued, “but luckily I have had Y/N by my side the whole time, she has been so supportive, she even knows how it is to go through a situation like this, because she have been through it herself” Justin continued, Justin looked at me and smiled widely, or at least almost. I smiled back and squeezed his hand.
Justin couldn’t talk because all of the tears and sobs that left his mouth. He hid his head in my chest; I wrapped my arms around him and held him tight.
“It’s okay Justin, everything will be alright!” I comforted, Justin nodded his head and then pulled away from my chest.
“I don’t know if any of you guys have every known the feeling of wanting to commit suicide? If you have, then I feel really sorry for you! I have been having that thoughts for months, until I finally told Y/N everything!” Justin explained as he looked into the camera on the laptop.
“So, if you feel the same way as I did, I would suggest you go talk to someone about it! I actually never think I’ve been this relieved before, telling you guys about this, it just make me feel better! You guys have always been there for me, and now it’s my turn to be there for you guys! That’s also why I have written this song, mostly because of Y/N, but also because of you guys!” Justin explained, and then he stood up from the bed and found his guitar. I furrowed my eyebrows as tears started running down my cheeks. Justin just smiled and sat down beside me again; he quickly cleared his throat and then started playing a song I had never heard before.
“Across the ocean, across the sea starting to forget the way you look at me now. Over the mountains, across the sky need to see your face and need to look in your eyes. Through the storm and, through the clouds bumps on the road and upside down now. I know it's hard baby, to sleep at night don't you worry, cause everything’s gonna be all right, ai-ai-ai-aight” he sang, I covered my mouth in pure shock. The song was so amazing, he was amazing! Justin finished the song and looked at the laptop.
“Thank you so much guys! I love you guys too just know that! And remember everything is going to be alright!” he explained, then both of us waved, and then Justin turned off the livestream. Immediately I jumped on top of Justin and got him down on his back.
“Why are you so amazing?” I asked him, Justin tried to grab my waist, but I just grabbed his arms and pulled them over his head. Justin shrugged his shoulders and smiled, finally a real smile!
“Why are you?” he asked me, both of us admired each other, then finally I connected our lips in a kiss full of lust, passion and last but not least, all of our love for each other!
I love you guys!
- Amalie xo