Sandra got slowly better and actually she seemed more alive than ever. I was with her every day, but had to go to school. When I finished the day there, I spent the night with her. I wanted to make sure she really had everything she needed and I was the only one who cared about her. Eleanor was in another room and we had no idea if Jeff was alive or not. Sandra didn't seem to care.
"I have a confession!" she said one day. "I haven't broken up with Jeff, but I'm ready to take that step., I don't do it for your sake, but for my own." I saw that she was serious and she smiled at me. "I've got a second chance after the accident and I'm not going to go back to my old life."
I squeezed her hand and looked into her eyes.
"Can I be in your new life?"
She laughed and nodded.
"Clearly you get silly one...."
I puffed out and just felt more love for her. She was so changed and seemed happier.
"So you're not going to party and go out to the cabins?"
She shook her head.
"I got tired of that life and it gave me nothing."
Somehow I believed her words. She had changed and she was more alive than ever. I could do nothing but smile and look at her.
"I'll still be in the shade?"
She shook her head and took both her hands around mine.
"No, we'll be open from now on. We are together and I'm not going to hide what I feel for you."
Niall was in school when the doctor came into my room. He looked at how I was and sat then down on the chair beside the bed. I saw that he had more to say. It was as if he backed off, but eventually he opened his mouth.
"Jeff wants to meet you."
I was cold all over.
"Is he here?"
The doctor nodded and looked down at his hands.
"He's got cops outside the door and will end up in prison. He had drugs on him when the police went through his clothes. He's also wanted for a long time for various things he has done."
I took a deep breath.
"Okay, it's just as well that I do it? I agree to meet him, but I don't want to be alone with him."
Jeff was in a smaller room. His arms and legs were plastered. He looked generally weak, and wasn't nearly as tough as he used to be. I sat in a wheelchair and stopped at the foot of the bed. I looked at him and he looked at me. There was a long silence before he smiled weakly.
"So you live?"
I nodded weakly.
"Yes, I'm alive!"
He called me and seemed not at all happy about that part.
"I end up in jail now." he said quietly. "There are things that I've done, but I guess they let me out in a few years."
I plucked up my courage.
"Jeff, I'm here to end this about us. I don't want it any more."
He looked at me with a blank stare and didn't get the outbreak as I had imagined. Instead, he seemed calm and he thought for a moment.
"Are you sure?"
"I'm as sure as I can be."
Jeff sighed a little bit and nodded.
"I'm not happy that you break up, but I understand."
It didn't feel like a good ending, but I didn't want to bother me more over him.
"So it's okay?"
Jeff continued to sigh and nodded.
"I guess so! You're free, but I might want to be your friend in the future?"
I just nodded and looked down at my hands. It was quiet for a few seconds before I heard him grunt.
"Damn, it hurts!"
I smiled weakly and met his eyes again. He tried to get me to stay and he wanted me to feel sorry for him, but I didn't buy it anymore.
"It will pass." I said and felt strong. "You'll be fine."
He was startled and just stared at me. It was as if he realized that I was really serious. I chose to leave the room and rolled out the wheelchair in the hallway. A policeman came up to me and I smiled at him.
"Make sure he's okay."