Clara has always had social anxiety, but with every year it gets worse, until one year everything is too much for her. Everything she's been through has shaped her into someone she never would have imagined. Her wrists and thighs are stained, and people have begun to see through her disguise. They've made her into the monster she's become. Can she escape all the bullies and her thoughts, or will she give in to the pain?


5. Demons

On her way home from school Clara had to fight back tears. Her eyes were stinging, and she could feel the heat in her cheeks. Every time someone looked at or near her, Clara could feel them judging her, she could almost hear what they would say.

She knew she was being ridiculous, and that she was technically judging them. Clara also knew that what she was hearing in her mind was not coming from the people she walked past, but from herself and from everyone in her past.

Everyone has demons inside of them, and sometimes they win. Clara could always feel the presence of her inner demons, and when sometimes they took over her. Like when she snapped at someone for no apparent reason, and usually when that ends up happening she hurts the people she loves and cares about. That's one of the reasons she's distanced herself from everyone. She figured she'd be better off, and she wouldn't be able to hurt anyone or herself.

But boy was she wrong!

It's just made everything worse for her. She hasn't been as strong lately as she used to be. That's because she doesn't have anyone to talk to or confide in, to make memories with or have fun with, to distract herself. She has to bottle everything inside. She tries to push everything away, ignore it, but sometimes something will happen that will set her off, and everything rushes back to Clara at once, overwhelming her. This is what usually causes her breakdowns.

By the time she got to her house Clara had realized something. She needed to be able to talk to someone, and to trust them. She needed to find someone who was similar to her, and they could help each other out, work through the bad things together, and even witness some good together.



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