The next day was Louis and Liam's last game of the season which I couldn't miss . I sat in the front of the stand with Niall watching the game and Niall eat a cheeseburger . I tried calling Bri this morning so we could go train but she didn't answer .
I guess she didn't wanna talk to me . The whistle blew signalling the end of the first quarter . "Wow they're doing good so far " Niall commented . "Yeah .. I'm about to go see if Bri is home " I told him .
"Oh I'll come with you let me tell Louis " He said . "Alright " I responded . Walking away I pulled out my phone dialing Briannah's number seeing if she was gonna answer because before I called a little early . "Hello ?"A male voice answered . "Um .. Is Briannah there ?" I asked . "No she just left " The voice said then hanging up .
Okay then . I shrugged still walking to my car . I could sense that was Zayn and when he heard my voice he started lying . Oh well .
I looked in the mirror at myself . Love bites and scars all over my body from red to black and purple . That slap from yesterday left a small purple bruise on the side of my face . I winced at the pain as I felt on my bruises . I looked back up at the mirror to see Zayns's tall and slender body in the doorway . I immediately looked down not wanting to see him . I was afraid to look in his eyes .
I felt a touch on my shoulder making my body tense up then he uttered the words . "I'm sorry .. I love you " He kissed my temple . I nodded smiling a little . "I'll be back later . " He mumbled walking out . As soon as I heard the front door close tears came from my eyes . I have completely given up on respect for myself . I let myself get into this 'relationship' that's fucking bullshit .
I let him forcefully put his hands on me and yet I'm still here thinking everything Is just peaches and fucking cream . I've think I've had enough . I'd never thought it would come to something like this . I didn't think I would actually do something as bad as this . I walked out the bathroom exposed going into the closet .
I put on my some clothes first before I pulled out the box from under my bed . I opened it pulling out a razor blade from my highschool memories . I remember I took it from a friend and I kept it so she would never think about doing it . I went into the bathroom and looked at myself one more time .
Though my scars were now covered by my jeans and my over sized sweater . The pain I felt in my heart was still there . I held the blade to my wrist as the tears came down my face . "Why are you still here ? What is wrong with you ? Just do it ! ". The voice in my head repeated . I squeezed my eyes closed making a big cut into my wrist .
I held back the pain just know it couldn't be as worse as the pain in my heart . I cut again and again and the cuts got bigger and so did the puddle of blood on the floor . I dropped the blade into the puddle and my knees got weak and I fell to my knees on the floor . 'What am I doing ? Has it really come to this ? ' I asked myself .
I turned into the driveway of the flat seeing her car in the driveway . I knew he was lying . "Do you think Zayn's there ?" Niall asked . "I doubt it . but she's in there I know it " I sighed . "Well hurry up 2nd quarter is about to start" He said "Don't get your dick in a twist " I rolled my eyes .
I got out the car walking to the front door and knocking on it . I waited a while getting no answer which made me think she might be sleep or something . I looked around the door and under the mat then finding a spare key I shrugged putting it in the door and unlocking it coming inside a really nice flat .
For a prick I had to say he had a nice flat . "Briannah " I called out but there was no answer . "Bri" I still called walking up the stairs . 5 doors stood before me . 1 was a bathroom 1 said Josh on the door 1 was an empty room and 1 one was closed . But there was one where only a little sunshine came from . I heard faint crying coming from the room . "Briannah " I said again coming into the room .
there she sat . her knees to her chest and a hood on her head . "Baby girl what's wrong ?" I said putting my hand on her arm . Without even asking she fell into my arms . She began to cry and I don't know why . "What's wrong ?" I asked her . I grabbed her hand from my shoulder and smiled .
But my smile soon faded once I saw the cuts on her wrist . Blood ran down her arm staining her white jacket . "Why ?" Was all I sat . Her head rose up and she immediately tired to cover her scars . I stopped her pulling the sleeve of her jacket back up to see the cuts get bigger than before .
"Who is making you do this to yourself ?" I asked her . She didn't answer . Her face turned into guilt and more sadness . But then I realized .. I know exactly who it is . Before she could answer I heard the front door open "Babe" A voice said .
TO BE CONTINUED ....
CLIFF HANGER BITCHH LOL !!!! I'm sorreh don't hurt me :3
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