I was sitting with Neville and Ginny at the table in the great hall, trying hard to take part in their debate about something to do with Herboligy but knowing inside that I was very anxious about whether Hermione made it back alright last night. When neither Ron nor hermione came down for a while I got more and more worked up about it. I thought I would feel a gush of relief when I saw Ron coming down the marble staircase, but I only got more tense when I saw that Hermione was not present with him.
When he sat down, I quickly asked, 'Where's hermione? Is she okay? What happened to her last night? Did she get back to the tent before anyone spotted her?' It all came out in a rush.
Ron turned away from me and growled,'She's fine.'
I was totally taken aback by his tone of voice, so I said, 'Are you okay, Ron?'
He nodded his head but still had a scowl on his face. At that moment I saw Hermione come down the stairs and relief washed over me.
She walked over to us and sat down on the other side of Ron. However when she opened her mouth to speak, Ron instantly got up and walked further down the table to sit with Seamus, Dean, Parvati and Lavender.
'What's the matter with him,' I asked Hermione, very confused.
'We... we had an argument,' she whispered as if she was trying to hold back tears. At this ginny said, 'If my brother says anything mean to you, Hermione, just don't listen to him because he's a giant idiot and he's very stupid so there's no need to be upset about him.'
'I thought you said he was a disgusting pig anyway?' Neville chimed in.
'Ron can be a bit over the top sometimes, you know that,' I said trying as hard as I could to make her feel better. 'Don't worry about it, he'll come round.'
She forced a smile in response and for a while we were just staring at each other awkwardly, until Neville and Ginny started up their argument about Herboligy again and we left her to her thoughts.
I knew that Harry, Ginny and Neville were trying to make me feel better, but it wasn't working. I tried my hardest to focus on what they were all saying and join in with the conversation, but my thoughts kept straying back to Ron and how angry and hurt he had looked.
I looked over at him to where Dean, Seamus, Lavender and Parvati were. He looked a little bit more cheered up than he was before. Lavender kept on looking over to me and scowling at me. I really wished that Ron wasn't sitting right next to her. I knew I would have felt a lot better if only Lavender wasn't so close to him. Urgh i hated her sooooooo much!
Soon it was the end of breakfast and it was time for lessons. Potions, transfiguration, herboligy and charms all went by so quickly. Ron didn't sit with us in any of the lessons, and over the course of the day I saw him and Lavender getting closer and closer. It sickened me. How could he fall for someone like her???
At lunch to our surprise, he wondered over to where we were sitting and sat down in the chair next to Ginny. I noticed that it was the seat farthest away from me, but I was still happy that he was away from Lavender finally. It was quite awkward for a couple of seconds but soon enough Harry and Neville started a conversation about how unfair the homework that Professor McGonagall had set was and Ron soon joined in. I stayed quiet whilst I ate my lasagne and as soon as I had finished I got up from the table.
'Where are you going?' Harry asked looking concerned.
'Library,' I said bluntly, and then as quickly as I could I ran off in the direction of the great hall doors.
As soon as I was out, I didn't turn left to the library but went straight on to where the nearest girls toilets were. I could feel the tears coming down my face as I ran and I tried my hardest to blink them back so that i wouldn't look weak to everyone. As soon as I got inside, however, I let them run freely as no one else could see my meltdown.
After I had cried for a bit, I looked at myself in the mirror. Then, suddenly, I felt all stupid getting worked up over a boy like this.
'Who are you?' I asked myself. 'You are Hermione Jean Granger, a strong, intelligent woman who will not let this stupid little boy make you feel sorry for yourself. You will tell him that you are sorry, and if he accepts your apology then everything is fine but if he declines then that's his problem and I shouldn't worry about it anymore.'
I decided that I would formally tell him that I was sorry that night in the tent and that if he was still mad at me then I woudn't bother getting worked up about it as he wasn't worth my time anyway. If he accepted however, I would try my best to make sure that I didn't muck up like this again and try to keep our friendship a strong one, maybe even make it something more! But at the very top of the list, keep him away from Lavender Brown!