3 weeks later
It's been 3 weeks since Lucy left. I went to school just to see if she showed up. She didn't. Everytime her name got called I had hope she'd raise her hand and say "here", but it never happened. She meant everything to me. She was like having your first kiss. The nervousness, but eagerness for it to happen and once it had you wanted more. She was different. I was different. With her I was myself and I didn't have to prove anything by beating someone up. I've been boxing lately, just to take the pain she had left me. I just wish for things to be different. I wish I wasn't the person I am and for that maybe she would've stayed. Maybe I wouldn't be doing what I am. Maybe I would never be the feared 'Luke Hemmings' that I am. I stayed at the corner of the class just wishing she'd show up. I even want her to yell at me and say she hates me than not see her at all. I'd rather have that than the torture of knowing she's gone. The torture of not seeing her and I know now more than ever that I'm deeply in love with Lucy and nothing in the world can change that. 'Find something that you love and when you do never let anyone take it away from you' I had found her, but it was to late now.
I didn't know what I was doing. I hadn't gone to school. The main reason was because I didn't want to run into him. Luke. I love him, but I know what he's doing. I know he's boxing and Ashton has told me he was drinking too. I wanna be there for him. Trust me I do, but I just can't. Everytime I think of him I get this feeling I've never experienced before. Ashton said it's love and I believe him. Luke was the most amazing person I met. He was imperfectly perfect and meeting him was the best and worst thing that's happen to me. I don't regret him and I never will because he's showed me what true love really was and how much it hurts. Today's my last day in Sydney and Ashton knows it. Leaving the boys behind is the hardest thing to do espacially if you're deeply in love with one of them. I want to say goodbye to Luke though, but he's the only reason keeping me from leaving. I know that if I see him I won't go through with it, but I have to.
Sorry it's short this is sort of a prologue for the next chapter. This book might come to an end soon. D; Thanks for all your support though (; You guys are the reason I continue writing. I LOVE YOU!!!! And guys thanks for the 700 favorites!!!! Holy Jesus you guys ROCK!