Just because I'm losing Doesn't mean I'm lost Doesn't mean I'll stop Doesn't mean I'm across Just because I'm hurting Doesn't mean I'm hurt Doesn't mean I didn't get what I deserved No better and no worse - Coldplay "Lost!"
Bulma felt a heartstring pulled as she stared bewildered at Vegeta. What had he been hiding from her?
"Honey?" she knelt down on the ground, taking his hand, "Baby, what's wrong?"
He cupped his mouth with his other hand and breathed a couple of even breaths, "Do you...do you ever feel like you're screwing up, no matter how hard you try?"
She furrowed her brows, "What-what are you talking about - screwing up what?" He pried his hand from hers and walked to the balcony, resting his arms on the railing. The bitter breeze whipped his flame hair and his shirt ruffled. She joined him, rubbing her arms for warmth.
Vegeta swallowed hard, "Do you think...I'll be a good father?" She just smiled and kissed him on the cheek.
Bulma smiled and rested her head on his shoulder, "Vegeta, I know you are a good father! Why are you having doubts?"
My baby girl keeps gettin' older I watch her grow up with pride People make jokes, cuz they don't understand me They just don't see my real side I act like shit don't phase me,
Inside it drives me crazy My insecurities could eat me alive But then I see my baby Suddenly I'm not crazy It all makes sense when I look into her eyes - Eminem "Hailie's Song"
Vegeta was still anxious and as paranoid as ever, despite numerous attempts to deal or cope. He guilted himself and played victim constantly for his past mistakes. He loved Jackie so much, but in a way that he just wanted to hold her and never let go. He didn't want her to grow up. She'll start going to school, then dating, and soon, having children of her own - right before his eyes. He wouldn't even know it hit him.
Her eyes were still that same mesmerizing aqua blue that he fell in love with, only they were on her mother's face. He depicted himself a crazy man, a monster, who would create monster children with his Bride of Frankenstein wife. So far, everything seemed to turn out alright. Bulma deeply worried if he was suffering from some sort of depression or PTSD from all his years suppressed by Freiza. He just ignored her petty worries - Saiyans don't get "depressed".
He walked into Jackie's nursery to find her playing on the ground with Bulma. She was throwing toys around the room and stomping on her stuffed animals, despite Bulma's protest. "No! Jackie...!" Her mother grabbed the toys as quickly as she could before her infant could reck them. Vegeta came towards them and scooped up his daughter in his arms in order to salvage the expensive toys they buy. She started to whimper even though she was being held by her beloved Daddy.
Bulma rose to her feet and started to gather the toys while Vegeta bounced Jackie on his chest. He was spaced thinking about other things when she lifted herself from his hard exterior and looked him in the eyes. He waited patiently for her to do something. When she continued to stare at him, he started to grow impatient, as Vegeta would normally do. She pressed her little lips together and furrowed her brows, as if she were going to belch. Instead, she uttered these simple, but meaningful first words to her father, "D-Dada,wuv you!"
He stared wide-eyed at his daughter until she grabbed his neck and pulled him in for a tight hug, which he was most happy to return.