44. Chapter 44
I jerked upward in bed, sweat causing my shirt to cling to my body. I rubbed my eyes, unsure that this was reality.
'Was it a dream? It was just a horrible nightmare.' I thought with relief. Then I was aware of the body beside me. I leaned over and the slender figure awake.
"What?! What is it?!" Alex growled angrily, sitting up.
"Thank God!" I breathed and hugged her.
She stiffened with surprise and patted my shoulder uncertainly. "What's the matter, Andy?"
"Nothing...just-...just a nightmare." I stuttered, still clutching her small body against mine.
"Want to talk about it?" She didn't fight against my tight hug. She must have figured something was up with me.
"No. Never." I said quickly. It was just a dream and I planned on accepting that and never thinking of that place my psyche had brought me to again.
Then I thought of something.
"Did you kiss Bill?"
She went rigid against me. "How did you- How-?"
"It's okay. I'm not mad. I just wanted to know if it was true." Yeah, I guess it hurt. But something told me that everything was going to be fine. "I just want you to be happy."
I could practically feel her confusion. "I'm sorry." She said. Her face was buried against my chest and I found myself praying that she wouldn't cry. I stroked her dark hair. "It's okay. Whatever decision you need to make, as long as it makes you happy, I'm okay with it."
"I love you, Andy. You know I do. And I always will."
"I love you, too." And we fell asleep together like that; a sitting position, her body pressed against mine and my head resting on the top of hers.