16. Chapter 16
I dropped it and quickly checked the other ones. Both positive.
I sunk to the floor and held myself. How did this happen? I was a virgin until Jakeb. My first time wasnt supposed to happen like that. I layed my head against the wall and just sat there, thinking.
Thats how Andy found me, an hour later. He looked at the pregnancy tests on the counter and his eyes went wide. He just stood there in shock.
"What am I gonna do?" I asked him, "I'm not ready to have a kid. Especially not alone."
"You dont have to do it alone. We'll all be here to help you." Andy sunk to the floor beside me.
I was silent.
I wanted so bad to tell her how I felt about her. I couldnt. She had enough to deal with. But maybe with someone to lean on, she could get through it easier?
She turned her head to focus on me.
"Look, I dont know how you feel about me but... I love you. Since the day I met you. And I'm not trying to make this any harder on you because of what you have to deal with. If you'll let me, I'll be there for you and the baby. I'll be like a dad to it." I stared at her, worried she would turn me down.
Instead, she smiled and pulled me into a hug. "Thank you." I barely heard her whisper.
I pulled back and lightly kissed her on the lips. I saw relief and happiness in her eyes. I stood and cleared the tests from the counter, throwing them, in the trash. I helped Alex stand and then we walked out of the bathroom.
"How am I gonna tell Ashley?" She whispered. I assumed, neither confession was gonna be pretty. Might as well tell him both at the same time.
"I'll help you through it." I smiled at her.
He smiled at me. That melted my heart. I felt like a huge weight was lifted from me. I didnt have to deal with any of this alone now.
"We should go find the guys." I suggested. He nodded and we went to look for them.
We found them all sitting in CC and Jake's room. Ashley had started to drink. He didnt seem drunk; he was probably on his first or second.
"You guys? We have something we need to tell you." They all turned to look at me and Andy.
I took a deep breath and looked at Andy for reassurance. "I'm pregnant."
Their mouths all dropped open.
"What are you gonna do?"
"Are you okay?"
"Are you considering abortion?"
I glared at Ashley who had suggested the last. "No! And I wont ever consider it. I dont believe in that."
"Its not a living human being yet."
"And how would you know?!" I was yelling at him, my anger spilling over. Andy rubbed my back to try and calm me.
"Hey, it was just a suggestion." He held up his hands in defense.
"Why would you even think of that?!"
He didnt answer. Good idea. I tried to calm myself.
"And...Andy and I are dating..." I waited for their reactions.
Ahley immediately got a look of fury in his eyes. The guys all looked at him.
"No" was sll he said.
"What do you mean 'no'? We're not exactly asking for you're permission." Ashley was making me angrier by the second.
"I dont want you two together."
"Ashley, look-" Ashley cut Andy off.
"No, I wont let you treat her like some other sl*t. She's my cousin and I want to protect her."
"Obviously you didnt do a very good job because I got raped!" Do hormones kick in this early on? Or was it just my temper.
Ashley's eyes got sad and then angry, then defeated. "Fine. Do whatever the h*** you want. I dont care anymore." He walked out of the room, taking his beer with him.