It has been alost three months already. Three months of crying, feeling sorry for myself and feeling sorry for Lauren. The last one, was the most used one.
I tried finding out where she was, so I could maybe see her, tell her that I was looking for a way to get her to me, because I was. Right after she was taken from me, and I was able to speak without crying or screaming, I called the best layer I could find on the internet. He was expencive like hell but I couldn't care less. Even if he would be responsible for me being broke in the future, it would be worth it, as long as I had her back.
"Mr. Horan, good to speak you again today. How are you doing?" John, my layer, said happily when I got at his office with Emma.
"Mrs. Collins, what a pleasure to see you. You look stunning as always." I sighed, John always had a bit oof a flirting attitude when it came down to Emma, but I didn't say much about it, he was there to help me.
"We are doing okay John, nothing really impressive happens nowa days. But you had something to tell us right?" Emma said as we sat down on the opposite side of his desk.
"Yes I have. I have talked to a guy I know from youthcare and he had something really interesting to tell me. Acording to him there is a chance we can set up a meeting with you and the new guardians of Lauren." I looked at Emma, smiling, but not really sure what the kind of big step this would be in our mission.
It would just be talking, no way that we could convince them to give her back to us, it wouldn't be possible, since I still had no custody rights over Lauren.
"And there is a chance that if the people from youthcare see how responsible you take this moment, they can see you as a caring father, who's only interested in the happyness of his daughter." he said after a while and when I thought about it, it kinda made sence.
If I showed them that I only care about Lauren's well being, I would come across as a good father figure.
"When would there be a chance to see them? And how big are the chances that we will see Lauren soon? I have to know that she is doing okay and that she knows that I am working on this." If I could only see that smiling face for a couple minutes, maybe even seconds, I would know that everything I did, was to see that face everyday for the rest of my life.
"I don't think it's possible for you to see Lauren until we are further in our cause. And, I am sorry to say this mr. Horan but, I think that it's better if you two don't see each other till we know for sure that she can come back to you.
If you see her now, she might get her hopes up that you two can be together again when this might not even be possible. I know this is hard but I do not think it would be a good idea. Talking to her new guardians is the first step and then we will see what can happen next." Deep down in my heart I knew he was right, as much as I hated that, but I couldn't say that he was wrong.
"I see, but could you pass the information about those people, so we can set up a date for a meeting?" I said with a sigh and John nodded his head.
"Sure I can mr. Horan. I will do my best to have it done by the end of the week. But don't get your hopes up too high. Maybe these people don't want to have anything to day with you, as protection for Lauren and-"
"Protection for Lauren! Are you fucking kidding me!?" I shouted and stood up. "You say that I am a danger for my own daughter! I know her better than anyone else, she is mine and I am her's, it already is bad enough that I can't see her but a danger to her! I NEVER was, and NEVER will be a DANGER to her!" I turned around and walked away from him and Emma, who quickly appologized for my behaviour to John, What a dickhead. Saying that I am a danger to Lauren, is he out of his freaking mind?!?!
"Niall stop it!" Emma shouted and I turned around to face her, a red face with a slightly angry expression.
"He did not mean it like that. Those people also see her as their daughter, they don't know what happened in the times that you and her were together and the connection you two had. They only know about the bad times, the abductions, the bad influence of a guy of not even twenty-one year old, member of a band that tours all over the world, on a girl of six years old." And for the second time that day, I had to confes that I was wrong and over emotional, but I was not done with proving my point in this. I was no danger to her.
"So I am a danger because I am who I am?! I have money to support her, make her live her dreams and give her a chance in this world. She belongs no where else but next to me." Emma sighted and rolled her eyes.
"What is wrong with you today?! I have never seen you as grumpy and stubborn before. I know you miss her, I do too. But John is our only hope to get her back, you can't talk to him like this. Without him we are no where and you will never see her again.
You gotta keep your head at this Niall. I know it has been long but the more you act like this, the longer this will take." That was the last thing she said before she hugged me tight. Comforting me in my emotional break down.
"I am sorry... I want her back, more than anything else. I can't take this any longer. I feel that there is something wrong with her, I feel this okay Emma! I feel it!" I know that it sounds pathetic but I have a feeling that this feeling, is daddy intuisme.
"Lauren, are you coming for dinner?" my new mommy asked me and I nodded. "I'm coming!" I run to the kitchen where everybody is already waiting, I always seem to be the latest here, with everything. Taking a shower, geting up, being ready for bed. I always am the one that is the last.
"Lauren, we have to tell you something." I say down and saw all the worried faces. What was going on?
"You know that we went to the doctor a couple weeks ago, to check your blood right?" Nicolle, my new mommy, said and I nodded. She made me to it because I kept getting bruises and I was tired all day long.
"We got the results, and they think it has to do with what happened at your previous home. They will have to do some more tests but it might be amenia, but they can give you medications for it." I looked at everybody, totally not knowing what to say.
"Am I gonna die?" I asked softly and then felt two arms around me, hugging me tight when I had an emotional break down.
"No darling, you are not gonna die because of this, you only have to watch out. We will go back to the hospital tomorrow, it will be okay, I promise you. It's my daddy intuisme." George, my new daddy, said and rocked me softly till I was calmed down again.