I wake up the next morning with Kristen still sleeping next to me. I love to watch her sleep, she looks so calm and peaceful. After a few minutes, I decide that I shouldn't be creepy so I carefully get out of bed and walk downstairs. Trevor is sitting at the kitchen table with Erin and Cailey. They all say good morning and I help myself to cereal and milk, then sit down. Erin finally breaks the silence that had filled the room.
"Was Kristen having nightmares again?" She asks and I'm confused for a second. I guess she noticed because she adds, "I saw you were in her room this morning, I was just wondering if that's why."
"Yeah, I could hear her yelling and went into her room to find her asleep, I guess having a nightmare. I woke her up and comforted her until she fell asleep again and I guess I fell asleep too," I say, deciding to tell her the truth, rather than lie about staying with her. I don't know if her dad is against it, but he seems ok with it.
"She has them a lot. I can never comfort her. How did you do it?" She asks and I get a happy feeling knowing that I can comfort her when some can't.
"I just rubbed her back and played with her hair. She also asked if I would ever leave her and I said no. She seemed fine after that," I say and Erin nods.
"I'm happy for you two. I really think you guys are perfect for each other. You can do something that no one else can," Cailey says and I smile. I finish my bowl of cereal and stand up.
"I'm going to go check on her. I'll be back," I say, walking up the stairs. I'm about to open the door when I hear music. I hear her beautiful voice singing along with the piano. I noticed the keyboard in her room when we got here. I knew she could play guitar but not piano. The song sounds amazing and I don't want to interrupt. She's singing Wrecking Ball by Miley Cyrus. I listened as she sung the whole song perfectly and feel a tear run down my cheek as the song ended. She put so much emotion into it and it was beautiful. I hear her turn the door handle but can't get away in time and she catches me.
"Were you listening?" She asks, raising her eyebrows. I slowly nod and she gives a half smile. "It's no big deal. I just hate my voice."
"Kristen, we've done duets before. Your voice is amazing, trust me," I reassure her and she gives a real smile this time, but it quickly turns into a frown.
"Could you show me the video? I want to hear the song," she says and I nod. I quickly type in her username on my laptop and pull up the video, settling down next to her on the bed. We both listen as our voices blend together and a smile creeps onto Kristen's face.
I could tell right then in that video that we cared for each other, a lot. I wish I could remember but I can't, yet I can tell how happy I look. Our voices go perfectly together and the way we look into each others eyes is amazing. That may sound weird, saying it about myself, or should I say, old self, but it is true. I know that he still feels that way but I need to sort these feelings out. I know I love Liam, although I know it's too early to really say, but I need to fix these problems and hopefully get my memory back. I look over at Liam to see a smile cross his face as he watches it. He pulls me towards him as the video continues and I rest my head on his shoulder. The song ends and we both clap at the computer screen.
"I have an idea!" Liam exclaims and I raise my eyebrows questioningly.
"And what would that idea be, Mr. Payne?" I ask, faking a posh British accent. I wish I had a British accent, but mine is just a plain American accent. I've picked up a little bit of it in my voice but mostly American. I get snapped out of my thoughts by Liam's voice.
"We should make another one and even a music video! We could go into the studio, maybe come up with our own song or do a cover and then make a video for it!" He exclaims and I smile. It did sound pretty fun actually.
"That actually sounds really fun! But one question. How will we do it?" I ask and Liam just shakes his head.
"Did you forget that I'm kind of famous and can easily get the use of a recording studio?"
"Right... I keep forgetting that. What the hell is wrong with me?" I ask, looking down, embarrassed.
"Hey, it's ok. It's actually kind of nice to have someone to like me for me and not Liam Payne from One Direction. Now, is there any song you would want to do?" He asks and I think about songs that I've been listening to lately.
"How about 'Bruises' by Train and Ashley Monroe? I love that song and it's a great duet!" I exclaim, glad to actually think of something.
"That sounds great! I love that song too and your voice will sound perfect for the part," he says and I laugh. He raises an eyebrow which makes me laugh more at his confusion.
"It sounds like you're a director giving me a part," I giggle and he grins, his brown eyes crinkling at the corners.
"Do you know how much I love your laugh? It's adorable," he says, walking closer to me and wrapping his arms around me. I put my hands on his chest and look up at him, smiling.
"Do you know how mu-" I start to say, but get cut off by Liam's soft lips against mine. It starts gentle and gets rougher. Our lips move together in sync and my hands go up to his hair. He gently lies me down on the bed, never breaking the kiss, and hovers over me. The kiss deepens as Liam starts moving his hands around my body. We finally break the kiss, both out of breath, and I smile up at him. He returns the smile before leaning down to peck my lips. I pull him closer and his hand travels up the back of my shirt, rubbing circles on my back. He starts to slowly pull my shirt up and looks at me for confirmation, making sure it's ok. I nod and he continues, pulling the shirt over my head and tossing it on the ground. His eyes scan my body and I suddenly feel self conscious.
"You're so beautiful. Do you know that?" Liam whispers, tracing circles on my stomach. Instead of answering, I pull him closer by his shirt. I slide it over his head and his muscular arms pull me towards him. I feel the heat against his bare chest as he wraps his arms around my waist. A knock at the door stops us from going any further which I think I'm grateful for since I'm not ready yet. Then I realize I'm in my bra.
"Shit," I mutter under my breath grabbing a t-shirt before opening the door. I open the door to a surprise visitor.
"Oh my god!!! Zoe!!!!" I scream, running up and hugging her. "I missed you so much!"
"I missed you too! Sorry to interrupt anything," she says, wiggling her eyebrows at me, causing me to roll my eyes. "Care to introduce him?"
"Oh, sorry. One second," I say, giving Liam a nod toward the closet to try to hint him. He takes the hint and gets up to put a shirt on before closing the door.
"So?" She asks and I sigh.
"Ok, I'll introduce him but you have to promise not to freak out, ok?" I say and she nods slowly.
"Uh...ok?" She says, questioningly. Before I can explain, my door opens and Liam walks out and puts his arms around me from behind. I look over at Zoe to see her jaw drop.
"Zoe, this is Liam. Liam, this is Zoe," I say, pinching Zoe's arm lightly to get her out of the trance she's in.
"Nice to meet you Zoe," Liam says, smiling at her before holding out his hand for her to shake.
"Y-you t-too," she stutters, still in awe. She then turns to me. "You have a lot of explaining to do missy."
"I know, but let's start with this first. I think you've figured out that we're dating," I say, gesturing to Liam. She nods and I start to explain everything that has happened in the past few months. When I finish, Zoe seems to be in shock.
"Wow," she responds. I can see why she's shocked. I mean, I would be too. Cailey and Erin come up to join the conversation and we talk for a while. Liam was in the middle of telling a story when his phone rang. He got up and walked out of the room, answering it.
"So... Kristen, you're dating Liam. Erin is dating Harry and Cailey is dating Zayn. Can I have Niall?!" She exclaims and we all laugh. An idea popped into my head.
"Oh my god! We should so set you two up! You'd be perfect together!" Cailey yells, taking my thoughts. Zoe's face lights up and then the door opens again. I look over to see Liam with a solemn look on his face. I walk up to him and wrap my arms are his torso.
"Whats wrong, Liam?" I ask, looking up at him. He looks like he could cry.
"Can I uh...talk to you for a minute outside?" He asks and I nod, apologizing to girls for leaving them alone. He takes my hand and leads me downstairs and outside.
"Liam, whats wrong? Why are we out here?" I ask, starting to panic.
"So, management just called. I uh... I'm going on tour starting next week. I tried to argue, but they wouldn't let me. I wanted to take you too, but they won't let you, especially since you're only 16. I'm so sorry," he says, a tear rolling down his cheek.
"W-what?" I couldn't talk anymore because I was holding back tears but I felt a few roll down my cheeks.
"Shh, it's ok. I know, I know. Please stop crying, babe, I hate to see you like this," he says, trying to calm me down.
"What am I supposed to do without you here? How long is the tour?" I ask, not really ready to hear his answer.
"A year..." He answers sadly and it takes me a minute to process it, but when it does, I wish it didn't. My knees just collapse and I fall to the ground and start to cry. I know I'm an emotional wreck, but I don't care. Liam kneels down beside me and wraps his arms around me, letting me cry into his chest.
"I-I uh... Need to be alone for a few minutes," I say through tears before running out of the house, ignoring his calls for me to stop. I feel bad for running and leaving but I need a little bit of time to really process this. That's what I always do, run from my fears. I run to the place I always go when something happens, the park. I make it there in a few minutes and was somehow able to keep a quick pace. I sit on one of the swings and pull my phone out to text Liam:
To Liam: 'I'm sorry I ran. I really needed some time to think, it's not your fault. You don't have to look for me, I'm fine. Xx'
Almost immediately, I get a text back from him:
From Liam: 'I understand, but we can work this out together, I swear. Please come home? Xxx'
I felt bad, but decided to put my phone away without responding. When I said alone, I had meant it, even if it's Liam. I got up after a few minutes and started walking the path though the woods. It leads out into another neighborhood and I keep walking from there. There's something about walking that eases my mind. I reach into my pocket when I feel my phone go off again.
From Zoe: 'are you ok? I'm so sorry for what happened, I heard. Liam is worried sick. Please come home soon! -Zoe xxxx'
I've probably been walking for a good 2 hours and decide its time to walk back. It's starting to get dark, but I don't really care.
When I walk inside, Liam runs in and pulls me into a hug.
"Don't do that again, please . Can we talk this out?" He asks and I nod my head. He slower rocks me in his arms until I fall asleep.