It was finally the day of the horse show. I was so excited for Liam to see it. Right now, I was at the barn getting Callie ready. Erin was next to me with Clover. We finished tacking them up and brought them to the trailer, then went and got changed for the show. I wore a baby pink shirt and tan riding pants to match Callie's saddle blanket. I walked outside just as Liam pulled up. He got out and I ran up to him and hugged him.
"Hey, babe. I can't wait to see you ride. You're the best rider I've ever seen and I can't imagine anyone else winning against you. The rest of the lads are meeting us there," he says, seeing how nervous I looked. Sure I was excited, but I always get nervous before shows that I'll mess something up or something.
"Thanks Liam. We should probably go now so we're not late," I say, grabbing his hand and pulling him to the car. He agreed that he could drive us there in his car, while Irene, my instructor, would drive the trailer with our horses.
We pull up to the horse park and we get out to get the horses. Liam holds Callie while I hop on. We walk to the ring and learn the course. Erin is up first and rides int the ring. She has a clear ride, with no faults. A few people go and then it's my turn. I ride into the ring Nd pick up a trot until the judge blows the whistle, then pick up a canter. I ride up to the first jump and easily clear it. I feel her take off the ground and soar over the jump. That's one of the best feelings in the world, almost like flying. I ride her to the second jump and she hesitates for a minute before clearing it. I ride through the rest of the course without any problems. Next is the jump off. I go as fast as I can over the four jumps in the jump off. I was the last rider, so they start announcing the results.
"Second place goes to Erin O'Shaughnessy on Clover! And first place goes to...Kristen Blank on Callie!" the announcer says and we cheer. I hug Callie and pat her neck. I walk into the ring and canter around once with the ribbon. I am so proud of Callie. Liam comes up to me and I hop off. He hugs me and then gives me a kiss.
"You looked amazing out there! I knew you would win," he says, patting Callie, while still holding me. "And you did well too, Callie."
We go through the second course the same way and then it's time for the last course. Erin knocks one rail, but otherwise does well. All the other riders go and then it's me again. I ride out and pick up a canter. I get over the first jump and approach the second jump. Callie hesitates again, but still jumps it. I can tell from the moment she took off that something wasn't right. She tried to make it, but got caught on the jump and tripped. She landed and made it to the next jump. I knew she shouldn't jump it and tried to stop her, but she just sped up more. She jumped way too early and once against tripped but this time, she fell. I felt my self fall with her and hit my head on something before hitting the ground. I couldn't move and I knew I was under Callie. The last thing I remember was Liam and Erin's voices screaming my name then everything went black.
I don't know much about horses, but I could tell something was wrong. Callie tripped over the second jump and then took off. I could tell Kristen was trying to slow her down, but it wasn't working. The next thing I saw was something I never wanted to see again. Callie took off far from the jump and tripped over it. Kristen fell with Callie and I saw her hit her head on one of the poles on the jump, before hitting the ground with Callie over her. She didn't move and that's when I knew it was bad.
I opened the gate and ran to her with Erin right behind her. Erin got Callie up and off of her, while I got to Kristen and tried to wake her up. I shook her and screamed her name b nothing worked. She had blood running down her forehead from where she hit the pole. I could hear sirens and people rushing over with a stretcher. They picked her up and placed her on it. I held her head and walked next to her as they put her in the ambulance. By now, Erin was by my side, crying. I felt something wet on my face and realized I was also crying.
"Only one of you can come with her," one of the men said.
"I'll go," I say, looking over at Erin, who nods. She runs to get to the car and I jump into the ambulance.
We arrive at the hospital and they rush Kristen inside. I run alongside the stretcher and up to the doors of the emergency room, when a doctor grabs my arm, stopping me.
"I'm sorry sir but you can't go past here. You can wait in the waiting room. We'll come to you with any information we receive. I nod and walk away.
I sit down and start to cry. I can't help it and can't stand not know whats goi n with Kristen. I hear the outside doors open. The boys, Erin, and Cailey walk in. I keep my head down and feel an arm around my shoulder. I look up to see Erin, tears running down her face. We hold not each other, attempting to comfort, but we both know its not working.
"She'll be ok, Liam. She's strong and will fight back, whatever happened. It happens to the best of us and it wasn't anyone's fault. Everyone has a bad ride some time or another and it sometimes results in the ER, but believe me when I say she will be ok.
I look around to see everyone with a worried look on their faces. I look at each of them and my eyes fall over Louis. He is hysterical with sobs racking his body whenever he tries to breath. I walk over to him and sit down. I know it's probably no use trying to comfort him when I'm in the same position but I can try.
"It's ok mate. She'll be ok and she's so strong," I say, not believing my own words. Nothing is ok. My girlfriend is in the emergency room.
"Do you really believe that yourself? Nothing is fucking ok, Liam! The girl I'm falling for is in the fucking hospital! Is everything ok now?" He asks, but I can't speak. The girl he's falling for? But she's my girlfriend, not his.
"What?! You have feelings for Kristen? Why didn't you tell me, Louis?" I yell and he looks down.
"I'm sorry, Liam. I tried not to but I couldn't stop it. And why didn't I tell you? Think about it for a second. Your one of my best mates and I have feelings for your girlfriend. Do you really think that would end well?" He asks, putting his head in hands. I know I shouldn't be mad, since he really can't help it.
"This really isn't the time for this. Can we just focus on Kristen now?" Before anyone else can respond, the door opens and a doctor walks out.
"Are you here for Kristen?" He asks, looking at all of our faces. We all nod and he continues, "I'm sorry, but Kristen hit her head pretty hard. She had to get stitches and she also broke a few ribs and her arm.."
I sigh in relief, thinking it was worse. He shakes his head and frowns.
"Sadly, that's not all. When she hit her head, it was hard and she passed out. I'm really sorry but she's in a coma," he says and that's when I break down. I fall to my knees and put my head in my hands. I don't even care how bad I look. All I want is for Kristen to be ok. Everyone is silent, except for the crying.
"Wi-will she be ok?" Erin stutters. The doctor looks at her sympathetically, before responding.
"We don't know yet. She could stay in a coma for a few days, weeks, months or longer. There is also a chance that she won't make it at all. From what I heard from Liam's explanation of what happened, it was bad. She's lucky she's not dead right now, but we will try to do as much as we can to help her. There is also a small chance that she could have memory loss," he says, looking at us all.
"Memory loss? So she might not remember us?" I ask, my heart breaking with every word he says.
"I'm afraid so. It's only a small percentage, but it's possible," he says.
"Can we see her?" I ask and he nods.
"You can, but only two at a time. just remember that she can probably still hear you so try to stay positive for her sake," he says, leading us to the room. I don't think I'm ready to see her there broken yet.
"I'll go last. I don't think it's good for me to see her yet. I have to calm down first," I say and they nod, understandingly.
The boys all take their turns to see her. I can see the shock on each of their faces when they come out. I don't think it's fully registered in my mind that she might not wake up. The girls walk in and come out about a half hour later. The wait is now killing me and I need to see her. Louis and I stand up to go see her and I take a deep breath before walking in.
I open my eyes to complete darkness. Whats going on? I was never a big fan of the dark or small spaces and right now I feel like I'm being suffocated. I can't see anything, but I can hear everything. I can hear crying close by. Why is someone crying. Then I hear them say my name.
"Kristen, why did this have to happen to you? You can't die. If you can hear me, I want you to know how much you mean to me," the voice says. I can tell they're crying, but I can't tell who it is. Wait, die? why would I die? I'm perfectly fine. Then another voice speaks up.
"Kristen, you can't leave. You're the only one who understands my jokes and accepts my craziness. Remember the time we went bowling and I tried to roll the ball but slid on the lane because it was slippery. You laughed so hard at that and when it was your turn, you did the same thing," he says, laughing lightly. It almost sounded forced and was full of sadness.
Suddenly, I couldn't hear his voice anymore and I opened my eyes to see my parents crying. The weird thing was that I could also see myself next to them. I remember is as the time my parents got divorced. They were explaining that it wasn't going to work and I was crying. I watched for a few minutes before everything went dark and I could hear the same voice talking. I was again taken to another place. It was at school and I was on the ground crying. Everyone was laughing at me and hitting me, saying I was worthless and should die. Then it flashed to me in the bathroom. I was sitting on the ground with blood running down my arm. I could feel the pain of the cuts, even though I wasn't actually living it, just as a third person perspective. I we brought back to the darkness when I hear the first voice talk.
"I don't want to leave her, Louis. You can go, but I'll just stay here," he says and the voice sounds so familiar but I don't know who it is.
"Liam, you have to eat. You haven't eaten all day and I don't think anything is going happen if we go grab lunch real quick. It'll help get your mind off things for a little," the second voice says. He sounds a little better than earlier.
"Ok fine, but only something quick," he says and his voice is so full of pain. I can't help but feel bad because I know it's about me, even though I don't know why. My vision gets brighter and I can see myself in a room. It's not mine and I have tubes all over myself. It was scary to look at. I look so broken, almost dead. I had stitches on my forehead and was very pale. I could feel myself getting tired and the heart monitor starts beeping faster. I freeze and look over at it. If me getting more tired makes the heart monitor beep faster, does that mean I'm controlling if I die or not? Oddly, I feel no emotions or pain even though its obvious that I should. I yawn and the heart monitor gets so fast, doctors begin to rush in and wheel me away. Or at least, I think it's me. Suddenly, I plunge back into darkness. Is is how I'm going to live from now on? I don't even know why I'm here or hurt.