I woke up and looked around and for what seemed like one second, everything was okay.. Nothing happened. I was at home with Niall talking about the wedding and how much we love each other.. But reality finally sunk in. I wasn't home. I was at Emma and Harry's.. I'm no longer with Niall. I'm not gonna see him for a whole year since they go on tour in a couple days.
I started crying, again. I'm tired of crying.. I don't wanna cry anymore. I wanna be strong not weak.. But that's not me. I'm crying because it's over, but at least I can smile knowing that it happened. Like I said before, I'm not mad at him. I'm happy that I had him at one point and we were in love. Someone else deserves him way more than I do.
I heard footsteps down the hall heading towards my room so I tried to wipe my tears away, but there was no point. Their still falling freely and I can't help it.
Emma walked in with two cups of hot chocolate in her hand. She set hers on the table and handed me mine. "Thanks" I mumbled.
"Are you gonna be okay..?" Emma asked sadly.
"Yeah starting right now. Get ready were going to the mall." I said standing up and running to the bathroom to get a shower.
I showered in record time, straightened my hair, did my makeup, and changed into my red jeans, a cute British shirt, and blue converse. I walked out to find Emma waiting by the door all ready to leave.
"Let's go!" Emma cheered.
We walked out to the car and got in. We were soon off to the mall.
I just laid in bed unable to move, unable to function. I keep telling myself it's for the best and I know it is. I thought about when me and Autumn first met. She was wearing skinny jeans and a pink and blue shirt. She had her hair down and it came to the middle of her back. I secretly begged the teacher to make her sit next to me at school. We were only 13.. But she was my first real crush. It lasted for a year until I got the nerve to ask her out.
I finally snapped out of my thoughts and got up. It was about 3:30 in the afternoon. I looked in the mirror. My hair was all messy and I had dark circles under my eyes and tear stained cheeks. I need to get my mind off of her.. I'll just take a long shower and see what to do after that.
I undressed and hopped In the shower, turning the hot water all the way up. I don't know what it is about getting hot showers.. It just calms me. I looked and noticed her vanilla shampoo is still in here, which only made me miss her even more.
I got out of the shower after 45 minutes. I changed into shorts and a t-shirt since I don't plan on even leaving the house. I walked into the bedroom and heard my name being said on tv.
"Oh great.. Already." I sighed.
I looked at the big flat screen tv hanging on the wall. It said in giant words. 'Niall Horan and ex fiancé call it quits 2 days before the wedding! Rumors say that Horan has been cheating with a supermodel for the last couple months.'
"Bullshit!" I cursed at the tv.
I grabbed the remote and switched the tv off. I slammed the remote down on the ground and watched it break into pieces.
"F**k.. Not again." I mumbled sitting down at the end of Autumn and I's once shared bed. I gotta call her! I gotta make sure she knows I didn't cheat. I whipped my phone out of my pocket quickly and went to her contact in my phone which still said Princess with a heart and crown emoji next to it. I gotta make sure to change that.. I hit the green button and put my phone up to my ear.
"It's Emma. What do you want?"
"I need to talk to Autumn."
"I'm sorry Niall but I don't want her to talk to you."
"Emma. Please!" I begged.
"Fine! Just please make sure she knows that all those rumors about me cheating is bullshit, okay!? I never cheated on her and that's not the reason we broke up.. Please tell her that.." I whispered the last part.. My voice was getting weaker and weaker with every word I spoke.
"Then why'd you break up with her..? She loves you.. More than anything.."
"I know.. But she needs someone who will physically be there for her all the time! Someone who won't hurt her like I have so much.. She'll be happy without me."
"Do you love her, Niall?"
"Yes.. That's why I'm letting her go."
"I gotta go she's coming back with her drink. Bye Niall." Emma muttered quickly.
The line disconnected and I sighed. Looks like I'm spending the rest of the day playing FIFA to keep my mind off things.