31. Chapter 31
Everyone said their goodbyes and I was the last one. Her parents walked out in tears and now it's my turn. I walked in and sat in the same very familiar chair. I once again grabbed her hand and instantly started crying.. I leaned forward and kissed her.
"Autumn.. I'm s-so sorry princess. This is all my fault.. I know that were only doing this so you won't be suffering anymore, b-but I'm just not ready to let you go." I said stuttering with tears streaming down my cheeks and landing on the floor.
"You'll be in a better place.. Where you can't hurt anymore.. Where you'll be happy. This is probably the worst feeling in the world.. 10 million times worse than them not calling my name back on x-factor, but that horrible feeling lead to something great. I know you won't be suffering anymore." I said rubbing circles on her hand with my thumb.
"I don't know if you can hear me.. But I love you. I love you more than anything else in the world. I know you love me too so that makes me feel better. I don't know how I'm gonna live without you, princess. I-I was gonna propose the night of the crash.." I said taking the ring out of my pocket and slipping it onto her cold finger. I kissed her hand and wiped the tears I accidentally got on her away.
I started singing little things.. That was her favorite song. Whenever she wasn't able to sleep, I'd sing it to her. It was getting harder and harder to sing cause with every lyric I cried even harder.
I finally finished and kissed her once again.
"You would've made a beautiful bride.." I choked out. "You'll fly high, princess.. You'll fly high.. I love you." I said and let go of her hand. I walked out and the doctor and a couple nurses walked in after me.
I couldn't convince myself to stay.. Everyone felt the same. We left, knowing she'd be in a better place once she passed.