I turned around and was about to run out when I ran into Jamie. I instantly cried into her shoulder and she tried to calm me down. I couldn't speak.. It was like I was in shock.. I felt crushed, sadness, anger, and embarrassment.
"I-I wanna go home." I breathed out sounding like a little kid who was homesick.
"Let's go. You can stay with me and Emma."
"O-okay.." I said keeping my head down as we walked out so the cameras couldn't really see my face.
We got in and Jamie started the car. I looked out the window and saw Niall run out but we pulled away before he could get to us. I looked back and he kicked something and sat on the ground with his head in his hands. I wanted to jump out of the car and just run back and hug him.. But I'm just as broken as he is. He broke my heart, fixed it, and just broke it again.
The whole car ride was silent except for my occasional sniffle or deep breath. We got back and walked inside.
"You can borrow my clothes. Go change. I'll make hot chocolate." Jamie said throwing down her car keys on the table.
I ran out and tried to stop them, but I was too late. I kicked the stone wall as hard as I could but that was a stupid idea. I probably just broke my foot but I don't even care at this point. I sat down and just cried. I don't care that paparazzi are taking pictures and shouting questions. I just blocked them out.
"C'mon mate." Liam said pulling me up and dragging me to his car.
"I-I lost her L-Liam! I lost her.." I said balling my eyes out.
"You cheated on her, Niall. I hate to break it to you, but you don't deserve her." Liam said breaking my heart even more if it was even possible too.
"B-but Liam! I love h-her!" I stuttered from crying and being drunk. Yes, I may be drunk, but I know what just happened and what I'm saying.. Kinda.
"I know, Niall. Don't worry about it now. Let's just go to the hospital and get your foot checked out." Liam said staring blankly at the road.
I just nodded and looked out the window. I'm so stupid.. I really don't deserve her. I broke her heart.. Twice. It kills me to think that she's ever cried, let alone me being the cause of her tears.
We pulled up at the hospital and Liam helped me inside. I can't even walk on my foot.. This sucks, but I deserve it. A broken foot will heal in a couple weeks, a broken heart never really heals.. You can only bandage it. I went and got it x-rayed and sure enough, it was broken. I don't care though. I keep get flashbacks from when me and Autumn were younger.
"Come on! Let's go get ice-cream!" I yelled from outside her window.
"Okay! I'll be right down!" She called closing her window.
I waited in the front yard and a minute later she came running down. She's my best friend.. Yet I secretly have a huge crush on her. We walked a couple blocks to the ice-cream shop making random conversation on the way there. We walked inside and walked up to the counter.
"Two, half and half's with sprinkles." I said and the lady nodded.
We waited a couple minutes and finally got our ice-cream. We paid and sat down at a table. There was a middle-aged couple sitting in the corner and a couple older kids from school here.
"I can't believe you cheated on me!" The lady shouted, causing us to give them our attention.
"I'm sorry! I didn't mean to, it just happened!" The guy yelled.
They exchanged some more words and then they left with the guy chasing after her. I feel bad for that lady.. Nobody deserves to be cheated on, I thought to myself.
"Would you ever cheat on anyone?" Autumn asked me before licking her ice-cream.
"No! Of course not. Would you?"
"No! I hate cheaters! It's just pathetic.." She replied and I nodded agreeing with her.
*End of flashback*
"Hello?? Mr. Horan?" The doctor said waving a hand in front of my face.
"Huh? What?" I asked snapping out of my thoughts.
"Your foot. It's broken. We'll get you in a cast and some crutches.. You'll have to wear it a couple weeks." The doctor said and I nodded.
I can't get that memory out of my head! It's like it's burned in my mind. I said I'd never cheat.. Yeah, we were 13-14 years old, but still. Nobody deserves it.. Especially the person your truly, madly, deeply in love with.
They put the cast on and got me on the crutches.. It was about 11pm and I'm tired. We walked out to the car and got in.
"You know we have an interview in the morning.." Liam said to me.
"Ugh, shit." I said angrily.
There just gonna ask me what happened to my foot and what happened between me and Autumn. I'll just have to explain that I'm a complete asshole.
"Wait, Liam. Where's Autumn?"
"She's with Emma and Jamie."
"Take me there. Please."
"No Niall.. You can tomorrow."
"Why?" I whined feeling my eyes spark with tears again.
"Cause Autumn's probably sleeping cause it's late. And we have an interview early in the morning." Liam said.
"I just want to see her.."
"Well she doesn't want to see you, Niall. I'll pick you up in the morning be ready by 9am okay?" Liam said pulling up to my house.
"Yeah, whatever." I said rolling my eyes and walking inside on my crutches.
All of Autumn's stuff is still here which gave me hope. I walked upstairs to our bedroom and picked up her little penguin stuffed animal I won her at the carnival. I squeezed it and just cried. It smells like her.. I miss her.
I took an extremely long shower and put my boxers on. I don't feel like putting anything else on.. I laid on the bed and sighed. It feels empty and cold without her here.. I can't sleep without her with me. I thought about calling, but if there's one thing I learned about girls.. It's that they need space. I just want to hear her voice and laugh.. And see her eyes.. And run my fingers through her hair.. Ugh, I'm making this harder on myself.
I took out my phone and dialed her number. I knew it by heart. I know she's not gonna answer I just want to hear her voice. I out the phone up to my ear and soon enough her answering machine came on.
"Hey! It's Autumn! Sorry I couldn't make it to the phone. Leave a message! Bye."
It beeped and I decided to leave a message. There's so much I wanna say but not enough time..
"Uhh.. Hey Princess.. It's Nialler. I um, just wanted to say I'm sorry.. I don't remember what happened after you left to go find Harry and Emma.. I feel absolutely terrible.. I- I broke my foot.. But I deserve it. Uh ok I'm just gonna come out and say it, I love you. I love you more than anything else in the world! Your the only girl I want and I just want you to know that I'm sorry and you deserve someone b-better. I understand if you don't want to forgive me.. I-I wouldn't forgive me either.. I love y-" I got all that in before I was cut off.
I hung my phone up and slammed it down on the bed. Here come the tears again.. I finally fell asleep at about 4am.