6. first day at kellins house
We drove home in silence he wouldn't show me what he had. When we got home and in the doors I walked over til I was standing right in front of him. His eyes were red and he had tears streaming down his face.
"Kellin?! Whats wrong what do you have!?!!!!"
He slowly hands me a piece of paper. It was from a week ago.
Dear world. Or anyone that cares
I hope this is my last night alive. I can't take this anymore. Everyone hates me. I don't even think my parents love me. My life is terrible and I just want to die! I'm not even scared I'm excited! I don't have to live with myself anymore. Aren't you happy!? You've been telling Me to do this for 4 years. So don't blame anyone but yourself when I'm gone. This is your fault. I still think back 4 years ago. A week before my first concert. I cut. The first time. You all said I was a freak. I miss Kellin and he doesn't even know me. That's depressing. Here. I will explain how I feel everyday. Don't tell me I'm wrong because I know how I feel. I walk to school. I'm starving I'm tired and I'm scared. I walk to my locker grab my things and run to class so I don't have to talk to anyone. I sit in class. ALONE. everyone refuses to sit by me. Is at supposed to make me feel god because honestly it just hurts. People throw things at me. That makes me feel bad they trip me. Makes me feel worthless. They call me ugly. I question my looks. They call me fat? I don't eat anything. The call me all ofthese things. Makes me wish I was never born. So I'm doing you all a favor. You don't deserve it but you better just shut up and be happy that you realize how bad your words hurt. If I don't die? Then I won't stop trying. I will NEVER stop trying. EVER.Goodbye. Hopefully forever