I woke up in the middle of the night. I was freezing my ass off. It doesn't help the fact that I have only one blanket. I got up out of the couch I am sleeping on. I went to Zayn's closet and looked in there and I see no sign of a blanket. I go through all his cabinets and drawers and there is still no sign of a blanket. I was making my way back to the couch and I tripped on the stupid extension cord that I forgot about. Something fell and made a loud thump. Shit!
He turned on his bedside table lamp on. I squinted at the bright light.
"Why are you up?" He asked.
"Sorry I was freezing and I was trying to look for a blanket."
"Sorry about that. The heating system is going to be out for a few days. I could grab you a blanket from our storage room."
"No no. I don't want you to go through the trouble. Mind if I sleep with you for the rest of the night?"
He seemed shocked by my question, but he nodded.
"Sure. Just grab your blanket so we can be warmer."
I grabbed my blanket and laid it on top of Zayns. I crawled into the bed and the closer I got to Zayn the warmer I got. We laid our backs together and Zayn turned off the light. I felt his breathing slow and knew he was asleep because of his soft snores. I missed this.
I woke up to shuffling in the bed. Zayn got up and went to the bathroom. He shut the door and It sounded like he started the shower. I decided to stay in bed because there was cold air surrounding his whole room.
He came out of the bathroom with just a towel around his waist. My cheeks heated when he made eye contact with me.
"Sorry I didn't realize you were awake."
"It's ok. I'm sorry, it's your room. You should have the privacy."
He just grabbed his clothes and headed to the closet. I got up and went to the bathroom. I stripped my clothing and went took a shower. The hot water relaxing my muscles. My thoughts consumed by Zayn. I didn't want to the think of the past, but someday it's all going to come rushing in. I want to forget not remember.
I got out of the shower. I opened the bathroom and there was no sign of Zayn. I went to the closet to change. I threw on what was comfortable. I made my way to the gym because I need to exercise for a bit.
Jess hasn't left my mind. I'm so disappointed in myself. I wish I could get her out of my mind. Rachel and I have been on and off, but it's nothing serious because I know she's using me to get to Zayn. Zayn just doesn't want anything to do with her. Now she's going from guy to guy. Right now I seem to be her favorite.
I decided to hit the gym. I started running on the treadmill. Rachel also came besides me and punched in her speed. She smiled at me and I smiled back. I was running and was interrupted by Rachel.
"Hey Jess!" Rachel yelled excitedly.
I was confused and I stopped the treadmill and saw Jess standing there with the fakest smile on her face.
"Hi Rachel. Hi Liam."
"Hi." I said not knowing what to say next.
She joined us on the treadmills and I was distracted by the way her body moved. Lust took over my senses, but I focused on running instead of her.
It's so awkward being near Rachel and Liam. I looked over to Liam. His white tank was sticking to his taut muscles. My heart thumped out of my chest when we made eye contact. We both looked away quickly. I got done exercising and I decided to go to lunch. I made my way to the cafeteria and I looked at the selection. I went for a chile verde burrito with a side of rice and beans.
I sat down at an empty table and started eating. I felt someone sit down. I looked up from my food and saw Rachel.
"I want to let you know Liam and Zayn are mine. Don't think about doing anything with them."
She had the craziest look in her eyes and I just scoffed.
"I can touch whoever the hell I want. It's none of your damn business."
"Whatever bitch. Stay away from them."
"Ok whatever you say. Bye."
I gave her a sarcastic tone and she stomped her way back to a table fool of guys. Wow who does she think she is. Jealousy pained my heart. What did she mean with Zayn. Were they a thing? I shook my thoughts and continued eating.
I looked up to see a unfamiliar face. He had dark brown eyes and dirty blonde hair.
"How are you doing?"
I have no idea who this guy is and what he wants, but I felt so awkward.
"I came here to tell you Zayn wants to see you."
"Ok. Where does he want me."
I threw away the rest of my food. I was full anyways. I followed blondie to wherever we were going. He reminded me of someone I lost dearly. I don't want to go through those hurtful memories. It hurts to much.
"What's your name?" I asked being my curious self.
"My names Daniel. I run errands for Zayn sometimes. I'm second in command."
"Ok. Well nice to meet you."
"Same goes to you. I've heard a lot about you from almost everyone. Good and bad things, but I judge people myself. I don't go by other's feelings."
"That's a nice trait. I wish more people were like that."
"Thank you and me too."
We made it to some random room in the headquarters. Daniel left and I opened the door. I walked in and it looked like my old room. Zayn was moving some boxes around to clean it up a bit.
"Hey Jess. I packed most of your stuff in the boxes, but I never took them out."
"Well now you have a room so you know. You won't be seeing me almost naked."
I blushed at his comment. His hair was all sprawled over his perfect face. His smile was perfect too. I ran from my lovey dovey thoughts.
"You're welcome. Decorate to whatever you want. I bought some stuff for you too. I hope you like the color turquoise."
"Yes I love turquoise. I still can't believe you remember my favorite color."
"It's a habit for people I care about."
His words made my heart race. I care for him too, but he probably means as a friend. He was making his way out of the room again.
"Thank you again."
"You're welcome Jess. See you around."
I went through all my boxes and started putting things where I wanted them. The room was perfect size. It had a bathroom and a walk in closet. I found a box full of my clothes. Thank god because I was sick and tired of wearing Jade's clothes.
I hung up all my clothes and after a few hours I had all the boxes emptied. I also decorated my room while I was at it. I love the way it turned out. I sat down at my vanity desk. I saw that I forgot about a box under my bed. I bent down and pulled it out from under my bed. Dust has collected all over it.
I opened the box and saw pictures, letters, and etc. It was pictures of my family, me with Zayn, and others. I pushed them aside and I found my diary. I pulled it out and set the box down. I wanted to read it, but I know how much memories it would bring to me. I didn't want to push myself there. I threw it back in the box and pushed it back under my bed.
I laid down and decided I should take a nap. I was pooped after all that cleaning and moving everything around.
I swear I have so much shit in this closet. I'm going to throw Jade's shit away. It was Jade's Idea to move her stuff in our room. She's the one who rushed the relationship on me. I honestly didn't have feelings for her. I knew she was fucking around with other guys. I know because I have security cameras in the places she thought no one can see. Like the kitchen and the rooms that no one lives in yet. I take them down when people move into them.
I just find it funny that she thought I didn't have a clue, but I did. There was a knock on my bedroom door. I stopped pulling clothes off the hangers and opened my door.
I rolled my eyes and walked away.
"What do you want Rachel?"
I just chuckled. I seriously I can't stand her ass.
"Come one Zayn. How can you resist me?"
She started pulling off her top. I walked up to her and stopped her from going any further.
"Rachel I don't want you. I've made that pretty clear many times."
"Is it because of Jess?"
"No it's not that. You're a pretty girl and all, but I don't want you."
"Come on Zayn. No one has to know."
"Rachel. I said no."
She just rolled her eyes and scoffed.
"Wow are you serious?"
"Yes I am. Please go back to your room."
She stomped off and slammed my door. Was Jess really the one stopping me from doing things like thinking of other girls. I care for her, but I loved her a long time ago. I don't think she ever wants to go there again anyways. God I just need to go to sleep. I have to much to do.
I woke up in a panic. I tried to grab Zayn, but I turned over and remembered I'm in my own room. I never want to have that dream again... I miss you Riley. My sweet beloved sister.