A MONTH LATER
A month had passed and Julliard got in trouble from what he did to Liam.
Speaking of Liam. I've been spending everyday with him and I developed a little crush on him. I was very attracted to him. The way his eyes crinkled when he smiled. The way his pink plump lips spread around his perfect teeth. He was a beautiful human. His calm personality drew me in every day.
"How are you today Jess?" Liam said with a smile.
"I'm good. How are you Liam?"
"I'm doing well. Zayn will be here maybe tomorrow."
"Are you upset?"
"No... It's just I've been having so much fun with you."
"I have to Jess."
Me and Liam did what we usually do. We played video games and ate junk all day. We started talking about everything. Our conversation turned serious and my stupid brain slipped a question. I didn't want to ask.
"Do you like me Liam?"
Liam paused and gave me a confused look.
"Yeah of course I like you! What kind of question is that?"
"No... Do you like me more than a friend?"
It slipped out of my mouth without me thinking...He paused the game and looked at me and my heart was thumping in my chest.
"We can't... I can't..."
"What do you mean we can't?"
He didn't answer. I scooted closer to him. Liam... He just stared at me. I rested my hand on his cheek. He closed his eyes and took a breath. I looked down to his pink plump lips. I leaned in and pecked him on the lips. His lips were so soft. I pulled back and he pulled me back towards him. He crashed his lips on mine and I felt something ignite in my heart. Butterflies were fluttering in my stomach. I held his strong shoulders and kept locking our lips together. Passion was flowing out of both of us. He pulled away and his hot breath hit my face. He made me feel something I can't explain. My mind realized what I was doing.
"I....I got a little carried away... I'm sorry." I said and I held my mouth.
We were breathing hard and my heart was still racing.
"No I'm sorry. We shouldn't have done that..."
He went silent for a few. I just sat there trying to read him.
"You need to go back to Zayn's room. I need to get prepared for him. See you around Jess."
He stood up and left the room and I followed and I went back to Zayn's room. It was wrong. What we did was wrong. I had feelings for Zayn, but I doubt he has feelings for me. He only seemed to like me as a friend. Liam on the other hand, he had feelings for me. I felt it.
I woke up to shuffling in the room. Zayn was changing his clothes. He looked exhausted with black circles around his eyes. His face had subtle growing all over.
"Sorry I didn't mean to wake you." Zayn said.
"It's ok. I should really get my own room so I don't have to be a bother to you."
"You're not a bother, but I'll have to fix your old room up."
"That will be good." I said.
"Alright. Why don't you come down into my office later? We have a few things to talk about."
"Alright I will."
"Perfect. I'm going to run some errands. Hang out with Liam while I'm gone."
Thinking about Liam had me flustered. Our kiss had me breathless. I don't understand how it could be wrong for us to be together. Zayn doesn't see me the way he used to anymore...
I went through the headquarters and I went to the cafeteria to get something to eat. They made this place bigger than it used to be. There are more hallways and more rooms than before. It's been 2 years since I was last here.
I grabbed lunch and I sat down at one of the tables. I saw Liam sitting with Niall and Harry. He was laughing at something Niall said and Harry chimed in and said something even funnier. Liam probably felt someone staring at him and he stared at me. Once we made eye contact, he removed his eyes from me and back to his friends. It hurt me that he couldn't even look at me now. I can't believe kissing him turned into this.
After I was done eating I headed down the hall to the Gym. I was going to work out to keep my mind off things. I walked in and I started on the treadmill. I turned my head and saw Liam lifting weights. His muscles were peaking out of his long sleeve shirt. I was so distracted that I forgot I was supposed to be running not sliding off the treadmill.
After an hour of doing random things in the gym. I sat down at the lockers and threw a towel around my neck. I leaned over and grabbed a water that were in the mini fridge. I was on my way out when I bumped into Liam.
"Oh sorry." I whispered.
Umm... I have no idea what to do. We were just standing there in awkward silence.
"How are you doing?" I asked.
He is not making this any easier...
"Is it going to be like this between us now?"
"Honestly Jess. I don't know what to do about this situation. We can't happen."
"I seriously don't get the "We can't" card. Is this about Zayn?"
He just looked at me. It took him a little effort to answer.
"Why? Zayn and me dated in the past, but that doesn't change the fact that I like you."
"I know. I just don't know what to feel. I'll see you around."
He walked off before I can say anything back. Does Zayn still have feelings for me?
I went to Zayn's room and I got in the shower and got changed in Jade's clothes. I felt bad that I killed them. I shouldn't have...
I made my way to Zayn's office and I ran into Julliard.
His voice was so cold and mysterious. It made me feel uncomfortable.
I said his name and he just walked past me. I knocked on Zayn's office door.
"Who is it?"
"It's Jess. You told me to come by."
I opened the door and entered. It was a nice office. Their was a big mahogany desk with a bunch of antiques on it and papers were everywhere.
"Sorry for the mess."
"Don't worry about it."
I gave him a smile and he smiled back. It was so weird to be around him. Especially since we used to date.
"I've been doing a lot of things to keep you here. Some people may not be happy, but most of us want you to stay."
I nodded and kept listening.
"There is a few problems though."
"What is the problems?"
"Well first off, Axel has been sending people here to get you and he's been calling nonstop."
"Yes. I know he wants you Jess. You're his little puppet. He has so much control of you it's sickening."
"Well I need you to not contact him whatsoever."
"Ok. I won't. I promise."
He just nodded and he laid his hand over mine. My heart raced wildly in my chest. My cheeks were flustered. Why do I have to feel this way.
"I promise I won't let you go back to him. You belong over here Jess."
I smiled and he took his hand off mine.
"How's Liam been treating you?
My heart stopped. I suck at lying and especially after we kissed. Plus Liam admitted that Zayn is the one in the way of us.
"He has been treating me very well."
"That's good. I hope you guys get along."
There was a long silence after that.
"Alright well like I said make yourself at home. Do whatever."
"Thank you Zayn. I appreciate it."
I gave him a smile and I went off about my day. Everything is so chaotic right now. I can't believe Axel wants me back. He gave me to Zayn and then now he wants me back? For what? I killed the person he "loved" and I didn't even realize it. I think Zayn and her must have been only dating for a few because he doesn't seem to distraught by it. The only one he seems to hate me for is James.
James was Zayn bestfriend before Liam. They grew up together and they were always with each other. It was 2 years ago. I was a complete mess and Axel wanted me to go to his side. I was going to because Zayn and I had a bad breakup and he was my life and my heart was so hurt by him. I didn't want to be here with him anymore so I went to Axel. But I had to pay a price. Axel was going to kill Zayn if I didn't kill James. I had to kill James. I know I was heart broken about Zayn, but I loved him and he wasn't going to die. When I shot James my whole world shattered. I can remember Zayn's words so clearly...
"Why Jess why?? I hate you. I hate you so much. Get out of here. GO!"
Zayn was yelling at me all kinds of things. I killed James for him. I hated Axel for threatening me to do it. I loved Zayn...
"Fucking bitch. You're such a betrayer. How dare you fucking do this."
His words were cutting through me like knives.
"Don't ever step a fucking foot near me again."
He gave me a death glare and Axel took my hand and we left.
END OF FLASHBACK
My heart ached at the memory. It went all downhill after that. I started to get into drugs and drinking. But Axel helped me out of that. I was depressed, but Axel helped me through all of it. I wanted to die and all kinds of negative feelings. Here I am. Almost as Happy as I used to be, which is close enough.
It was 1:00 a.m. and I was still up. I wanted to go to bed, but my mind wasn't ready. I shuffled all around Zayn's room. I was curious of all the papers he had on his desk. He had a picture of him and James next to his antique wooden wolf. I picked up the picture and tears slipped from my eyes.
"I'm so sorry what I did to you. You didn't deserve it. I should've just took my life instead. Please forgive me." I whispered.
Zayn came in and noticed me looking at the picture.
"That was my favorite memory ever."
I turned to him and smiled. I remember this story. He's told me a bunch of times, but it's been 2 years since I've heard it, so I let him continue.
Zayn chuckled before he started talking and I gave a little giggle.
"We were going to go fishing for the first time. James was so ready to catch a fish while I thought fishing was boring. My father rented a boat and we sat there for hours and hours waiting to get a catch. When suddenly my rod started to get pulled. I grabbed hold of it and started to reel it in. All I can think of was that fish must be 100 pounds! I started yanking and pulling when I realized James was doing the same thing I was doing. So I let him pull for a while and he started yanking me towards the edge. I realized that me and James have been yanking each other's hooks for about 30 minutes. My father was laughing his ass off and James still didn't have a clue. He was so determined to get that fish and it was my hook he was pulling. About an hour later our hooks got unstuck and James was so mad when he reeled in nothing. That's when my father took a picture of us. I was as happy as can be because of the incident and there was James with the grumpiest face I have ever seen."
Zayn just laughed and close his eyes.
We laughed for a little while together and I was happy to see Zayn like this.
"You know James would be happy to see you like this Jess."
"Thank you Zayn. That's nice to hear. I bet he feel the same way with you."
We just smiled at each other and we told more stories about our funny memories.