I could barely walk outside the door until Niall followed me. I almost had a panic, wondering if this was normal? I chose to carefully mud him and I tried to live my life. Still, I almost panicked and didn't feel alone once during all hours. It didn't get better when Liam started ringing Alva to book me. She lied and said I was fully booked, even though I was off duty and wasn't even on the job.
Finally one evening was enough. I saw Niall standing in the street, across from my apartment, and he stood with a jacket tightly around the body. I realized it was just me who could stop him. I put on my jacket, shoes and went out to him. Niall was startled when I came out on the street, but he almost seemed even more surprised when I walked right up to him.
"Have you no life?" I got cold out of me. "Why are you following me all the time and why are you standing there?"
He blushed and avoided my gaze. He looked at everything else, but not at me.
"I can stand here?"
"Nobody forbids you to stand in the street and stare at my window, but I warn you. I will call the police and say that you are persecuting me."
Niall kept his arms crossed over his chest and leaned against a lamppost. I saw that he was cold and I could see the fact that he was worried.
"Please, Niall, you have nothing to gain here, so go home."
He shook directly on his head.
"I'm your bodyguard."
I laughed right away and tried to think of the right word. It seemed like he wasn't listening, or he didn't care what I thought.
"Go home and take time off."
Niall stood there and made it clear that he wouldn't listen to me. I saw at him that he shook off cold, and I hadn't the heart to leave him there.
"Are you cold?"
He nodded a little bit, but avoided my eyes. I swallowed and made a choice.
"You leave and go hone, if you get to warm you up a little in my apartment?"
He lit up and nodded instantly.
I knew when we walked in the door that he wouldn't go home. He hung up the jacket and almost seemed overjoyed to be inside, in my home. I took off my outer clothes, the shoes and put on a pair of indoor shoes. I went into the kitchen and put the kettle on. Niall followed and he just seemed to enjoy.
"How do I get some tea?"
I smiled weakly and turned around to him.
"You walk home if you have tea?"
He nodded immediately and sat down on one of the chairs. I took out two cups and tea bags. Then I sat across from him.
"Niall, you can't persecute me."
He smiled and looked at me.
"Well, I can, because I have realized that it was destiny that I would meet you."
I shook directly on my head and looked straight into his eyes.
"Go home and live your life. I'm not the girl you think I am. I have sex with guys, I will charge you in the end and I do it damn well."
Niall's eyes just became more filled with love and he didn't even seem to understand that I was serious.
"Nelly, I don't walk away from you."
"You have to!"
He shook his head
"Give me one reason to leave you!"
I knew a thousand reasons.
"Your friends have fucked me."
He was startled and became serious.
"But you did it, since they paid for it?"
I was almost crazy.
"Niall, are you listening to me?"
I swallowed and tried to show with the whole body that I was serious. I stood up and fetched the water. I poured it into the cups and then looked at him again.
"My answer is no, I want you to go after you got the tea."
Niall looked at me long and hard before he was answering.
"Why are you doing everything to make me hate you?"
I swallowed and put the kettle back.
"Would you take me home to your mom and show me?"
"Yes, why not?"
I looked at him.
"And when she ask what I do?"
"Then I say that you work with people."
I already knew that he was about to tell me that answer.
"And when she asks what I do with people?"
He understood what I meant, but still, he didn't give up.
"Great, then you make sure that customers are satisfied and that they are happy?"
I shook my head and smiled at him.
"Niall, you're dreaming!"
He became quiet and I saw at him that he began to think. Okay I liked him, but I knew it could never be an us. He was wonderful and I loved that he really cared. Yet it wasn't enough. He couldn't handle the truth.
"The first customer I had took my virginity." I wanted to tell Niall the truth. "It hurt and I cried all night. I felt really bad and just wanted to die. My second customer was having sex with me in two days and he wasn't nice to me. After that I learned to shut down everything and sex to me is only one thing that you guys want."
Niall just stared at me. I sat down and drank the tea.
"I think guys just want girls who will do anything for them in bed and I don't believe in true love. I don't trust you or any other person who has a cock between his legs."
I had finally gotten him to listen. He seemed to really understand what I was talking about.
"Your two friends Louis and Harry wanted to try threesome. Zayn was just curious, and it ended up with that we had sex in a movie theater. Liam wanted to tie me down and decide everything. Hell I got to ride a fucking dildo and he pressed up a dildo in my ass."
His eyes were blank and he just stared at me. It was as if he realized that my profession was more than just a smile.
"Niall, do you really want to have such a girl?"
He lowered the gaze and looked down at the cup. It hurt me to tell the truth, but I knew that sooner or later he would leave me anyway.
"You mean ..." He fell silent and I smiled weakly.
"Yes, I think it happens more in my life than you know about. I'm not a nice girl that gets guys to feel good. I'm a whore, a whore who will do anything for money."
It was quiet in the kitchen long before Niall stood up. He walked firmly around the table and stood in front of me.
I put down the cup on the table and obeyed him. To my great surprise Niall took my hands in his and looked straight into my eyes.
"I've been really hard to get girls. Nevertheless, I'm sexually active by me jerking off all the time., I can jerk off on the bus, at home, in the bathroom and everywhere. Same thing as you do, but I don't get paid to do it."
I frowned directly on the forehead.
"It's not the same thing?"
Niall smiled and seemed to think the opposite.
"The difference is that I'm alone and you have someone with you. Receive money and I get nothing more than a moment of pleasure."