I stared into the mirror as I finished getting dressed for the day. I had some bruises on my arms from last night. I sighed and took a deep breath before heading out into the living room. Patience and Bitsy were sitting on the couch. They turned to look at me as soon as they heard me enter.
"Hey Zoe." Bitsy smiled at me.
"Are you going somewhere? I thought you didn't have work today..." Patti mumbled.
"I don't but I think I'm go walk around for a bit." I walked to the door and stopped. "You're welcomed to join if you'd like..."
They both bolted off the couch and ran to me. This was the first time in awhile that I said they could join me. I've been pushing them away every since the boys left. Florence is my cousin, she came to live with me to get away from her over controlling mother. Patience was all up for the idea, mostly because I was giving her a cold shoulder along with Mansi.
I looked to my side to see smiles plastered on both of their faces. Maybe this wasn't a great idea after all.. I was staring at them for too long and ran right smack into someone. I groaned and looked up to see a guy. He bent down and offered me his hand. I took it and stood back on my feet.
"I'm sorry." I said and started walking away.
"Let me buy you a drink!" He said.
"No thanks." I said without turning around.
"I insist!" He said grabbing my wrist.
I turned around and felt my arm being pulled away from his grip. I looked up to see cold green eyes glaring at the guy.
"I believe she said no." Harry hissed.
"Mind your own business." The guy yelled.
I realized that my hand was locked with Harry's. He was about to punch the dude but I pulled him away towards the park. Our hands were still locked together as we sat down under the oak tree. Patience had a huge grin across her face until I took my hand away from his. She frowned at me. Bitsy was totally confused on to what was going on.
"We're going to get some ice cream..want some?" Patience asked me grabbing Bitsy. I nodded and they left me alone with Harry.
"Are you okay Zoey?" He asked peering his bright green eyes at me.
"Don't." I growled.
He turned my face so I had to look at him. His big green eyes looked confused and hurt.
"What did I do?" He begged.
"Harry! You left me! You always leave and expect things to be perfectly fine when you come back! This time isn't not!" I growled and stood up putting some distance between us.
"But Zoey..." He pleaded.
"No Zoey...." I felt the tears start leaking out of my eyes. "I don't know why it hurts so much but it does! Every time you leave! I'm the one who's hurt! This time I'm not going to get hurt!" I yelled and ran towards the pier. To be exact I was running to the lighthouse. It's where I've been hiding every time my heart begins to hurt. When I can't take the company of anyone.
I slammed the door shut behind me and leaned against it crying my eyes out. I felt so much pain right now and I didn't understand why. Then I felt someone wrap their arms around my waist from behind. Startled I spun around just to be embraced even more. I knew this sweet smell. I wrapped my arms around his waist and buried my head in his chest.
Zoey are you stupid? He's hurt you just as bad as Harry! As Niall! Don't let his kindness fool you right now! He'll just end up leaving you again! Don't you realize this?
I pushed him away and felt the tears arising again. He looked at me with confusion filling his eyes. I don't want to hurt any more. I don't want to fall in love. Wait what did I just say?! No! I can't fall in love with any of them! It can't work like that!
"Zoey..." Zayn spoke softly whispering in my ear. "Please stop crying beautiful..."
I pushed him away again and ran out of the lighthouse. I ran to the bus station. I bought a ticket for New York city. I needed to get away. I needed to figure out my dreaded feelings.