I shot up in bed and looked around the room, it was a room I vaguely remembered. I looked next to me, "Morning sunshine."
Oh no. I didn't, did I? "Uh, hi, Ashton..."
"You okay?" He wrapped his arms around me.
"I'm fine." I wriggled out of his grip and rubbed my head trying to remember exactly what I did last night. I reached over and grabbed my clothes, changing under the covers. Once changed, I got out and walked to the balcony, tears brimming my eyes. Last night was a great time, until I did the worst thing imaginable, I cheated on Nathan. Again.
"Oh come on Ellie, loosen up! What happened with Luke was innocent and you did nothing wrong! So stop moping and come to Ashton's Christmas party with us!"
"It just doesn't feel right going without Nate.."
"Look," Cara had sat down on the bed next to me, "it's normal to go out to party without your boyfriend, and I'll be there right with you to make sure you're not going to do anything stupid." Yeah, so much for that...
The entire night I spent hiding away in the bedroom I woke up in.
"Ellie? Come back to the party, please?"
"I'm good." Ashton sat down on the bed next to me and handed me a drink.
"What is this?" I asked peering into the cup."
"Don't worry it's not too heavy of a drink, it would take a couple of these to get someone completely wasted."
I raised an eyebrow at him but took a sip anyway. "Mmm, what is this for real though?"
"It's Malibu and iced tea." I drank some more as Ashton and I sat in silence. Then we started talking. It was nice having someone there to make me smile and forget about Luke and Nate. Nate. I knew where this was headed, but for some reason I still let it happen. Ashton leaned in and kissed me. After a second, I reacted and pulled him in closer. Our innocent kiss became a heated make out session, his hands traveling my body. I wanted to pull away, I wanted to say no, but it was as if it was another girl had taken over and I was watching from the outside. Ashton began tugging at my shirt, and that's when I pulled out.
"What's wrong? Is it Nate?"
"I just really shouldn't..."
"You mean you've been with Nate for 4 years and you still haven't?!"
"No! We have but I don't want to cheat on him. It's not fair to either of you."
"We can forget this ever happened and just go back to the party..." He got up off the bed and stretched out his hand. I grabbed it and he pulled me up and wrapped his arms around my waist. "But I'd much rather stay up here with you."