When I woke up I was feeling sore all over my body.
Jamie was still sound asleep.
I tried to think about what I should do but my head hurts a lot.
I can't think really well when I'm like that. I am scared all the times my dad did this. It keeps repeating itself in my head.
I can't stop it and it makes me scared.
I get the feeling that I am going to cry but I can't break down now.
If I do it is only getting harder to pull myself together.
When this is all over and Jamie and I are save away from everything I am going to think back at everything and deal with it.
Because I know that the way that I am dealing right know it will only make me stronger.
I think back about tomorrow,and about what for consequences it has for today.
I can hardly act normal like this. Walking is hard and my head hurts. I will just see with option is the best.
My options were or to stay at home and face my dad again, or to go to school and take the risk that someone saw one of my bruises.
Maybe it would be better to stay at home but I have to take the risk to go to school, other ways I couldn't go to my jobs. It would be weird if I didn't go to school but did go to my job.
And what about Jamie? There was so much to worry about I just can't handle everything at ones.
Both were a bad idea.
It would only make it worse.
What I need is a day away from everything I would take Jamie and we would do something fun.
It has been such a long time since we have done something fun together. I need that and Jamie as well that is for sure.
He has been through so much already but never complains.
He is the best brother ever and it would be a good idea to show him that by doing something different than normally.
I just want to see him smile.
Smiling to myself I went to wake Jamie up and begin our day of fun.
Maybe we could go to the park or go shopping I will let Jamie choice, all exited I walked towards him but just as I wanted to wake him the bell rang and I completely froze.