I slid to a stop to avoid the puddle and to avoid falling on top of Liam and Niall, I look down and see them sit there on top of each other for a few second and see Niall jump up and run towards the bathroom. I could see the blush on his cheeks, I walked over and helped Liam up as I pulled him towards me and whispered in his ear
"You and me are talking about this later." And I look straight at him as he looks at me and nods his head with an angry/confused look and I nod my head back and walk towards the group of laughing boys, who I hope didn't notice what I did.
Harry looks at Liam his face very red and streaked with tears from laughing "A.are you o..o..ok" he asked Liam still laughing profusely, I looked at him apologeticly and pat his back.
I smile at Nick and announce to the group "im gonna go find Niall and see if he's okay." And start walking toward the restroom.
I sat on the floor with my back to the door and my knees to my chest, with my head on my knees I sobbed. I couldn't be gay, Liam doesn't even think of me that way. I hiccuped from sobbing so hard. I jumped as I heard a knock on the door.
"Nialler?" I heard Matthew on the other end.
"Ya...Ya?" I said, and cleared my throat.
"Whatcha doin?" He asked, and I heard him slide down the door on the other side.
"Nothin.. Just sitting.... in the loo." I heard Matthew chuckle on the other end.
"Sounds fun. Mind if I join you?" He asked.
I thought for a second, and reached my arm up and unlocked it then scooted a little ways out of the door way. Matthew came in and closed the door behind him them sat down next to me. We sat there awkwardly just staring ahead.
"So why didn't you tell me you were gay? Or are you Bi?" Matthew asked and I stiffened.
"I'm not gay... Or Bi." I spat. I saw Matthew flinch from the corner of my eye. "S..sorry, it's just... I.. I can't be.. And besides Liam doesn't even feel the same." I said starting to sob again.
Matthew quickly wrapped me in his arms and I grabbed his shirt and sobbed into his chest, like we've both done multiple times before. He began to rub my back.
"Hey, hey, it's ok. Calm down before you make yourself sick." He said and I just sobbed harder.
"Why...Why... Is this s...so hard?" I sobbed.
Matthew sighed, but shrugged.
"I don't know, but trust me. It does get better. It gets so much better. Me and Nick have been together..." He let out a breath as if thinking. "What, two... Three years? It's been so long I can barely remember, I just know it's been amazing.. Or should I say amazayn." He said trying to cheer me up.
I smiled slightly but still cried. I wasn't full out sobbing anymore. But was now hiccuping pretty much nonstop. I felt his chest rumble slightly, I looked up shocked.
"What's so *hiccup* funny!?" I demanded.
"You." Matthew wiped away my tears with the pad of his thumb."One minute you're laughing, then you're sobbing, then hiccuping. You're worse than a pregnant woman." He said and I actually smiled.
I missed this, we had hung out all the time then we moved, and we still talked, but it wasn't the same.. To say I was happy he was here would be an understatement.