*November 21, 2011 ~ 9:45 AM*
I woke up to the sound of Justin's heartbeat. I smiled and looked at him. He was still asleep and his hair lay on his head. I ran my fingers through his hair, caressing his perfect jawline with the palm of my hand. He's so cute when he's asleep. I kissed his cheek, which made his nose crinkle. I chuckled lightly. Maybe not so lightly because his eyes opened and he turned his body to face me.
Me: Did I wake you?
Justin: Not really.
I sat up, pulling the covers off of me.
Me: I'm gonna take a shower.
He sat up, resting on his forearms.
Justin: Meet me downstairs?
He sat up and kissed my cheek, making me blush.
Justin: You're so cute when you blush.
Me: Shut up!
I hid my face in my hands.
Justin: I'll let you change.
He kissed my cheek again and got off the bed. I grabbed the pillow and threw it at him.
Justin: But you're cute when you blush.
I pulled the covers over my head.
Me: Shut up!
I heard him chuckle and close the door. God, he's so adorable.
I walked into my room, closing the door behind me. Man, she's something.
You mean the girl you're secretly in love with?
Oh my God, go away.
Nope. I'm staying.
I mentally rolled my eyes and walked over to my closet. I grabbed some cargo shorts, a black V-neck, and a snapback. I changed into it, grabbed my phone off the nightstand, and walked out the door. I headed downstairs, greeted by my mom at the bottom.
Mom: Morning, Justin.
I gave her a hug and headed to the kitchen.
Mom: Where's Dawn?
?: Right here.
We both looked at the door and saw her standing there. She wore black skinny jeans, a purple V-neck, and knee high black boots. Her hair was out to the side, wavy like last night. She noticed I was staring and I looked away. You can't keep staring at her like that, Justin. She might think something's up. I sat down at the table, taking my phone out.
Me: So what's for breakfast?
I looked up, seeing her walk into the kitchen.
Me: Hey. I haven't eaten since five yesterday.
I stood up, walking towards her.
He walked towards me, making me back up. Eventually, I backed up into the wall by the staircase. He was right in front of me, his breath hitting my lips and sending chills down my spine.
Justin: Technically, I'm not a fatty since I haven't eaten for seventeen hours.
I bit my lip, looking away from his eyes. He turned my head back around, leaning closer to me.
Justin: Do I make you nervous?
I tried my hardest to look anywhere but his eyes, but it was no use. I took a deep breath and stiffened up a little.
Justin: You're lying.
Me: No I'm not.
Justin: I can see it in your eyes.
Pattie: Justin, stop. We have to eat.
He pulled away from me, walking back into the kitchen. I followed him and sat down across from him. Pattie put three plates of food on the table, one for each of us. Once she sat down, we prayed and ate.
With Kenny behind us, we walked towards security. They scanned us and everything, giving us our stuff. I hate airports, honestly. Train stations are better. Airports are overcrowded and you have to take your shoes off just to get through security. I mean, what's the point of it? It's like they think we're criminals or something, especially Justin since he's the international superstar.
Just as our flight number was called, Scooter stood in front of us with his arms crossed. Justin and I stood up, his arm wrapped around my waist.
Scooter: Why is she here?
Justin: She's coming with us.
Scooter: No she's not.
Justin: Yes she is. I haven't seen her for four months. I need to make up that time.
Scooter: No you don't. She was fine when you didn't see each other and she'll be fine for four more months.
Justin let go of me and walked up to Scooter.
Justin: She wasn't fine without me. When I came back, she told me she cried every night because of a nightmare.
Scooter: So? Nightmares are nightmares. You have to get over them.
Me: It wasn't any nightmare.
They both looked at me.
Me: It was the same nightmare every night.
I took a deep breath, trying not to cry when thinking about it.
Me: It was me in a room and glimpses of past conversations appeared. Every single time Justin's about to say something, his face goes pale and he falls to the floor. Then there's blood surrounding him and...
I bit my lip, closing my eyes tight so a tear wouldn't fall. I felt two strong arms wrap around me. I wrapped my arms around them, burying my head in their chest. I looked up, seeing Justin's brown eyes looking into mine.
Justin: I promised I wouldn't leave her. Not again.
I wiped my tears as he let me go and turned around.
Justin: She stays here and I'll stay here with her.
Then he walked off. I lowered my head as we followed him to the plane.
When we got on the plane, Dawn sat by the window, her headphones in. I sat next to her, grabbing her hand. She looked at me, taking a headphone out.
Me: Are you okay?
Dawn: I'm fine.
Me: You sure?
She looked out the window, resting her head against it. I heard song lyrics escape her lips.
All that I'm after is a life full of laughter as long as I'm laughing with you
I'm thinking that all that still matters is love ever after, after the life we've been through
Cause I know there's no life after you
I gently rubbed the back of her hand with my thumb.
?: The plane will be taking off in a moment. Please turn your electronics off now.
I took my phone out, putting it on airplane mode. I looked at Dawn and saw her doing the same.
?: We will let you know when you can use your electronics. Thank you for flying.
I looked at Dawn, noticing her eyes were on the floor. I sighed. When will I be able to tell her?
I stood up from my seat, walking past Justin. I walked down the aisle towards the bathroom. Once I got there, someone came out and walked past me. I walked into the bathroom and locked the door behind me. I sat down on the toilet, my head in my hands. This trip is bad already. Scooter doesn't want me here. He'd rather have Selena with him instead of me. Why? I don't understand that. Does he think Selena's better for Justin than I would be? I'm still so confused. I like Justin. A lot. He's the only guy I've been able to trust ever since my dad told me he never wanted me. Justin makes me feel like I have the power to do anything. He doesn't yell at me, but if he's upset, he'll tell me and try his hardest to keep his cool.
I have to tell Justin how I feel. Either that or I lose him like I did in my dream.
She's been in the bathroom for a while. Is she okay? I got up and walked towards the bathroom. I knocked on the door.
Me: Dawn, are you okay?
The door opened, revealing her with her hood over her head.
Dawn: Yeah, why?
Me: Just wondering.
She walked past me, but I grabbed her wrist. She turned to face me.
Dawn: I'm fine, Justin. Really.
Me: Why were you in there for so long?
Dawn: I was thinking.
She tried getting out of my grip, but I pulled her towards me. We were now chest to chest with each other.
Me: And you couldn't think in your seat?
Dawn: You wouldn't understand.
She pulled her arm out of my hand and walked back to our seats. I sighed and followed her.
I sat down in my seat looking out the window. I can't tell him how I feel. He doesn't feel the same way. I can see it in his eyes.
Or he's just really good at hiding it.
Shut up. No one asked you.
I rolled my eyes, putting my headphones in and listening to my music.
We just arrived in New York. Justin introduced me to his dad, who was waiting for us at the airport. Now, we're in the all black car Justin and crew are in when he visits New York. I rested my head on his shoulder as my eyes began to close.
She fell asleep on my shoulder. Wrapping my arms around her small waist, I pulled her onto my lap. Her head rested on my chest as she snuggled closer to me. I chuckled and kissed her forehead.
?: Young love.
I looked up and saw my mom looking back at me.
Mom: You know it's true. The way you look at her; the way you defend her when someone talks bad about her.
Me: Because she deserves some respect.
I glared at Scooter who was looking at me through the rearview mirror. He rolled his eyes and looked at the road.
Mom: Well, not everyone's going to like her, Justin.
Me: I know, but...but...
Scooter: You better not say what I think you're gonna say.
Me: I was just gonna say she needs someone to defend her.
I rolled my eyes and looked at Dawn, twirling the ends of her hair with my index finger. I sighed. When will I tell her?
When we arrived at my rental in New York, I carried Dawn bridal style through the front door. She's been sleeping a lot lately. Maybe fatigue? Who knows? I just hope she's okay.
I woke up to my head hitting something solid. I groaned at the pain.
I looked up and saw Justin. He was carrying me.
Me: How long have I slept for?
Justin: A while. Are you okay?
Me: Girl issues.
He gently placed me on the couch.
Justin: Are you hungry?
My stomach growled. He probably heard it because he chuckled.
Justin: I'll take that as a yes.
He got up and walked into the kitchen. Just as he disappeared around the corner, my phone went off. I took it out of my pocket and saw Mia, Sky, Adriana, and Tori all calling me at once. I answered, putting the phone to my ear.
All: WHERE ARE YOU?
I pulled the phone away from my ear, then put it back.
Me: Calm down, guys. I'm in New York.
Me: Cause I'm with Justin.
I stood up and walked towards the guest room Justin put my things in.
Mia: Why are you always with him?
Adriana: Cause she's in love with him.
Me: What if I'm not? What if I'm just friends with him?
You know you want to be more than that.
Stupid conscience, go away!
Sky: Well, what if you are?
Me: If I am, I'd admit it.
Tori: No you wouldn't.
I bit my lip.
Mia: Look, if you two get together, I'll support the relationship. I won't start liking him, though.
Me: I don't care if you like him or not. Just don't hurt him.
Mia: No promises.
I rolled my eyes.
Mia: I gotta go. My parents are bugging me again.
She hung up, leaving Tori, Sky, Adriana, and I.
Tori: So when are you gonna tell him how you feel?
Me: I don't know. I mean, it's not like he feels the same way.
Sky: But what if he did?
Me: If he did, he would've made a move by now.
Tori: Guys are unpredictable, Dawn. You can't tell what they're feeling.
Adriana: It's like they hide their feelings.
Sky: You really love him, don't you?
Me: Yeah. I do.
They all sighed.
Tori: Well, if he doesn't make a move, then you should.
Me: But I'm afraid to. What if he pushes me away?
Sky: If he doesn't, then that means he feels the same.
I lowered my head.
Adriana: Look, I don't know what to say to you, but just tell him how you feel before he finds someone else.
Me: I'll try.
Tori: I gotta go. Logan and I are going to the movies.
Me: He has a girlfriend.
Tori: No he doesn't. They broke up.
Me: Wow. I missed a lot.
Sky: Yeah you did.
Me: I'll talk to you guys again tomorrow.
Adriana: Go get your man.
I rolled my eyes, chuckling.
Me: If that's even possible.
I hung up, putting my phone in my pocket.
?: What did you mean by that?
I turned around and saw Justin standing there. My eyes went wide. Did he hear any of that?
She stood there, playing with the ends of her hair.
Dawn: Um...h-how much did you hear?
Me: Most of it.
She bit her lip and lowered her head. I sighed.
Me: Let's just go eat. We can forget about this, okay?
She nodded and walked past me. What did she mean when she said that?