May 12, 2012
I ran upstairs to my room, taking out my ponytail. I have one hour to get ready. All day, the girls and I went shopping for my prom dress, since I was the only one without a dress. We looked through every color except pink cause I hate that color. At last minute, Justin told us we were doing black and white, so I had thirty minutes to look for a white dress. We found matching shoes and accessories in less than fifteen minutes and left just in time for all of us to go out and eat before prom. It starts at 9:30 and I refuse to be late. Justin suggested we rent a limo, but nobody got time for that. He may have, but no one else does.
I grabbed my undergarments, rushing into the bathroom. I took a ten minute or less shower and put in my bra and panties. Tori suggested I wear lingerie, but I disagreed. I'm not having sex with Justin tonight and I doubt that would ever happen. She and Logan can do that all they want. She just can't give me every single detail.
Wrapping my bathrobe around me. I walked out into my bedroom, the girls waiting for me.
Me: Don't make me look like a clown.
Adriana: We won't.
Tori: We want Justin's jaw to drop when he sees you.
Mia: *mumbling*Like it already doesn't do that.
I hit her arm.
Mom: Calm down, Justin.
Me: It's kinda hard to.
Mom: Just take a deep breath.
I took a deep breath relaxing a little.
Mom: Everything's gonna be fine. Worry about getting ready.
I nodded, walking up the stairs.
I turned around. She tossed something to me. When I caught it, I realized what it was.
Mom: Just to be safe.
I rolled my eyes, shoving the square package into my back pocket. I trudged up the stairs, walking into my room. She knows we're not gonna have sex, so why would she give me a condom? Eh, I'll give it to Logan later. I walked into the bathroom turning on the shower.
She spun my chair around, letting me see my reflection. I was amazes at what she did with my eyes. They made my eyes pop.
Tori: I'll do everyone's make up and Mia can do mine.
Sky: I call hair!
Adriana: I could care less.
I rolled my eyes. See what I have to deal with?
Me: I'm so nervous, mom.
Mom: Don't be. Tonight will be just fine.
I sighed as she put the gel in my hair to keep it from falling. When she was finished, I looked at my reflection.
Me: I haven't looked like a man since the AMA's.
She chuckled, wrapping her arms around my torso.
Mom: You look so grown up.
I smiles, kissing her forehead.
Mom: Now go. She should be done soon.
I nodded, grabbing my keys and my phone. Shoving them into my pocket, I walked out of my room.
By 9:15, we were all done. Make up, hair, everything. Mia, Sky, and Adriana walked out as Tori and I were still getting dressed.
Tori: So do you and Justin plan to...
Me: No. We're not doing that until we're both ready.
Tori: Is he ready?
Me: I don't know about him, but his hormones go nuts sometimes.
Tori: Are you ready?
Me: I don't know. With my insecurities and all, I just don't feel comfortable showing my body to him.
Tori: I'm not trying to rush you. I just wanted to know.
Me: I know nothing about relationships. But I know that sex isn't love unless he stays with you afterwards.
Tori: Look, when you and him do have sex, let me know if he left or not. If he leaves you, Mia and I will beat him til he dies.
Me: Don't kill him. I mean, if he leaves, sure, you can beat the shit out of him, but don't kill him.
She chuckled. Just then, I heard the doorbell ring downstairs.
Tori: That's them.
We finished getting dressed, looking in the mirror. We both smiled.
Me: A week from now, we'll be on our own.
Mia: Logan and Gayber are here!
Me: My boyfriend isn't gay!
Mia: How are you so sure?!
Me: He wouldn't be my boyfriend if he was gay, would he?!
Nothing. I chuckled, grabbing my phone.
I smiled when Dawn told Mia off. I know it's her friend and all, but Mia hates me and Dawn defends me like I defend her.
Tori: I'm coming down first.
I looked at Logan. He seemed so nervous, probably more nervous than me. I looked back at the staircase, seeing Tori I walking down. She looked beautiful, yes, but I was mostly expecting Dawn. As Logan complemented Tori, I waited for Dawn to come down. I heard a sigh, then footsteps. I saw her come down the stairs. It felt like everything around us disappeared. With every step she took, it felt as if I was in heaven. She finally got to e bottom step, everything coming back. She smiled, looking down at the floor. I walked towards her, lifting her head up so she would look into my eyes.
Me: You're so beautiful.
Her cheeks flushed red, making me chuckle. I kissed her cheek, taking her hand in mine. I wrapped the corsage around her wrist and kissed her hand. She blushed even more, making me smile.
Me: You're so cute.
Dawn: Shut up!
I chuckled, wrapping an arm around her waist as we all walked out of her house.
As we walked through the doors of the building, no one noticed Justin, which was great. One Direction's What Makes You Beautiful was playing, making me roll my eyes. Justin noticed, chuckling.
Justin: You don't like them, do you?
Me: Hell no.
He chuckled, kissing my cheek. We sat down at a table, watching everyone dance.
Justin: Do you want to dance?
Me: When it changes.
Just then, Boyfriend began to play, making me laugh. He took my hand, pulled me up, and led me to the dance floor. When he started dancing, I shook my head.
Me: That's embarrassing. Stop.
He started doing some of the dance moves from the video. I stopped him, noticing we were getting a few glares.
He wouldn't so I grabbed his hand and pulled him with me off the dance floor.
Justin: I'm trying to have some fun here.
Me: I see that, but people were sending us glares.
Me: Justin, do you really want girls trying to rip you to shreds and paparazzi showing up, getting in your face?
He bit his lip, his eyes on the floor. I sighed, embracing him in a hug.
Me: I just don't want you to get hurt.
Justin: I know, baby. I know.
He kissed my forehead, pulling out of the hug. Just then, a slow sing began to play. He smiled, holding his hand out in front of me.
Justin: Care to dance?
I chuckled, taking his hand. We walked back onto the dance floor, walking towards the middle. We stopped, looking at each other. He wrapped his arms around my waist as I wrapped mine around his neck. We began swaying back and forth to the music, looking at each other.
Justin: I'm sorry if I ruined anything.
Me: You didn't. If you did, I would have left. I was only being cautious.
Justin: I know and I should be even more cautious, considering girls could try to kill you.
Me: I could take them.
Justin: All of them?
Me: With Mia's help, of course.
He chuckled, resting his forehead on mine.
Me: I'm so glad you're done with your album. I can't wait to hear it.
Justin: Thanks for being supportive, babe.
Me: No problem.
I rested my hand on his cheek.
Me: I'd do anything for you.
He smiled, kissing my nose. We looked into each other's eyes, everything around UA becoming a blur. He cupped my cheeks, looking into my eyes. I found myself leaning in as he did. When pour lips met, it felt like our first kiss again. Does it always feel like this when we kiss? Butterflies, sparks, explosions? When he pulled away, I was disappointed. I wanted to continue kissing him and not care what everyone else says. But I get it. We need our privacy. He smiled at me, kissing me one last time.
Justin: I love you.
Me: I love you, too.
He kissed my cheek as we walked back to the table.
As she got out of the car, she almost collapsed to the ground.
Me: You okay?
She started taking off her shoes.
Dawn: Damn heels.
I chuckled, helping her.
Me: Why did you wear them when you're not that much shorter than me?
Dawn: Tell that to my mother.
I chuckled, walking her to the door. When we walked inside, her mom was sitting on the couch.
Avery: How was prom?
Avery: You didn't-
She sighed in relief.
Avery: Well, it's almost one in the morning, so I suggest you two get some sleep.
We nodded, walking up the stairs. When we got to her room, she grabbed her clothes and walked towards her bed. I grabbed my sweatpants and walked towards the bathroom.
I groaned in frustration, unable to unzip my dress. Just then, Justin walked back into the room in only sweatpants.
Justin: Why are you still in your dress?
Me: I had trouble unzipping it.
He chuckled, walking towards me.
Justin: I'll help you.
I signed, standing up.
Me: Just don't peek at my undergarments.
Justin: No promises.
He winked. I hit him in his arm.
Justin: You still love me.
I turned around, pulling my hair up. I felt his hand on the small of my back as he began to unzip my dress. When I felt the zipper by my hips, he pulled away from me. I took off my dress, spinning around to find him right in front of me. He looked at me up and down, biting his bottom lip.
He pulled me closer to him, my heart leaping out of my chest.
Justin: You're sexy.
He leaned in, putting his lips on my neck. He pulled me even closer to him, if that was possible. He kept kissing my neck. Normally, I'm into it, but this time, I just felt...uncomfortable.
He kept kissing lower and lower.
He kissed lower and lower. I pushed him away, throwing my pajamas on. He looked at me, confused.
Me: You're sleeping on the couch tonight.
Me: Go. Now.
He sighed, lowering his head. He turned around, walking out the door. I sighed, falling back on my bed.
I'm so dumb. I can't believe I did that. What's wrong with me? Did my hormones take over? I looked down, noticing the bulge in my pants. Dammit, she turned me on! I can't control myself when that happens. I sighed, walking into the living room. I grabbed a blanket from the closet and sat down on the couch. I laid down, my eyes on the ceiling.
I sat up in bed, checking the time. It's been an hour since I went to bed and I can't sleep. Was I too harsh on Justin? I only told him no because I didn't want it to lead to sex. That's the only reason reason. I sighed, getting out of bed. As I walked towards my bedroom door, it opened, revealing Justin.
Justin: I can't sleep.
Me: Same here.
He closed the door, walking past past me. I turned around, seeing him sit on my bed.
Me: Look, Justin...
He looked up at me.
Me: I didn't mean to sound angry. I just didn't want it to lead to sex. I'm sorry.
I lowered my head, biting my lip. I felt my head being lifted up. I looked into his brown eyes, a tear falling from one of them.
Justin: I understand. But...it was my fault.
He lowered his head.
Justin: I never should have looked at you. I shouldn't have.
He looked at me, taking my hands in his.
Justin: It's just...you turned me on and I can't control myself when that happens. My hormones go crazy whenever you show your sexiness.
I rolled my eyes. I leaned up, gently kissing his lips. He gently kissed back, putting his hand on my cheek. I pulled away, looking down at the floor.
Me: It's normal for a guy to go through that. It's part of becoming a man.
He wrapped his arms around me. I related my head against his chest as he kissed my forehead.
Justin: Please let me back in here. It's lonely down there without you.
Me: Just don't try to kiss my neck again.
He chuckled, kissing my cheek as we pulled away. I laid down in the bed as he got in next to me. He wrapped his arms around my waist, nuzzling his head in the crook of my neck. I chuckled, resting a hand on his cheek.
Justin: Night, babe.
Me: Night, Jay.
He smiled, kissing my cheek before we fell asleep.