I wake up in the morning.
I wish Jack was beside me.
Before I messed up everything.
I feel like I always end up at one point pushing the ones I love away.
My head turns to the alarm clock.
I missed my wish again.
I manage to drag myself out of bed to go to work.
My body automatically moves to the shower.
Maybe tomorrow be another perfect day.
Oh wait ! tomorrow's my birthday.
I try not to judge myself.
After work I climb upstairs.
My phone was blowing up.
All spam from Rian.
What ya doin-
I bet you missed us-
Ofcourse ! I forgot-
It's your birthday tomorrow.
How'd you know ? I asked.
Alex told me.
I hope he's not mad at me.I sent,and totally regretted it after.
He is ? Ohh God.
Really cause- ?
Once I reply back he's gone.
Gezzz.God I'm embarrassing.
Just then Alex called me.
"You sound bad.Are you alright ?"
"Happy early birthday !"
"Thanks.Just please keep it down."
"What? you're more happier than this."
"You're the one that helped me get over Cassadee"
It was true.I had almost forgot about that.I smiled.
"I was thinking we could go out tonight."
"Like. On a date?"
"Yeah. Just the two of us."
"Actually Alex. I don't feel that good." I lied.
I thought about Jack.
I was nervous.
"Ohh. I understand."
I felt bad.
"No.Alex.I didn't mean it like that."
"It's okay.I understand,"he said.
Then he hung up. Ughh.
I fell on the bed.
Another phone call came through.
WHO IS THAT.
I answered it.
It was Hayden.
She had been my best friend since I first started working.She said she always wanted to be a fashion desighner.I had inspired her to be whatever she wants.Whoever she wants.She came out to me near last November.She was bi.Apparently,I changed lives.I'm glad we met.
"Ohh who put the bitch in you today?"
"We can have a girls night out before the big day."
"You turn twenty four.Come on!"
"I'm gonna come over there in twenty minutes,and you better be ready!"
Someone knocked on my door.
Suspecting it was Hayden, I opened the door.
"Hey !"I said.
It was Jack.
My smile disappeared.
"Can I come in?"
He immediately started talking.
"I'm sorry,and I know that doesnt help but-"
"I can't describe how many times I've thought about you."
"The words that I put in to this apology, will never describe the real truth about you."
"You're amazing, and I guess I took you and Alex too far."
"Jack.I understand.You were lost in all the bullshit."
I looked at his eyes.
His eyes were watering, and he was smirking at the same time.
Just then, Hayden came in.
"Girl, I know you're ready"
She then glanced at me and Jack.
"Ohh,so this is the guy you've been talking about."
"Hi",he said and shook her hand.
"Nice to meet you."
There was an awkward silence.
Then Hayden announced.
"So I'm gonna leave you guys to it."
"See ya at work, Angel."
She whispered "get it" to me.
"Bye,Hayden,"I sighed, and then she left.
"I'm so glad were okay,"he said.
"I was about to freak out for a minute."
"I miss us."
"Me too,"I said.
He picked me up.
His hands were cold from outside.
I hugged him tight.After I looked into his eyes.
He kissed me on the lips.They tasted like cherry for some weird reason.
"So,you were talking about me,"he noticed and laughed.
I went to go suprise Angel.
I really didn't want to be mad at her for no reason.
She was acting weird today.
Maybe she was nervous.
Or maybe it's because she was with Jack.
I left forgetting everything we had.