"Hey Emma, I know it's only been three days since I quit and all, but do you think it would be okay for me to go back to the studio?"
"I know I said I wanted to be a normal 22 year old and all, but I really do miss being in the studio making music. I know what I said, but this time around I'll be the judge of everything I do."
"Please answer me Emma. I need your opinion on this. You're the only one that'll give me an honest opinion. Please, I need this."
"I know you want me to say it's okay for you to go back already. And I get that you miss it, it's been your life for the past five years, but you got to see this Zayn. The fans are hurting. They're mad and upset. This will push some over the edge."
"I know One Directions fans might not be your top priority at the moment, but you've got to consider their feelings in this. The wounds are still so fresh. It's just been three days since their worlds fell apart."
"You've got to understand that some of them won't forgive you for this. Some are gonna stay mad for a long time. Some are just humongous messes at the time. You've got to take their feelings into consideration before you go."
"I'm not gonna stop you, there's no way I can. My suggestion is that you wait a couple of more days. Let them get a bit more time to get past this. Not only the fans, but the other boys too. Keep in mind they don't know your entire story."
March 28th Zayn and I had this conversation. We haven't talked since. Maybe because he did go to the studio right away. I don't know, but he hasn't returned my calls since then.
Zayn had confessed to me during his break. He had come to visit me, to talk. Perrie was still a bit upset about that other girl at the venue, and he needed a friend in that moment. I was there. He told me everything then. About how he was unhappy, and no longer loved One Direction like he used to. That the music just wasn't right for him anymore. We had a long conversation after the twins was put in bed. Zayn's a great guy with a good, big heart. It all just got too much for him to handle.
The other boys knew within days that he wasn't coming back from the break. That this was the end of an era. They took it pretty hard, but felt like they had to put on brave faces for the fans. Just a couple of days beefore it all ended, a couple of days ahead of Zayn's departure Harry called him up, practically begging him to stay. He was a mess.
I know I said I would put down an eventful chapter for y'all, but I felt like I needed this filler in. I felt it was right to put in some kind of vague explanation of Zayn's departure. I'm not 100% sure of the day he went back to the studio, but let's pretend it was three days okay?
Anyway, I promise that by the end of this week I will have published an eventful chapter. Just bear with me. Also feel free to come with ideas to things that can happen later on.
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