I'm so happy that Emma and I are talking again ! But mostly I'm glad she isn't pregnant like she said in the interview. I mean how could my Emma be pregnant ? She's so incredibly innocent.
Only thing I don't like is that guy, Robin, or whatever his name was. And Emma promised she'd cut him out as soon as she gave him back his clothes.
I really can't wait till she comes on tour, and I'm so happy she decided to bring Emily, I know she did that for Niall, as well as for herself. I like how Emma and Niall has become so close in this short time, and also I love her friendship she got with my man Lou. And I just generally love how well she gets along with the guys, and I'm sad I've kept them apart for so long. I know it was to keep her from the attention, and so does she, but I still feel bad about it.
"Hey, Mr. Dreamy we have a concert in a minute and its your turn to get fixed." Louis tapped my shoulder and pulled me out of my thoughts.
"Huh, yeah of course." I went over to Lou and sat down in the chair and she started the normal routine for my hair.
The concert started and all running trough my head except for lyrics was Emma. I nearly forgot my lyrics sometimes, but when Louis decided to include me in his and Liam's water fight I got my mind off of her for a little while, and managed to focus on the concert and all the amazing fans who showed up here. The next song we will perform is Little Things, this song always reminds me of Emma, but lately Louis and I made a deal that whenever I spaced out, especially in this song, he would do something to get me back on track. And today Louis had found a football that a fan threw onstage, lucky me. He probably noticed that I spaced out in his part of the song so in the middle of his part he threw the football so it hit me straight in the head making Niall laugh. I simply shot Louis a short glare before I started my part of the song.
"Thanks a lot Lou." I said sarcastically as I sat down in the sofa in front of the telly.
"Whaat?" He tried sounding innocent.
"You know what I'm talking about." I said as I threw the football at him, and just as he caught it he lit up.
"Oh." Was all he said.
"You're welcome." He smiled and turned on the telly only to turn it right off because it wasn't anything on. Not long after Niall and Liam came in.
"Where's Zayn?" Louis asked them.
"He's still in the studio." Niall said followed by a loud sigh from both Louis and I.
"Still ? I feel like he's always leaving last." Louis said.
"He is." Liam said as Niall and himself sat down beside Louis and I.
"Man I can see why he's so tired of all this." Louis said and soon slapped his hand over his mouth. A few weeks ago Zayn had told Louis that he was getting tired of the life on the road, and that he was getting tired of management always deciding what he can and can't do, and what he can and can't say. Only reason I know is that I overheard the start of their conversation and decided to eavesdrop, also I made Louis tell me everything.
"What do you mean ?" Niall ask shocked. Louis scratched his neck nervously.
"I wasn't supposed to tell, but he's been a little tired of being on the road and not being able to decide anything for himself. And he doesn't wanna quit the band, but if things aren't getting better he might." He looked down at his hands fiddling. I laid my hand on his shoulder and smiled as if I was saying he did the right thing.
"Wait you both knew about this?" Liam asked and Louis was about to say something, but I stopped him signalling that I'd take this one.
"I heard them talking a couple of weeks back and decided to eavesdrop and because I didn't hear everything I practically made Louis tell me everything."
"Why didn't you say something earlier?" Niall asked.
"And why didn't Zayn tell all of us?" Liam said.
"Well he only really told me and he said not to tell any of you because he was afraid what you'd say." I could see both Liam and Niall being sad hearing this.
"What do you mean?" Niall seemed down and rarely insecure.
"Well he didn't want to upset any of you and make you feel bad about it, or for him. At least not before it was certain that he'd quit, which he is hoping won't happen. That's also why I was upset with him when I was, but I do understand what he means now, I've had quite some late nights lately and a couple of fights with management so I know what he's going through, but I'm assuring you I'm not gonna quit. I had the chance with the movie deal, which I would've had my dream role in, but I turned it down since if not I'd have to skip a couple of concerts, and for me that's not an option." Louis blurted out.
"Oh my god." Liam said.
"I for one would rather speak to Allah, but that's just me." Zayn said walking in the door falling onto the sofa beside Louis.
"Hey mate, how'd it go?" Louis asked relived that our previous subject was out of question at this time, and honestly I am too, it was getting quite depressing.
"You know, it was just the usual talk. 'Don't smoke where there's cameras' 'don't talk back to me' 'show some respect' and so on. Also that I should work harder for the new album as if I don't give it my all already." He sighed and we followed doing the same thing.
"I'm sorry man, it can't be easy having everyone on your back 24 hours a day, 7 days a week." I exclaimed.
"You would know." He smirked at me making me smile, it's importat for me to capture all these moments with Zayn because they're rare, and if he actually is quitting the band, this is what I want to remember him by.
"Now, what do y'all say we watch a movie before heading to the bunks?" We all smiled and agreed letting Zayn pick a movie. He picked Lion King, one of his favourites. The first one of course, that's the one where Scar is on the top looking his best according to Zayn. Every time we watch this movie he tell me how much Rafiki reminds him of a mix of all of us whenever we're goofing around. It always makes me smile, and if Zayn were to leave this is probably one of the things I'd miss the most.