13. Am I dead?
I opened my eyes and it was dark. I heard Liam cry. I got up and I saw me laying on the hospital bed and Liam crying. ‘’Babe don’t’ leave me please!’’ Liam said. ‘’Li. I am right here. I haven’t left you’’ I said and placed my hand on his shoulder but I went straight through him like I was a ghost. Oh no am I dead? I didn’t mean it. I want to live. I want to hold Liam again and spend the rest of my life with him. I have just realised I made a big mistake. I do want to live after all. ‘’babe I’m sorry for leaving you. It won’ happen again. I promise. I love you don’t give up. Be strong’’ Liam kept saying and then we heard beeping and the doctor ran in and rushed me out. Liam fell to the floor crying. The boys rushed in and helped him up. ‘’she will be ok. She is a fighter. She will be ok’’ Zayn said. They went out to the waiting room and they were all crying. ‘’Guys I’m not dead I’m right here. Please don’t give up on me’’ I said but they didn’t hear me. I saw the doctor come out and talked to Liam. ‘’Mr Payne. She is fighting for her life but you have to make a decision. We can keep her on life support and we can just let her go now’’ he said. ‘’Liam Baby, don’t give up on me please, please don’t. I’m right here and I don’t want to go please for me’’ I said. ‘’I cannot let her die. If she is on life support she has a fighting chance. Keep her on life support please doc’’ Liam said. I was relieved. Liam does love me. ‘thank you so much Li’’ I said but he didn’t hear me.
’Mr Payne. She is fighting for her life but you have to make a decision. We can keep her on life support and we can just let her go now’’ the doctor said. I thought about it for a minute but she is still fighting. ‘’Doc I can’t do this to her. If she is on life support she has a fighting chance. Keep her on life support please doc’’ I said and he nodded. Minutes later he wheeled Zoe back to the room and said to me ‘’try to wake her up’’. I got in there and held her hand. ‘’you scared us for a minute baby. But now I need you to wake up please for me’’ I kept saying to her.
‘’you scared us for a minute baby. But now I need you to wake up please for me’’ Liam said. ‘’I’m right here babe’’ I replied. I looked around the room and it was ugly. ‘’ZOE COME BACK PLEASE’’ Liam said crying. I started to get chest pains and I couldn’t breathe. Oh god what is happening to me? Is this it? I’m I official dead? I don’t want to die. I want to live. I realise this now please I don’t want to die. I kept having difficulty breathing and the pain got worse and worse. I blacked out and the next thing I know I woke up to Liam crying. ‘’Liam’’ I gasped. He got the doctor and they took the tube out of my thought. He got out of his seat and kissed me.
Zoe was awake finally. I kissed her like it has been years. ‘’I missed you Liam. I’m so sorry. I love you’’ she said. ‘’it’s alright baby, you’re here now and that is all that matters. I love you so, so much. You scared me’’ I replied. ‘’yea I know and I’m sorry’’ she replied and told me what happened when she was unconscious. ‘’thanks for not giving up on me Liam’’ she said. ‘’I couldn’t know that you had a fighting chance’’ I replied and kissed her. ‘’she can go home tomorrow, but she needs rest for two days’’ the doctor said. ‘’not a problem doc’’ I replied and he left.