Once Jason gets off me I get up off the bed and tie on my robe. I fix my hair a little bit and I walk out of Jason’s room and into Alex’s where all the girls were at. I close the door behind me as I walk in.
I casually smile and say “Hey guys.” I try not to be too obvious but I’m almost positive it wasn’t working.
Erin blurts out “Did you and Jason just fuck?” Caitlin looks at Erin and clenches her teeth “Erin!” Erin looks at her and shrugs. I exasperate “Oh no, we did NOT do that.” I sigh “Look I’m sorry guys, but I don’t know…I think I might like him.” Caitlin mumbles “It sure sounded like it.”
I look at Alex “Look, I know you’re probably annoyed with me. I really don’t blame you.” Alex replies “No, I get it. It’s okay for you to like him. You seem like a nice girl and I think Jason may need someone like that in his life. You’re not like some of my other friends that I’ve had over that fuck me over. You seem different.” Caitlin adds “Yeah Jasmine, I know we don’t like him but we respect that you have a thing for him.” Erin teases “I didn’t know you were into bad boys.”
I chuckle “I didn’t really know either I guess.” Alex replies “I just want to warn you, his lifestyle is crazy and I don’t know if you’re prepared for that.” I reply “Oh I’ve heard.” She says “I mean, he doesn’t tell me a lot about it. He says for ‘my protection’ but he deals with a lot of crazy people and things. And I’m talking life threatening things. But if you guys are really close, just be careful.” I thought to myself, they’re reacting way better than I thought they would. And that made me feel more comfortable.
I nod “Yeah, thanks. Now do we really need to keep talking about this?” Caitlin sighs “Alright Jasmine, we know you want your ‘love life’ to be personal.” She teases. I laugh “Just on a certain level maybe.”
I change the subject “I’m tired,” I yawn. “Maybe we should get some sleep?” Alex replies “Agreed.”
Alex already had all her blankets and pillows put out around her room. Alex slept on her bed, Erin slept on the carpet, and Caitlin and I slept on some of the big comfy chairs. We all crawled under our blankets and that’s when Alex turned the lights out…
My eyes slowly twitch open as I felt the sun from the window beat down on them. I quickly shut my eyes as soon as the sun blinded me. I stretch out my arms and yawn as I sit up from being in an uncomfortable position. The sun was still rising so it was pretty early in the morning. I look around the room to see all of the girls still sound asleep. I don’t know why I woke up so early though. Once I woke up I wasn’t tired to go back to sleep for more. It wasn’t like I was in a uncomfortable position, which I kind of was but I don’t think that was why I woke up. Sometimes it’s hard for me to get any sleep when I have a lot on my mind, or I’m in different environments, like at hotels or new people’s house.
I really had no tired bone in my body. I felt like I could run a mile even. Back when school used to really stress me out I would barely get any sleep at night and when I would wake up when the sun was barely coming out, I would go for runs around the neighborhood. It felt good to get fresh air and get all the anxiety and adrenaline off of me.
For some reason, I felt like doing that today. I thought to myself, why not? They were all still sleeping and I thought I’d go real quick before they all wake up. Although there was only one problem. I didn’t have any workout clothes.
Alex seemed really nice, I’m sure she wouldn’t mind if I borrowed some of her workout gear. I slowly get up trying not to make a lot of noise. I walk quietly to her dresser and open her drawers, scrambling through her clothes to find something. She didn’t live here, so she obviously didn’t have a lot of clothes she brought. I found a light blue v neck and the only running type shorts she had were Nike pro spankies. I usually wore something like that anyway, so it wasn’t a problem.
I slip the clothes on and throw my hair into a ponytail. I put on the running shoes and I quietly go down the stairs steps. I go into the kitchen to go get something quick to eat.
I open the fridge, and my eyes scan all around in it until I decide to grab the carton of orange juice. I close the fridge door and as soon as I turn around I gasp and get startled to see Jason standing right behind me. I slap my arm against his chest shoving him playfully. I groan “Why do you always do that Jason?” I push past him and I pour myself a glass of the orange juice. “What has you up so early this morning babe?” He walks past by me by the counter and I feel him squeeze my ass as he quietly chuckles to himself. I turn my head to him but his back is his facing me as he walks and I just roll my eyes. I reply “I just need some air. I’m going for a run.” I think for a second and then ask “Wait why are you up so early?” He grins “Well little did you know, I was just going to do the same thing.”
It did seem to make sense since he was wearing a white tee and basketball shorts. As I prepare a breakfast for myself I ask “Wait so are we like going together?” I look up and ask him. He looks at me from across the room as he takes a sip of his water. “Well I didn’t say that, but now that you mention it that sounds like a great idea.” He gives me his infamous smile and I sheepishly smile back.
Once we’re both ready I walk to the front door and he follows right behind me. Once I walk outside he closes his door right behind us.
He starts jogging right beside me and he starts our conversation.
“Can I tell you something Jas?” I reply “Go for it.” He says “I feel like I don’t know enough about you.” I laugh to myself “Hmm okay what do you want to know?” He says “I just want to get to know you better I guess.” I reply “How about you get to know me now?”
He replies “Okay, what’s your favorite color?” “Purple.” “Favorite animal?” “Dog.” “Favorite food?” “Everything.”
He replies “God we already have so much in common.” I laugh and he continues “Favorite candy?” “The sour kind.” “Favorite flower?” “I like red roses.” “What do you do in your free time?” “Sleep.” “Favorite sport to watch?” “Mmm basketball.”
“Tell me your deepest darkest secret.” I think for a second until I say “Sometimes, I stick my gum under the tables.” He raises his brows and looks towards me as he exasperates “Me too!”
I don’t know why but for some reason he was acting so cute right now, not cocky and shit which most of the time he’s like. Was this the side of Jason barely anyone saw? Or possibly no one has ever saw? Was this who he really was behind his bad boy act? This was not the Jason McCann I knew, but the Jason McCann I liked. He continues “Do you play any sports?” I groan “Ugh no, I’m so untalented at almost everything.” “Hobbies?” “Does eating count?” He laughs “Biggest fear?” I blurt “Getting heartbroken.” There is a pause until I add “Oh I’m afraid of bugs and heights too.”
I stop jogging and he does the same “Let’s take a break Jason.” I say out of breath. We both catch our breath as we just walk along on the sidewalk. By now the sun was already out and shining and there was a nice amount of wind.
While enjoying the weather, I notice a car slowly driving right behind us on the road. I turn around to see a shiny black car with windows so tinted you couldn’t see who was in there. I pat Jason’s bicep with the back of my hand “Jason, do you know who’s in that car?” He turns his head and mumbles “Oh no.” I ask “What’s wrong?” He uses his arm to keep me behind him. “Stay back.” He says as his eyes never leave the car.
Jason walks over to the car and that’s when it comes to a stop. The car door opens and a guy walks out. A guy that looked familiar and that is when I realized it was the guy that talked to me at that party and Jason threatened to kill. From the backseats, a couple more guys come out of the car standing behind him. I was guessing that was his crew. I stand still on the sidewalk, just watching.
I hear Jason spat “What do you want Jacob?” Apparently his name was Jacob. I hear Jacob say “Aw look at you McCann, looks like you woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning. Not happy to see me?” Jacob gets a evil smirk on his face. Jason clenches his jaw “You really wanna handle business at a time like this? In daylight in my neighborhood? Where everyone can see? I thought you’d be a bit smarter than that, but clearly you aren’t.” Jacob nods his head up towards me ignoring Jason’s comment. “Is that another one of your sluts?” Jason’s voice gets loud and stern “Don’t you dare call her that.”He replies “I’ve never seen you with the same girl for a full day. I’m not surprised you’ve kept her for longer though. She is cute.” He eyes me and I cross my arms and wander my eyes away from his feeling sick to my stomach. Jason pushes his chest “You better back off and leave her out of this.” Jacob moves a couple steps back from how hard Jason pushes him. “You know when I saw her at that party, I knew she knew you. I’ve seen you guys around each other at school and you know, I thought she was just another girl that you’ve laid that had last a bit longer than the rest of them. Hmm, now I know she may be something more to you. Wow, what’s so different about this girl? I’ve never seen you protect a girl like that, I’m not complaining though. She’s the perfect thing I can use against you.” I see Jason’s temper about to get out of control. He clenches his jaw and his voice goes cold “You keep talking like that I’ll begin digging your grave,” his eyes darken out of pure anger. Jacob get’s a devious grin on his face “But you see, the thing is I’ve already started digging yours McCann. See how I’m always one step ahead of you?” Jason chuckles out of disgust “Yeah, right. The reason why you envy me so much and try to beat me is because you know I always win. Jealousy is a terrible thing.” Jason spat those last words out and showed sarcastic sincereness. You could tell that one really got to him. Jason adds “Aw, did I really get you with that one? What a shame. Maybe if you quit acting like a smartass you wouldn’t be so butt hurt.”
Jacob’s voice gets harsh as he says “Look Jason, once I’m done with you, she’ll be in my bed…instead of yours,” He walks closer to Jason, so close their faces almost touch. He whispers “like she was Friday night.” He says that last comment with an evil grin on his face.
And with that Jacob and his posse hop back in their car and speed off, their brakes screeching leaving Jason in fury.
Jason walks back towards me to the sidewalk. My voice shakes as I hesitantly ask “Jason..what the hell was that about..is everything okay?” He runs his fingers through his hair and lets out a sigh. He replies “Look, come with me.” He walks over to a nearby bench and I follow behind him. He sits down on it and I sit right beside him.
He doesn’t say anything for a few seconds and my voice croaks “Did that guy say he has watched us?” He slowly nods while looking down. I feel sick to stomach ad I get light headed at the thought. When he approached me at the party, he already knew who I was and had seen me with Jason. A part of me felt nervous and scared and another part of me felt disgusted and like I wanted to throw up. I ask “But, why?”
He looks straight ahead of him and I face him giving him my full attention as he huffs his breath and then begins to say. “I need to tell you something,” he looks at me his face asking for approval if he can. I nod and then he begins. “It all started 3 years ago, when my brother was still around. He was what everyone basically wanted to be. He was caring, thoughtful, and according to the ladies had good looks. He was an A student, had the best grades while managing to live a life that consisted of nothing but the high life, like partying and stuff. He was the best son and greatest brother anyone could ever ask for,”
He huffs his breath as it was probably hard for him to talk about. I could see it in his face. He stares into the view ahead of him. My body was completely faced towards him with one leg on the bench as I sat so he knew I had his full attention. I gently put my hand on top of his and caress it a little, so he knew that I was listening. He looks at our hands and then up again as he continues “Jacob on the other hand, he was a nobody. He had no friends, no girlfriends, bad grades, and just a bad everything. You could say he basically stalked my brother. It was so weird; it was like he wanted to be him almost. He was like obsessed. He was full of envy and jealousy towards my brother. It was actually quite sick how fascinated this boy was with him.” He huffs his breath and continues as he shakes his head “I don’t want to bore you with a long story so needless to say I’m just gonna cut to the chase,” he gulps and then says “Jacob is the one who killed my brother. It was on his birthday actually, his 17th, and Jacob just shot him while he was having the time of his life. All it took was one bullet, one bullet to take someone even as strong as him to death.”
“Now, this was before everything happened with me, with the gang and stuff. At first when this just happened I was destroyed. I mean of course I cared, he was my brother. I started to drink lots of alcohol, cause that was the only think I knew how to get my mind off of it.” He pauses and is hesitant, like he wants to say something but doesn’t know if he should. “I um also was having sex with a lot of girls at the time. That and alcohol made me forget. After all, I was only 16 at the time. I was stupid and confused. After days of drinking and doing absolutely nothing, it was time for his funeral. I didn’t know if I was ready but it was what I had to do, and I knew that. The day of the funeral arrives and in the middle of the service, Jacob has the damn nerve to show up. Even at a time like this he wanted to torment me and make me feel worse than I already was.”
I ask “I thought Jacob was obsessed with your brother? Why’d he go after you?” “Because I’m the next thing closest to him, he knows I was already feeling like shit, he just wanted to rub it in and make me feel like it more. It was the most disrespectful thing any human could have done. I threw punches and hits and I beat the shit out of him there out of all my fury and anger at how one could be so heartless to try to hurt someone like that and for more importantly killing my own brother. I ruined my brother’s funeral, and my parents never forgave me. They kicked me out and our relationship now is almost nothing. Long story short, that’s why this feud has been going on between me and him. He’s always tried to ‘beat me’ or ‘become better than me’ now that my brother is gone, I guess I’m next. The sick part about it though is he never really tries to hurt me. He hurts the people I care about, the people I love and overall that’s what kills me the most and he knows it..and I guess that’s why I barely care for anyone. If I show that I care for them they will end up getting hurt, and it will all be my fault. Jacob ruined everything for me.” I ask “So you did care about your brother’s death?” He sighs “At one point I did. The pain was just too much, so I decided the easiest thing to do is to not care at all. To this day I still don’t, but who knows, maybe a little bit deep down I do. His death changed me.”
I felt awful for Jason at what he has just told me about his mother. His past obviously wasn’t the brightest and I know it had to have been so rough. I think to myself, that’s’ why Jason was so protective of me at the party. He knew who this guy was and what he tried to do. I saw how he protected me so much just now too. He shows that he actually cares about me, and that meant a lot already with in itself. Also the fact that he trusted me enough to tell me that, which I know how hard that must’ve been. People everywhere tell me he’s pretty closed in, doesn’t tell much about his personal life like that. That showed he trusted me enough to hear that information.
After a short pause of either one of us not saying anything he asks “Jas, you wouldn’t tell anything I just told you to anyone, right?”
I sincerely reply “Of course I wouldn’t, you can trust me.” He sighs “I appreciate it, I hope I didn’t just get you into a depressing mood or anything.” He shakes off his bad past and acts like his normal self again. “Maybe we should head back.”
After he’s been looking straight ahead into the view in front of him, he turns his head to face me and without thinking I lean right up to him and slam my lips against his kissing him. His lips felt so soft against mine and the warmth of his body radiated over mine and it honestly felt so amazing. He kisses me back and then I pull away.
I just kissed him spontaneously with no hesitation and it felt so good, kind of indescribable.
I see him process what just happened, him knowing I usually wouldn’t do that. He smiles at me and he stands up from the bench and hands me his hands to pull me up from sitting.
We decide to walk back to his house after all that craziness that just happened.
DON'T KILL ME. I know i haven't posted in like 10 years. There is no valid excuse, I've just been going through a lot and been so busy. I hope this makes up for it and you enjoy. I can't promise I will update very frequently, but what I can promise is that I'll finish this story, and there are many chapters to come. Don't leave me hangin!