2. Screwed Up
My plane lands and I grab my bag. As I walk out of the airport its starts to rain an I go to a near by Starbucks. Shivering I get a hot coco and sit at a table by the window staring down trying not to be noticed. Why did I run? I don't have enough money to get a place to stay or call a taxi. God Im a idiot. I should have never left....
I run into Starbucks to escape the rain and get in line. I hate doing coffee runs for the boys. After I get my orders I notice a girl crying. She looks freezing. I walk over to her. "Hey sorry to ask but... Are you okay?" I say to her while sitting in the opposite chair. She doesn't look up. "I-Im Fine." she says he teeth chattering and sniffling. "You don't look ok. Do you have a place to stay?" I ask her worried. She shakes her head and I lift her head up with my finger. I notice her eyes are a stunning green with a blue-ish tint. They are absolutely amazing. Her hair is a brown curly mess with some blond highlights. She is so beautiful. "Do you want to come stay at my flat? I mean... like stay the night till you can find your own place?" She looks at me confused. "Why are you being so nice? You don't even know me.." she whispers weakly. But I want to know you.. I say in my head. "Well...since your cold and alone and have nowhere to stay...I thought I should help you." I tell her and notice she looks familiar. "Wait a sec.. Aren't you Ellie Styles?" I ask curiously. She nods frowning. "Why are you here in Australia?" I ask while taking a sip from my coffee. "Its a long story I don't really wanna talk about it.." she whispers and starts to cry again. Fuck I made her even sadder. "Oh gosh Im sorry babe. I didn't mean to make you cry..." I whisper hugging her. "Come on. Lets go to my flat." I say leading her out of the Starbucks and into my car. *Skip Car Ride* I pull up to the flat and look over at Ellie. I smile. She fell asleep. God she looks like a angel when she sleeps. "Babe... Babe wake up darling we are here." I say softly shaking her. She mumbles something still not waking up. I carry her into the flat bridal style. "ASH! YOUR BACK!!!!!!!" Michael screams an runs to me. "Shut up! She is tired." I whisper looking down at Ellie. "You go to get coffee and get a girl instead. Nice one Ash." He says laughing. "Fuck off." I respond annoyed and bring her to my room. I lay her down and cuddle up beside her. I play with her hair for a bit then she starts to cry in her sleep. "Ellie? Sweetheart? Are you okay?" I ask her a little panicked and she wakes up crying even harder. "Shh babe shhh its ok." I whisper holding her close. I start to sing softly in her ear.
"When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on.
Don't let yourself go, everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes.
Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along.
When your day is night alone,
If you feel like letting go,
When you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on.
Everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends.
Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand.
If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone
If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on.
Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
Everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes.
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on.
Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on."
By the time I finish she is calmed down and sleeping soundly again. I kiss her forehead. "Goodnight Ellie..." I whisper and fall asleep with her in my arms.
I wake up and notice Im in bed with the sweet boy I meet last night. I smile to myself. I blush when I see he isn't wearing a shirt. Oh gosh he is sexy. I trace my fingers on his chest for a while. "Morning babe." he says scaring me. How long was he awake? I blush and look away from him. "Awe I made you blush. You look so cute when you blush." he says making me blush harder. "Oh I almost forgot. My name is Ashton, I don't think I told you last night." he says smiling at me. My phone starts ringing suddenly and I pick it up. (H=Harry E=Ellie) H="El where are you!? Come home please! Im so worried!" E="No Harry, I cant go back." H="why not?" E="Its to much to explain... Im sorry.. I love you boo bear." I hang up and start crying again. "Ellie please don't cry." Ashton says holding me close. I cry in his chest for who knows how long and he caries me to the living room. Im still crying but I stop when I smell bacon. "Bacon?" I ask excitedly and he laughs at me. "I will get you some bacon and eggs babe stay here." he says setting me on the couch. I nod and watch him go to the kitchen. All the sudden a boy sit next to me. "Hellooooo gorgeous." he says causing me to blush. "Hi what's your name?" I ask smiling. " Im Michael, and you are stunning." He responds. "Nope Im pretty sure Im Ellie." I say giggling. Ashton comes back with my food. "Oi Michael stop flirting with her." "Awe is someone jelly? Hmmm? Does little Ash have a crushy wushy?" Michael says and we both laugh with Ashton turns a light shade of red. "Here's your food babe." He says giving me the plate and I eat everything quickly. Wow I didn't realize how hungry I was. "She eats like Luke." Michael says laughing. "You still hungry babe?" Ash asks and I shake my head. "Can we cuddle? Pweaseee Im cold." I tell him holding my arms out. "Sure Babe." He cuddles up beside me and I lay my head on his chest. "Thank you Ash... For letting me stay. It means a lot." I say tracing my fingers on his chest again. "It was nothing Babe." he responds and I look into his eyes. He leans in slowly and our lips connect. At first Im a little shocked but 3 seconds later I am kissing him back. He pulls away smiling and I blush. "I really like you Ellie. Like a lot." he says his eyes still locked on mine. "Ashton I just got out of a relationship..." I whisper and look down. I can tell he is disappointed when he gets up and goes to his room. Fuck I screwed everything up! I run and look for a bathroom when I find one I lock the door and look for a razor blade. After I find one I sit on the floor and cut my wrists. I start to feel dizzy. "Ellie? Where are you? Babe?" I hear Ashton ask before I black out.