My eyes slowly fluttered open to the sight of a figure standing by my bed. I cowered back into the soft surface under me, in fear that it may be my father trying to hurt me.
As I took in my surroundings, I realized I wasn't in the normal dark room, but I was laying in a hospital bed. It smelled of flowers mixed with mold. I glanced around realizing there was flowers, cards, and stuffed animals on the window sill.
"Good, your awake!" The other person in my room exclaimed in a fake excitedly voice. "Who are you?" I asked a bit rude, as I thought of a million other questions in my head. Where was Rachel? And why Am I here?
"I am your nurse, my name is Melinda" she said with a high voice, as she stuck her hand out in a friendly gesture. I shook it quickly and looked at Melinda closely. She had long red hair, and hazel eyes. She was wearing blue scrubs, with some sort of intolerant stain on her left shoulder. She had a big Smile on her face and she was staring at me intently.
"Where am I?" I asked, averting my eyesight to the doorway behind her. My older brother Shawn was standing outside, I could see him leaning against the window frame, a worried expression written all over his face. But the bigger question, why is he here? I haven't seen him in almost 4 years, when our parents divorced.
"Your in a hospital, says here," she said pointing at the clipboard she was holding, "you were in a big car accident, got head injuries and you have been in a coma for almost 3 days" she explained slowly. I couldn't help but let shock come over my face. I wasn't allowed out of the house, and father didn't own a car, he spent all of his money on beer.
The last thing I remember is getting hit by father and having to hold Rachel from fear. I don't remember what happened three days ago. All I can ask myself, what is happening?
"I don't remember any of that" I told the nurse quietly. "Of corse you don't, we did some testing, and it looks like you have lost about a year of your memory." I couldn't comprehend what was happening, all I could do is close my eyes and take some deep breathes in and out. How much did I miss? And is Rachel ok?
As these thoughts ran through my head I heard the nurse silently exit the room. "Can I see her?" A deep voice I didn't recognize asked. "She is sleeping, it is best if we give her some rest" the nurse explained. "How long will that be?" Shawn asked in a calm voice. He had always been good in bad times, when he lost me and Rachel, he stayed under control the whole time, where as me and Rachel couldn't stop shaking and crying.
I opened my eyes once more and reached to the window sill beside my bed. I looked at most everything, receiving flowers from my mother, a stuffed bear from someone named Harry, and 3 cards from some other people I don't remember, named Louis, Aaron, and the last of them wasn't signed.
I read each of the messages over and was to overwhelmed to place them back on the window sill, so they slipped out if my hand and fell to the floor.
Wishing you well, I know we don't know each other to well yet, but I hope to see you when you are better,
Best Wishes, Aaron
Feel better soon, sorry about the other night, hope we can be good friends,
I'm not very good with words but, get well, and I love you.
What happened the other night? Who are these people giving me gifts? And who loves Me?
"Can I see her?" I sternly asked the nurse that just walked out of Rebecca's room. "She is sleeping, and we should give her some time to keep resting." I nodded as Shawn stood up behind me "when will she be awake?" He asked in a questionable tone.
"Soon, I presume" she said as she turned and continued to walk down the hospital halls. "What are we going to do?" I asked Shawn. "I'm not sure, they won't even tell me what happened to her, or Rachel." I nodded at him taking a seat.
The nurse returned after about an hour, walking swiftly by us and into the room.
"She will see you know" the nurse said walking back out of the room. I stood up quickly, dizzying myself at the speed. "Me?" I asked hopefully. "She wants to see her brother, is that you?" She asked. "I'm her brother, actually" Shawn said standing back up behind me once more. "Go on in" the nurse said motioning towards the entrance to Rebecca's room.
I can't stand to wait any longer, I just want to be able to tell her I love her again.
"Can I please see my brother?" I asked the nurse as she returned to my room, waking me for dinner. "I'll let him know you want to see him" she said after she placed me dinner on a tray in front of me.
I took a quick bite of the saled they gave me, and wiped my mouth as Shawn walked in with a smile on his face.
He looks different from the last time I saw him. He is taller and he cut his hair short, so it's less of a bowl on his head, as I used to call his choice of a hair style. He still had the same amazing blue eyes and bright smile, but there was something with the way he carried himself. I could tell something was wrong.
"Shawn, it's been so long!" I yelled as I threw my arms open to him. He took me in wrapping his arms around me before letting go and looking at me like he wanted an answer.
"What?" He asked stunned. "It's been so long!" I said again. "I saw three days ago" he pointed out with worry written all over his face. "I haven't seen you in almost ten years!" I yelled at him.
"Something's wrong" he mumbled quietly. "What happened in the accident?" He asked quickly. "I believe the nurse said I suffered head injuries.., I lost a year of my memory" I explained. The room fell silent quickly as he wrapped his arms around me once more.
"I'm so sorry" he said through slight tears. He pulled back from the hug and looked away, embarrassed of how he was reacting. "It's not your fault, you couldn't do anything about it" I explained as Shawn sighed. "You right I couldn't do anything about it, it was him, who caused the dam accident" he said a bit harshly. "Who?" "Your boyfriend, the one who said he loved you." As he explained this my mind went blank.
"How much have I missed?" I whispered, quieter than I had intended. "A lot, dad died, and you and Rachel came to live with us, you both got yourself boyfriends somehow, and we are not on good standards at the moment" he explained, as more tears threatened to spill out of his eyes.
"Can I see my boyfriend?" I asked Shawn, I don't know why, but I felt I needed his permission.
"That's not a good idea" he said glancing at the cards I dropped to the ground not that long ago. "Whats this?" He asked picking them up. "A few people sent me cards" I explained.
"Aaron? and Louis?" He said in a shocked manner after he read over the cards.
"Who are they?" I asked quietly. "They are very good friends of mine" he explained. "I'm just surprised because you and Aaron haven't even spoken before and It surprises me to see Louis wrote you. And he said, sorry about what happened the other night? What happened?" He looked at me for an answer.
"I don't know I lost my memory" I said to him like it was talking to an idiot. He muttered something inaudible and hugged me before exiting the room.
Before long, the nurse came back in holding a clipboard with some papers attached. "There is a boy outside that wants to see you, his name is Harry, should I send him in?" She asked politely.
"Not right now, I would like to get some sleep but thank you" I said to her. "Anything else?" She asked quietly.
"Is my sister okay" I said quietly. "Ah yes, Rachel, I'm not allowed to say, but she is alive" She said bitterly. If I didn't know better I would think this nurse was bipolar, she is so nice, than she could care less about anything.
"And how long will I be staying?" I asked. "At least 3 days, for now, just rest" she patted my arm and grabbed my bearly eaten dinner tray before exiting the room.
I muttered a thank you behind her, before I settled down and drifted off to my only sanctuary at the moment, darkness.