There is no possible way I can get out of this one. Instead of showing my true feelings that are totally shit scared I go to the opposite.
“What does it look like?” I’m gonna be a bitch about it.
“It looks like you are snooping in patient files”
“Well done detective”
“Where is your guard?” Anna’s voice quivers as she realises she is alone with a murderer.
“Steph is at lunch” I take a step closer and Anna takes two back. She is backed up against the wall.
“See Anna, this is not my first venture in the patient files and it will most likely not be the last. I really hate getting punished so I will make you a deal.” I take a breath and close the gap between up. I can feel her jagged breathing in my face. Her breath is minty.
“You simply forget you found me in here, because lets be honest I am disappointed in my findings. And in return I’ll tell you some stuff in our next session”
Anna stops breathing as she contemplates what I had said. After a minute Anna nods.
“I need you to say the words dear,” I whisper
“Yes you have a deal I will not tell anyone you were here”
I put Harry’s file back and walk out only to bump into Steph.
“Good timing Steph, Anna and I have just finished”
At lunch Theo is not there again. Not having seen her in a while brings my mood down a little but at least Harry is sitting at my table.
“Hi” I sit
“Hey Vera, how are you?” he asks sweetly
Harry shakes off my mood.
“Harry can I ask you something?”
“You just did,” he laughs at his silly joke. I roll my eyes at him.
“Go on then” he whispers
“When you get out what will be the first thing you do?”
Harry shakes his head.
“Vera your questions are always so, so normal.”
When I don’t answer he continues
“Its very refreshing. But to answer your question I don’t think about it”
“Because I am not ever leaving this place”
His tone is calm and it makes me sad that he just accepts it. That he will, like me be stuck here until death finds us.
“I know I will be here for a long time but I still like to think about”
“What would you do then Vera?”
“I think I would go back to the farm where I grew up. I would go to the living room and drink the bottle of whiskey my father kept for special occasions.”
“You would get drunk?” Harry smiles
“No, there is not much of it left if any at all. My Aunt took everything off me because of what I had done. She said my father would turn over in his grave if he knew everything was left to me”
Harry’s face saddens at my revelation. Shit why do I always have to make everything so serious?
“So Harry how are you liking your time here so far?” I ask trying to lighten the mood.
“Well I have managed to behave myself so there has been no punishments.”
“Is that all?”
“Well you said liked, the bed I have is full of loose springs that dig into me. That Anna lady keeps annoying me with her silly questions. Friday bake day is a load of horseshit and the food is horrible. Do you like it here?”
I nod. “See Harry I have learnt to appreciate things more. Like this one time they let me have a poster in my room and I tried to hurt myself with it so they put me in solitary and took my showers off me for a fortnight. Holy crap I smelt so bad. So even though the shower feels like the soft tears of orphan children its not so bad. And I see the food as a holiday for your teeth because you don’t have to use them”
Harry laughs. “You know what Vera Steele you are something else”
“Will anyone be visiting you this Easter?” Harry asks. I shake my head.
“Do you like chocolate Harry?”
“Yeah who doesn’t?” his reaction makes me giggle
“It is a beautiful sound that is,” He says and I blush scarlet.
“Where the fuck is Vera?” I hear someone yell behind me. I turn and the warden is making her way towards me.
“Oh fuck,” I whisper.
“What is going on?” Harry asks
“Get your sneaky little butt to my office now!” The warden growls.
Lisa Gardner. Age: ancient as hell. Relationship status: single as fuck because she is actually a man. Not really but she easily could have been. The gatekeeper of hell and the warden at Broadmoor.
“So I hear from a little bird that you have been snooping in files that you ought not be in,” Lisa says in a fake sweet voice. I know full well I am some deep shit.
“Would that little birdy happen to be that new whore Anna?” Why did I just say that?
“Now listen here you prance around this place making friends with the staff just so you can use them. Now for a punishment, tie her down,” she orders a guard.
“What, what are you going to do to her?” Steph asks. Ugh Steph shut up will you or you will be shat on too.
“This is going to be just a taste of what will come if anything like this happens again.” Lisa smiles
Lisa stomps towards a cupboard and pulls out a stiff wooden cane. I am now bent over Lisa’s desk with my ass on show. I feel like I should cry but really I am angry. Angry at Lisa for what she is about to do, at that little shit Anna who I will find a way to deal with and also at myself for being so stupid when I should have just asked Harry straight out.
“Now Vera I am going to punish you, and you WILL LEARN TO OBEY” she raises her voice.
The first blow comes and I hear it but it is few seconds before the pain hits me and I yelp. Steph jumps at the noise. Holy shit it stings so bad and by the third blow I can feel wetness.
“Steph” I say through clenched teeth. “Turn around”
Steph turns and bows his head. I really had no idea how much he cared. It makes this shitty situation a bit better.
Fourteen strikes in total not including the extra one for good measure.
“Get her to Theodora” Lisa spits.
Steph carries me in bridal style and lays me on a bed. I turn over onto my stomach. Tears stream down Theo’s face as she removes my jumpsuit and cleans the wound.
“Theo please don’t cry,” I beg
“I’m sorry sweetheart I cant help it, I cant believe she did this to you”
“I can” I turn my head so I don’t have to look at Theo only to see Steph sitting on the other bed with red rimmed eyes.
“You two are soft ok, I will be fine”
Theo takes her time in making sure I am all fixed up. She gives me a clean jumpsuit and a massive hug.
“Thanks for fixing my ass Theo” and she kisses my cheek.
Back in my cell I lay on my bed and finally I let go and cry.