Harry holds my hand as we stand at the train station, waving goodbye to Karen. Last night was a good one. It was so nice to be able to sit and talk with someone other than Harry. I love talking to Harry but it was a nice change. It was a bonus she was a girl too. I got to hold little George. He fell asleep almost instantly but Karen let me hold him a little longer before she put him to bed.
“So beautiful, what do you want to do today?” Harry asks when we get to the car.
“I want to get a tattoo”
Harry bursts into laughter. “No really what should we do today?”
“Oh I am dead serious, we just need to go out to the farm so I can get a few things”
“You are going to get a tattoo?”
“Yes Harry I am”
“Alright then, you do know that they hurt?”
“I am not unfamiliar with pain Harry”
He shudders and directs his attention to the road as he drives me towards the farm.
Wow whoever set this place alight really wanted it to go. Ignition fluid stains the untouched wood, whereas the kitchen is heavily damaged.
“Well someone doesn’t like my cooking”
“Probably for the best” Harry giggles.
“Ha ha” I add sarcastically.
I head straight for my parents wardrobe and kick in the wall.
“Vera?” Harry asks shocked.
“Keep your hair on, mum stashed some cash in here,” I almost grunt as I continue to give the wall a beating.
“Here let me” Harry lifts me up and puts me by the bed. In one swift kick the hiding place is revealed and I pick up the jewellery box containing my inheritance. I am surprised that it all looks to be there.
“Holy shit, how long was she saving?”
“Seven years” I state. I pick up the box and head to the car.
“Right so where is this place I am taking you?”
“Are you shitty?” I ask Harry
“What is on ya mind then beautiful?” Harry smiles at my words.
“I am just nervous about the jury decision”
“You mean if I am going away or not”
“It’s the only thing I can think about” Harry confesses.
“Me too” I admit.
“Harry this is Claudia” Harry nods in the girls direction as he sits immersed in the pictures of tattoo’s she has completed.
“So are you sticking with what we talked about?” Claudia asks.
“If you think you can do it, then I am up for it” I smile.
“It will be easy” She smiles. Harry’s intake of breath is obvious as I remove my shirt. He might have a heart attack next because I have to remove my bra.
I hold my boob up and out of the way for Claudia.
“It will be alright to tattoo over, right?” I ask motioning towards my scar.
“Yeah but it will take longer to heal. And you have to really look after it.”
I nod and Claudia comes at me with needle and ink. I was prepared for pain like Harry said but none came.
“Have you started?” I ask slightly confused.
“Yeah I have almost finished the first bit”
Ok so maybe my tolerance for pain is higher than I thought. It is a bit weird that I feel nothing though. After forty-five minutes of Claudia going hard at my boob the tattoo is finished. She lifts up a mirror for me to look.
“Wow” I smile “Its there for like ever”
There underneath my left boob where my scar lies now only partly visible is a tattoo that reads
‘Lie with me until I fall asleep’
“Can I see, or is that too weird?” Harry asks.
“Get over here silly”
Harry stares thoughtfully at the tattoo for a few minutes. I love to watch his face as he decided what he thinks. Harry says nothing but kisses my forehead and pays for the tattoo.
“Harry” I scold. “I have money now so you don’t have to do that”
“I know” he smirks. “Now get in the car before I leave without you”
“Did it hurt?” Harry asks pulling me closer to him. His bare skin on mine feels so good, so safe I never want to leave.
“Strangely I couldn’t feel a thing” I frown.
Harry moans a little as he stretches his feet out in bed.
“Tomorrow is the day” he whines.
“I hope they still haven’t decided,” I admit.
“Me too baby me too”
“Do you like the tattoo?” I ask. He hasn’t said a word about it.
“It looks nice but I don’t really get it.” He shrugs. I turn over to face him.
“You remember my nightmares those couple of nights I slept after the basement?”
“How could I forget” He shudders. He is such an innocent. It is sweet and comforting that something’s actually do scare him.
“Have you noticed them since?”
He shakes his head.
“I left you the other night and went and slept on the couch.”
I wait for his expression but he waits for me to continue.
“They came back”
“Then why did-“
“I realised then that when I slept with you they didn’t come”
“Lie with me until I fall asleep” he whispers.
“It will be the only commitment you may get from me.”
“I don’t understand” he shakes his head.
“I want to be with you until I you know fall asleep… permenatly.”
Harry kisses me deep and hard.
“Yeah but why is it on your scar?” His question throws me off guard for a moment. I just told him I want him forever and he is questioning the position of it.
“That is the only physical reminder of what happened that night. The reason for my nightmares silly.”
Harry nods and kisses my forehead.
“I want to be reminded of you always” I whisper.
“I love you” I smile.
“I love you too”
“Don’t say too,” I scold.
“Why not, everyone says it?”
“Because it feels like you are agreeing”
“You are an odd chicken Vera” Harry laughs
“Did you just call me a chicken?”
“Might have,” he laughs again and I join in.
“I love you Vera”
“I love you Harry,” I coo.
“Are you scared about tomorrow?” He asks.
“When you are free you wont have to be scared ever again. I will take you to London with me and look after you”
I shake my head. “Lets think about that if the time comes”
“Will you marry me?”