I don't really know how much longer I can take this.
She acts like she loves me sometimes, but most of the time she acts like she hates me, like I'm the worst person in the world.
How am I supposed to have a future with someone who can't stand to talk to me half the time?
I don't know why she hurts me.
I don't know what I do to deserve that.
I don't know when or if it will stop.
But I don't think I can do this much longer.
It hurts you know. It fucking hurts.
I'm not some piece of trash for you to throw around.
I'm not like that.
So if you are going to treat me like that it is going to be a problem.
I love you.
I love you so much.
but I can't handle it.
I can't handle the one second you love me one second you're screaming at me.
All I want is you.....
but all you do is hurt me.
Not even just mentally.
You physically hurt me.
I should tell someone what you did.
I should take it to the office.
I should get you in trouble.
But I won't.
because I still have hope that maybe you'll be nice to me again how you used to.
But I doubt it.