It's been about a week since I relapsed, but I haven't cut again. Niall has kept a close eye on me, not letting me out of his sight for a while. Who could blame him? His girlfriend just took a razor and ruined her skin, I'm not saying he doesn't trust me cause he does, all I'm saying is that he doesn't want it to happen all over again. When the boys found out and I told them it was like I ripped their hearts out. Especially Liam. The thing about being Liam's little sister and he's all famous and big, is that he still has that heart of gold, it didn't go anywhere like I thought it did. It stayed with him, that's what I'm great full for, cause if he didn't have that heart, then who would? No one. Not one could have a heart as big as Liam's and that's why I love him, that's why everyone loves him. I'm currently at school with the girls, sitting in math class waiting for the final bell to ring. "Can the damn thing go any slower, I mean really?!" Roneth complained. I looked at her and threw my pen at her, "Be patient me little child" I said as the bell rang, we all shot out of our seats and went to our lockers. As I was walking up the stairs, all I got was dirty looks and whispers from the other girls walking past me. I ignore them and kept moving on. I opened my locker and put my books in my bag as I turned my phone on and walked back down stairs to meet the girls.
Nialler- I'm coming to pick you and the girls up after school :)
Me-Okie we will wait like we always do..
Nialler- What's wrong princess?
Me- Why can't we just walk or take the bus?...
Nialler- Cause.. We want you all safe and at home:)
Me- Not a good enough answer.
Nialler- Please just be a good girl and let me pick you up.
Nialler- No maybe, or has to be a yes or I will drag your ass in my car.
Me- Have fun, I'm pretty fat.
Nialler- I swear to god...
After that I didn't text him back as I told the girls and we all walked out side and waited for Niall to come get us. "This is getting pretty old.." Violet said. It was hot enough out side and waiting wasn't doing us any good what so ever. "Look, I'm sorry I have to out you through all of this... You guys don't have to be my friends anymore if you don't want this life style.. I totally understand.." I said as I looked down. I can tell that the girls didn't like this, and they where getting pretty annoyed with everything. Roneth looked at me as she shook her head, "babe, we wouldn't change anything for the world, all we are saying is that we want to walk or take a bus, cause damn it's hot outside.." She said the last part all dramatic like. That made me laugh alittle, gosh she made me happy even in the worst times. When Niall's car pulled up, we stood up and popped the trunk open putting our backpacks in as we pilled into the car. "How was school little ladies?" Niall asked as he started to drive. We all shrugged lightly, "boring.. You know the usual stuff.." Violet said as we all giggled lightly. Niall came to a red light and looked back at us, "what's with all the noise back there eh? Can't you see I'm trying to drive" he said as he shook his head, acting as if he was disappointed.
He pulled into the driveway of the house, turning the car off. He pulled his phone out as he looked at me, a small smirk on his face.
Nialler- Stay in the car, I need to tell you something ;)
I looked at the text and bit my lip softy. "Hey, Toula you coming?" Violet asked, she held the door open for me. I shook my head, "Not yet I will be soon" I said. They both shrugged lightly and closed the door. Niall climbed to the back seat, a small smirk still on his face. "You're lucky my windows are tinted" he said as he hovered over me. I looked up at him biting my lip softly. "You're so beautiful.." He said as he began to kiss my neck softly, "you have no idea what you do to me.." He mumbled softly against me next. He ran his hands down my sides as he grabbed my bum softly, wrapping my legs around him. "I need you so badly.." He said. I shook my head lightly, as I did I can hear him huff loudly as he got off of me. "It's cause you're age I know, but Toula I love you and I want to give you everything that I can, even of it means doing something I'm not supposed to do" he said you can hear the desperation in his voice as he spoke. I looked at him as I shook my head again, "I'm just not ready.. I'm sorry.." I said as i grabbed my bag and got out of the car. When I left Niall seemed a little angry and upset. It's not my fault, is it? When I walked inside I out my bag down and walked to the back yard, ignoring everyone who tried to talk to me. I sat in the grass, looking up at the sky, thinking a lot.
~Later that night~
"Anyone know where Niall is?" I asked as I walked down stairs. The boys looked at me, as they shook there heads. "No sweetheart, he went out to the club.. I'm sorry" Liam said as he stood up walking over to me. I had this weird feeling in my stomach as I nodded my head and walked up stairs to go to bed. As I lay in bed the worst thoughts possible had to come to my head. "Do you think Niall would cheat on me?" I asked the girls. "No babe, what you ask that?" Roneth told me. "I don't know, just a thought..." I said, rolling over as I finally fell asleep.