I woke up the next morning, looking to my Right Side. There, I saw Louis, softly snoring with a cute little Smile visible on his Face. I smiled at the sight.
Then, without any warning, he slowly opened his Eyes and a Smile flashed in his face when he laid his eyes on me. "Good Morning Babe." I heard him mumble, pecking me on the lips. "Good Morning Lou." I responded. "You always stare, you know?" He mentioned and I tilted my head. "Does it bother you? Sorry about it."
He shook his head, "No," He paused. "it makes me know that you're concerned about me." He said. "How about me? You're not concerned about me?" I pouted with puppy dog eyes and he pulled me closer so that he could snuggle in with me.
But then, I heard someone ringing my Doorbell desperately and ferociously. Now who could that be again? I thought. "I'll be right back." I told Louis as I got up.
I stomped my way downstairs and to the door. I unlocked my Door and opened it and there revealed my Mom, older than the last time I've seen her. She was now probably around her early 50's.
"Mom?" I said, shocked. She had a few white hair strands, but she still looked a bit young which makes her look like 40 Years old instead of a 50 and above year old lady. "Ashley, sweetie." She called out, her gaze looking sympathetic.
"What are you doing here?" I asked her, assisting her to go to my Couch to take a seat. "I thought you were in America, working."
"Ashley, I have sad news for you." She told me, it looked like she just cried, judging by her voice and eyes. I held her hand, knowing she might start hyperventilating. "Your Father..." She began, knowing that this would be bad news. "He's in the Hospital. He's become weak suddenly, he may not last any longer." She told me and I just sat there as my eyes widened.
I knew that I held a grudge against my Dad and didn't like him very much, I still felt pity for him. He could die any moment now? The news didn't make me feel delighted. I know should have, but I wasn't. I felt sad. I know what I said before, I know I said that I didn't want to see him, that I wish he'll just go away and never exist anymore, but I just couldn't accept it.
"But, he left us..." I blurted out, remembering he has done for us. "But he's still your father. We can never change that. I went back just to see him, and I figured that I would go and let you meet him before he passes away." She explained, looking at me directly in the eyes. "Wait, how'd you know my Address?" I asked her, furrowing my eyebrows. "No time for that, now will you come see him or not?" She asked me once more and I looked down, racking my head.
Should I or shouldn't I? I can't think whether or not I should see him. Am I ready to forgive him for what he's done to my Family? For leaving us behind? "You should." I heard a voice from the stairs. Louis appeared and walked to sat beside me. "I've overheard your Conversation and Ashley, you should. It's best to see him, maybe he has to tell you something important." He explained to me with sincere eyes and I licked my lips. I finally nodded, getting up.
"Shouldn't I go change first?" I asked my Mom and she nodded.
We have finally arrived to the Hospital, Louis driving the vehicle. He came along just to express remorse for my father, which I don't understand why.
We were in the doorstep of the room My Father was held captive in. I felt afraid of what to do. I was unsure whether or not should I go see him. "Go on, get in." My Mother prompted me to, and I heaved out a sigh.
I'm ready. I thought to myself and opened the door. The room was painted white, a few of the paint slowly fading away, just like a Typical Hospital Room. A Flower vase was shown on the beside table, a small TV on the far corner. Then, there I saw, My Father, laying down on the Hospital Bed. Multiple wires were attached to him, along with a monitor overlooking his heartbeat.
He was slowly snoring, his body seemed weak and weary. His hair has turned ash grey, giving a sign that he has grown old. I just stood there, staring at my Father, waiting for him to wake up. "When will he wake up?" I worriedly asked my Mom after a moment of silence. She was seated next to the bed my father laid on. "We'll wait and see." She said as she looked at the Screen of the Monitor. His Heartbeat was slower than the normal rate.
My Father's eyes slowly opened, his eyes quickly directing to me. "Ashley...?" He breathed out, he looked exhausted. "Dad." I answered, biting my Lower Lip. "And your... Best Friend." He told me, pertaining to Louis. Louis nodded and gave him a small smile.
"Child, what are you doing here?" My Father questioned, his voice was hoarse and his eyes' stare remaining to be sad. "I wanted to see you." I responded unsure of what else to say. "But," I began, biting my lower lip. "it doesn't mean I forgave you for what you did."
He looked at me with sad eyes, making me pity him. "Ashley, I knew you'd never forgive me, but allow me to speak out." He spoke to me with pure sadness in his voice. "Now, darling, please give our Daughter and I some privacy." He eyed my Mom and she nodded, pulling Louis away from me.
I looked at my Dad mercifully, but I still acted confident. "Ashley, listen, I know you're holding a grudge against me." He started while I took my seat. "Of course I did." I responded sharply and he raised up his hand, telling me to wait.
"Please child, let me finish." He told me. I nodded earnestly in reply.
"Ashley, I know I was an idiot for leaving you behind, I know I have not been thinking well that time. But, when you left for America and I lived with my Other Family, I have come to think that everything I have done to you were wrong. I shouldn't have left you, My Family was what's most important to me, Your Mother is my one true love, but knowing you, you would hold up a grudge against me and start to hate me, right? So, I knew that things will never be the same, but your mother and I secretly keep in contact, but I know nothing will ever change...
"I'd like to apologize for that, for everything I have done wrong. I apologize for not being there for you when you needed me most. I'm sorry for being... The worst father you can ever have. All the promises I've made for you never came true, and I really would like to make it up to you, if only I'd live longer. I know no words can show how sincere I am, how I want to show how sorry I am... I just hope you'd understand me, how I still care about our Family..." He paused for a while, taking a moment to look to the ground.
"But, Ashley dear, I'll be gone soon, gone from this World. You are grown lady, yes, but you have much to learn. But before I go, I'd like you to forgive me. Forgive me for not being a great dad. That's the only wish I want to come true before I'm gone. Please..." His words slowly trailed away.
I let a tear slip out of my eye, thinking over and over again what my Father told me. I gave him a nod and hugged him very tight as he outstretched his arms to me. We let go and I looked at his warm eyes again.
"Now, Ashley, listen... I'd like to teach you a lesson first that I want you to remember before I'm gone. I know people make mistakes, either little or huge mistakes, everyone has to make one. Not everyone is perfect, not everyone is the same either. Each one of us is unique. I want to tell you that making mistakes is okay, it's natural for people to make mistakes, because mistakes are what you call 'lessons'. You have to remember to always learn from your mistakes in order to make a better future, and because of this, you must also forgive other people no matter what. It's okay to dislike them, or hate them, but better make sure you should forgive them. It's okay to not forgive them for a very long time, but you must forgive them in the end for I know, you will regret it once you know it's your end.
"Oh, and one thing Ashley..." He paused, slowly closing his eyes and opening it again. "Stay Strong no matter what, because there is always someone there for you, someone who will fight for you and protect you. Ashley, I want you to grow up to be a strong woman, someone who is confident and can do things on her own. Never forget that." He finished, looking at me with a small smile. I nodded, noting everything he said.
He slowly closed his eyes, which made me confused. I felt Louis' and Mom's presence behind me and I checked out the monitor. His Heartbeat! I thought to myself. "Call the Nurse..." I whispered out and Louis ran out. "NURSE! NURSE!" Louis' scream filled the hall.
His heart rate was slowing down, meaning it's his time.
I ran Dad's Side. "Dad, please, don't go away yet! Please, don't! Not yet, not when we finally united! Dad..." I kept calling out, my tears flowing down my cheek.
But, when then I heard a loud 'beep!', knowing that he was gone.
The Nurses checked his pulse, checking if there are any signs that he was still breathing. But, the nurse gave us a frown and slowly shook her head. "I'm sorry Miss, but Mr. Brown's time is up..." She announced and I looked down, letting all the tears out. Louis brought me into a hug, allowing me to cry in his chest.
My Dad was now gone.... And I didn't even have a chance to say 'Goodbye'. Or even an 'I Love You'.